Posted in 2019, fight, Focus, Love, Love Journey, poem, Poetry, Relatonships, survivor

I’m Back

You took a lot from me
Look where I’m at.
I had to fight to get here.
I had to overcome my
Demons.
I didn’t realize how broke
I was.
I was living but not really
Living.
I was dead inside
Trying to come back
You never realize the
Damage.
Till it done.
All my warnings
Went out window.
I thought I was in love
But you just wanted another
Notch under your belt.
You may have broken me
I’m a survivor.
Overcame my demons
And won
I’m back and better than ever.

5.8.19

~PJ~

No matter who you are, we can get taken and played. It’s how you return to the top that define you. Don’t let your mistakes stop you. Dedicated to love journey. Do Enjoy! God Bless

Posted in 2019, family, Love, Mother, My Life, poem, Poetry

GodMother

Today is Mothers Day

I would have picked up the phone

To ring you and say Happy Mother Day

But you not here with us anymore

I’m still confuse

I still want you here with us

Above ground.

Today is Mothers Day

And you are miss dearly

I walk by rack yesterday

Had my mind set on what to get you?

I pick it up and showed my mother.

You not here

I just knew you were going to make it

Today Mothers Day.

I’m thinking of you.

Oh, how I miss you.

I love you.

5.12.19

~PJ~

I was in tjmaxx shopping and saw something she wanted and had my eyes/heart give it to her. The memories know how slow you down. Do Enjoy. Hope everyone had a good mothers day. God Bless

Posted in 2019, fight, Heart, poem, Poetry, Strength, strong

Staying Away

I’m staying away.
I refuse to hear any bad news
My heart
Can’t seem to grip reality
I know I need to be strong
But my body won’t let me
I gotta stay away.
My heart can’t take bad news.
I’m believing you
Going to make it
Your strong woman.
You won’t give up.
I can’t see you in that bed.
So many times i
Wanted to pick up the phone
And hear your voice.
Always had some kind
Of excuse not call.
I wish I had called more.
Came around more.
I just know
You coming home soon
I’m sorry.
I didn’t do right by you.

5.7.19

~PJ~

I wrote this a few hours before got the news she passed away. Still, so hard believe she truly gone. God Bless

Posted in 2019, Death, emotions, Goodbye, memories, poem, Poetry

More than Memories

They quick to say you’ll have memories
I don’t want the memories
I want you here with us.
Maybe im been selfish.
But I don’t care.
What are memories?
When you can pick up the phone to tell them
You love them.
When you can hug them.
And hear their laughter.
All I have is memories
I need more.
I want more.
More time.
I’m not ready to say goodbye
Memories aren’t enough
I just need
No, I just want
More time.

5.10.19

~PJ~

More of my feelings and emotions. I lost my Godma. Guess I should be lucky/bless I had her as long as I did. Almost shared my age. It’s nothing like having them here with us. Make sure let your loved ones know you love them.

Posted in 2019, Death, God, life, poem, Poetry

Life And Death

God, they say death is a part of life
I use to agree
It hits different when close to home
Living is where it’s at
Oh God
I wish I could rewind the clock back
Make different choices
Say love you more
Hear your voice one more time
I’m sorry
I fail you in that part.
Death shouldn’t be a part of life.
Living should be part of life
Been here on earth with
Us
Who loves you

5.9.19

~PJ~

My heart is broken and I’m angry at the same time. If you read Dear God poem and Fighting to Live. She lost the battle and gone home to be with God. I just wish she was still here. Do Enjoy! Blessings

Posted in 2019, fight, God, Love, poem, Poetry, prayer, Strength

Fighting to Live

You fighting to live
Only God got last say so.
The doctor didn’t think
You’ll ever open your eyes.
My God
Is amazing
No love
Greater then his
You a winner
Don’t stop fighting.
Prayer warriors.
Stand around and behind you.
You may have got hit with a stroke
And blood on the brain
My God
My God
My God
Is a healer.
Yes, he is.
He was in the room watching over you.
Through surgery
Nobody but God.
You a fighter
In a fight, of your life.
Just keep fighting
And beating odds.

5.5.19

~PJ~
I haven’t been all here to blog. A week ago wrote a poem called Dear God, this is the continuing piece, update whatever you want to call it. Do enjoy. God Bless

Posted in 2019, Focus, Heart, Love Journey, memories, poem, Poetry, Relatonships

Step Back

I had to step back and take a look
I got tired of being the one putting
In work for us.
I was the one picking up the phone
See how your day went.
I was the one doing the most
I had to reelevate us
I had to stop being a fool
And take my life back.
I’m not going to lie.
I think of you constantly
I wish I could hear your voice
Feel your heartbeat beating
As one
I wish you miss me as much
As I miss you.
I wish I wish I wish
I could get my wish
And you be the man for me
I done step back
And seen my worth

4.30.19

~PJ~

Day 30. Wow shared a poem every day for the whole month. May have reposted a few, but you never know what a person going through and it speaks to them. Do enjoy. God Bless.

Will feel good to step back and put my thoughts in perspective. I see a lot of writing in future.

Posted in 2019, Death, Goodbye, life, Love, poem, Poetry

Tomorrow Not Promise

Tomorrow not promise to anyone
So many dying left and right.
Tomorrow not promise
It could be last time saying
Goodbye
It could be my last time saying
I love you
Tomorrow not promise
I love you today
I cherish you
I love you
I’m sorry
Tomorrow not promise to anyone
Let me show you
I love you
Let me tell you.
I love you
I said
Tomorrow not promise
To anyone.

4.29.19

~PJ~

Day 29. You never know when it’s your last time on earth. Make sure let your loved ones know you love them. Don’t put it off any longer. Lately so many leaving this earth and we left with regrets. Do Enjoy. God Bless

Posted in 2013, Children, Encouragement, family, God, Health, Hope, Jesus, Lord, Love, Mother, Motivation, poem, Poetry

Hold On

You can do it!
Don’t lose hope!
I believe in you!
Hold on to his name!
God hasn’t left you
You can do it!
Don’t you dare give up!
I believe in you!
Baby,
God hasn’t left your side
He making a way!
Call out his name!
Jesus, you’re my Savior
I may be down and out!
You the one I need
You can do it!
I believe in your will!
Thank you, Lord!

6/12/13

~PJ~

Day 28. This poem means so much to me. I and bestie were on the phone while she and her bro was helping mom. She had a stroke at the time and bestie wanted to take care of her mom herself. Her mom love for God and her determination to keep fighting. That’s amazing.

Posted in 2019, Heart, Love, Love Journey, My Journey, My Love Journey, poem, Poetry

To be healed

I had to wait for my heart to heal.
I had to forgive myself
I had to learn to love me again
I never realize the hell you took me
Through
I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror.
I hated everything you took me through
I had to wait for my heart to heal
Boy you broke me
You destroy everything I was.
I had to learn to love me again
I had to have chat with myself
Teach myself you are worthy
I had to show myself
Who I was
That I was worthy
To be love
Boy
You showed me how strong I could be
Once reality kicked in.
I saw me returning to the strong woman
I once was.
I just had to wait
I had to learn to forgive myself
I just had to wait
To my heart heal
And I felt my worth
It was amazing
Feeling
To know my worth
To be loved
The way I loved you.
It’s an amazing feeling
To be healed

4.27.19

~PJ~Day 27. Feels good to express myself more and more after not writing for almost 2yrs. Do enjoy God Bless