Posted in 2019, emotions, God, Love, Love Journey, My Journey, poem, Poetic, Poetry

Pulling Me Back

I don’t want to think of you
I’m trying to let go
You keep pulling me back
I don’t want to hurt anymore
I’m trying to see my future without you
You keep pulling me back
I’m sitting here
With regret and frustration.
But deep down I know it’s you I want.
You may not be what I need.
But that’s between me and God.
You came in my life
When I was ready for love
When I needed someone
I was so ready to give up
But the way you stepped to me
Stop me in my tracks.
But you turned out to be a tornado
Destroying everything
From my walls
That been up for the past few years
I’m losing the battle
And I can’t have that.
You keep pulling me back
I’m trying to fight my feelings
My heart
Isn’t having it.
My head is saying run
I’m stuck
In my feelings
I’m trying to come to terms
With my emotions and let’s just say
You making it easy to turn my back
And walk away.
But I know deep down
I can’t just walk away
Without expressing how you make
Me feel.

8.7.19

~PJ

I have been writing a lot lately and here is one of my pieces just finish last night. Do enjoy and let me know what you think. God Bless

Posted in 2019, God, Heart, Love, poem, Poetic, Poetry

Patient

Me Praying God this man doesn’t make a fool of me.
Asking God spare my heart just in case
Telling my future self love is worthy
I’m more than enough
Encouraging my sister’s self-love the way to go.
Never losing ourself to someone who never saw our worth.
Taking time see what’s right in front of us.

7.22.19

~PJ~

I know still have an update to do, but got encourage to write short poem. Do enjoy and God Bless

Posted in 2019, child, family, poem, Poetry

Happy 11th Birthday

Today is your birthday
Its time to celebrate
Turning another year older
I can’t believe how fast your
Grown.
It seems like yesterday.
You were born.
Now you turning the big
11.
Happy Birthday.
My cat lover
My slime maker.
My sassy mouth
Curly head.
Neice.
I’m so thankful for you.
Happy Birthday
My love
Its time to party.

5.14.19

~PJ~

No greater love than God. When she was born she was always a happy baby. I could be hurting and she would brighten up my day. Funny thing is I was hoping they had her on my bday. Enjoy n God Bless

Posted in 2019, fight, Focus, Love, Love Journey, poem, Poetry, Relatonships, survivor

I’m Back

You took a lot from me
Look where I’m at.
I had to fight to get here.
I had to overcome my
Demons.
I didn’t realize how broke
I was.
I was living but not really
Living.
I was dead inside
Trying to come back
You never realize the
Damage.
Till it done.
All my warnings
Went out window.
I thought I was in love
But you just wanted another
Notch under your belt.
You may have broken me
I’m a survivor.
Overcame my demons
And won
I’m back and better than ever.

5.8.19

~PJ~

No matter who you are, we can get taken and played. It’s how you return to the top that define you. Don’t let your mistakes stop you. Dedicated to love journey. Do Enjoy! God Bless

Posted in 2019, family, Love, Mother, My Life, poem, Poetry

GodMother

Today is Mothers Day

I would have picked up the phone

To ring you and say Happy Mother Day

But you not here with us anymore

I’m still confuse

I still want you here with us

Above ground.

Today is Mothers Day

And you are miss dearly

I walk by rack yesterday

Had my mind set on what to get you?

I pick it up and showed my mother.

You not here

I just knew you were going to make it

Today Mothers Day.

I’m thinking of you.

Oh, how I miss you.

I love you.

5.12.19

~PJ~

I was in tjmaxx shopping and saw something she wanted and had my eyes/heart give it to her. The memories know how slow you down. Do Enjoy. Hope everyone had a good mothers day. God Bless

Posted in 2019, fight, Heart, poem, Poetry, Strength, strong

Staying Away

I’m staying away.
I refuse to hear any bad news
My heart
Can’t seem to grip reality
I know I need to be strong
But my body won’t let me
I gotta stay away.
My heart can’t take bad news.
I’m believing you
Going to make it
Your strong woman.
You won’t give up.
I can’t see you in that bed.
So many times i
Wanted to pick up the phone
And hear your voice.
Always had some kind
Of excuse not call.
I wish I had called more.
Came around more.
I just know
You coming home soon
I’m sorry.
I didn’t do right by you.

5.7.19

~PJ~

I wrote this a few hours before got the news she passed away. Still, so hard believe she truly gone. God Bless

Posted in 2019, Death, emotions, Goodbye, memories, poem, Poetry

More than Memories

They quick to say you’ll have memories
I don’t want the memories
I want you here with us.
Maybe im been selfish.
But I don’t care.
What are memories?
When you can pick up the phone to tell them
You love them.
When you can hug them.
And hear their laughter.
All I have is memories
I need more.
I want more.
More time.
I’m not ready to say goodbye
Memories aren’t enough
I just need
No, I just want
More time.

5.10.19

~PJ~

More of my feelings and emotions. I lost my Godma. Guess I should be lucky/bless I had her as long as I did. Almost shared my age. It’s nothing like having them here with us. Make sure let your loved ones know you love them.

Posted in 2019, Death, God, life, poem, Poetry

Life And Death

God, they say death is a part of life
I use to agree
It hits different when close to home
Living is where it’s at
Oh God
I wish I could rewind the clock back
Make different choices
Say love you more
Hear your voice one more time
I’m sorry
I fail you in that part.
Death shouldn’t be a part of life.
Living should be part of life
Been here on earth with
Us
Who loves you

5.9.19

~PJ~

My heart is broken and I’m angry at the same time. If you read Dear God poem and Fighting to Live. She lost the battle and gone home to be with God. I just wish she was still here. Do Enjoy! Blessings

Posted in 2019, fight, God, Love, poem, Poetry, prayer, Strength

Fighting to Live

You fighting to live
Only God got last say so.
The doctor didn’t think
You’ll ever open your eyes.
My God
Is amazing
No love
Greater then his
You a winner
Don’t stop fighting.
Prayer warriors.
Stand around and behind you.
You may have got hit with a stroke
And blood on the brain
My God
My God
My God
Is a healer.
Yes, he is.
He was in the room watching over you.
Through surgery
Nobody but God.
You a fighter
In a fight, of your life.
Just keep fighting
And beating odds.

5.5.19

~PJ~
I haven’t been all here to blog. A week ago wrote a poem called Dear God, this is the continuing piece, update whatever you want to call it. Do enjoy. God Bless

Posted in 2019, Focus, Heart, Love Journey, memories, poem, Poetry, Relatonships

Step Back

I had to step back and take a look
I got tired of being the one putting
In work for us.
I was the one picking up the phone
See how your day went.
I was the one doing the most
I had to reelevate us
I had to stop being a fool
And take my life back.
I’m not going to lie.
I think of you constantly
I wish I could hear your voice
Feel your heartbeat beating
As one
I wish you miss me as much
As I miss you.
I wish I wish I wish
I could get my wish
And you be the man for me
I done step back
And seen my worth

4.30.19

~PJ~

Day 30. Wow shared a poem every day for the whole month. May have reposted a few, but you never know what a person going through and it speaks to them. Do enjoy. God Bless.

Will feel good to step back and put my thoughts in perspective. I see a lot of writing in future.