Posted in 2020, Heart, Love, My Journey, My Love Journey, poem, Poetic, Poetry, Relatonships

When is you going wake up??

When are you going wake up
And see I dont want anything from you.
All I want is your time and heart.
Im not asking for your change.
You got a woman who cares for you
Spiritual, mental and emotionally
When you going wake up
To see Im not here for the fame
Im not here for your money
Im here cause I care.
I worry for you
Can you sense it?
I done fought for you so long
When are you going to wake up?
I dont fight
I just walk
But you made a mark in my life
Damn
Maybe I need a wake-up
And see you trying let old you come to play
Im stubborn and like learn on my own
Me waking up
It is like you taking heed to what im saying.
Can you feel what im saying?

4.4.20

~PJ~

A poem dedicated to poetry month and for yesterday and today. Welcome to my crazy love journey. Looks like I’m telling my story backward. Do enjoy and God Bless

Posted in 2020, fight, Love, My Journey, My Life, My Love Journey, poem, Poetry, Relatonships

Never Knew

I never knew how deep my love.
Could be for another man
Its crazy cause after the last
I was done with fuckery and
Knew damn well my heart couldn’t
Be touch again after shutting down
After my last mistake
That really took me back to the old
Me.
Cold-hearted
But you..
What can I say..
Our first interaction was EPIC!!!
Till this day I can’t get it out my head.
Damn a TAURUS at that
That should have been a warning
But im stubborn and warnings is
Like a GO for me.
I can name other reasons
But what’s the point.
I love how you became a person
I could count on without me realizing it
I love how you sneak your way in
Without me knowing I cared for you
I love you for many reasons
For staying when you should have a walk
From get-go
For fighting for me as you say.
I plead 5 on that.
But I give it to you.
Never thought I’ll meet someone worth
Fighting for
Im selfish
I want you to myself
But I can’t have you to myself

3.24.20

~PJ~

Do enjoy and let me know what you think. Going to add it to My Love Journey. God Bless

Posted in 2020, God, Heart, life, Life Lessons, Listen, My Life, My Love Journey, poem, Poetic, Pray, queen, Relatonships

Bigger Picture

My heart hurts so bad right now
I done made the biggest mistake
And fallen for a man
Who only thought of me
As a chess piece
The time I needed to be strong
I fail myself
Im standing in the rain
With a broken heart
Im a Queen
In dire need
If you see me walking with
Head hanging down
Please mind your own business
Im dealing with my lost
One after another.
I need to go back to the time things
Was simpler and remember my damn
Place.
God will give it to you

And take it away.
Im dealing with my lost
And having a talk with my master
Let me do this alone.
He never left me when I had it all
And didnt know how to act.
Dealing with heartbreak when
The world going thru pandemic
It seems so trivial.
To worry about a Lil heartbreak.
When God is showing me a bigger
Pic

4.1.20

~PJ~

Hope you enjoy. I have been working on this piece for over a month. Glad to finish it for poetry month. Do let me know what y’all think. God Bless

Posted in 2020, emotions, Love, My Journey, My Love Journey, poem, Poetic, Poetry, Relatonships

I need you

I need you

I need you for reasons you cant imagine
I need you on days I want to throw in the towel
I need you even when you give me hell
I need you
Baby
I need you as much as you need me.
Needing you has become part of me
Hearing your voice reminds me just how much i need you
Healing you
Is what you need
I need you
To be ready to love me
Without your past pulling you in
To be ready break down walls
Baby
I need you
Im needing You
More and more
While needing you
I’m hurting you and us
I need you
On days I’m fighting
To not express how I feel
On days saying enough can get me by
I need you
Understand
I’m struggling on you loving me
And me letting your love heal
What’s so damage
That I’m ashamed of my brokeness
I need you
2.8.9.20

~PJ~

A new poem dedicated to My Love Journey and emotions. Do enjoy an der me know what you think. God Bless

Posted in 2019, emotions, Health, Heart, Journey, My Journey, My Life, poem, Poetry

In A Crisis

My heart beating to so many emotions
I’m trying to figure if I should stay
Or go
I’m in crisis
My body betraying me
I’m losing the battle
Within myself
It out of control
I can’t come to terms with my emotions
I’m in crisis
And my frustration is at breaking point
I’m losing control
The old me returning
I’m struggling in crisis.
I’m in need of deliverance
I’m in crisis
Crying out
For help
I can’t take it any longer.
I’m in crisis
My head spinning
I’m losing control
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
I’m losing control
My body betraying me
My emotions
Done destroyed me
I’m out of control
Yo
I’m in crisis
Can you help me?

11.8.19

~PJ~
This poem is dedicated to my life. Do enjoy and let me know what y’all think. God Bless

Posted in 2019, emotions, God, Love, Love Journey, My Journey, poem, Poetic, Poetry

Pulling Me Back

I don’t want to think of you
I’m trying to let go
You keep pulling me back
I don’t want to hurt anymore
I’m trying to see my future without you
You keep pulling me back
I’m sitting here
With regret and frustration.
But deep down I know it’s you I want.
You may not be what I need.
But that’s between me and God.
You came in my life
When I was ready for love
When I needed someone
I was so ready to give up
But the way you stepped to me
Stop me in my tracks.
But you turned out to be a tornado
Destroying everything
From my walls
That been up for the past few years
I’m losing the battle
And I can’t have that.
You keep pulling me back
I’m trying to fight my feelings
My heart
Isn’t having it.
My head is saying run
I’m stuck
In my feelings
I’m trying to come to terms
With my emotions and let’s just say
You making it easy to turn my back
And walk away.
But I know deep down
I can’t just walk away
Without expressing how you make
Me feel.

8.7.19

~PJ

I have been writing a lot lately and here is one of my pieces just finish last night. Do enjoy and let me know what you think. God Bless

Posted in 2019, God, Heart, Love, poem, Poetic, Poetry

Patient

Me Praying God this man doesn’t make a fool of me.
Asking God spare my heart just in case
Telling my future self love is worthy
I’m more than enough
Encouraging my sister’s self-love the way to go.
Never losing ourself to someone who never saw our worth.
Taking time see what’s right in front of us.

7.22.19

~PJ~

I know still have an update to do, but got encourage to write short poem. Do enjoy and God Bless

Posted in 2019, child, family, poem, Poetry

Happy 11th Birthday

Today is your birthday
Its time to celebrate
Turning another year older
I can’t believe how fast your
Grown.
It seems like yesterday.
You were born.
Now you turning the big
11.
Happy Birthday.
My cat lover
My slime maker.
My sassy mouth
Curly head.
Neice.
I’m so thankful for you.
Happy Birthday
My love
Its time to party.

5.14.19

~PJ~

No greater love than God. When she was born she was always a happy baby. I could be hurting and she would brighten up my day. Funny thing is I was hoping they had her on my bday. Enjoy n God Bless

Posted in 2019, fight, Focus, Love, Love Journey, poem, Poetry, Relatonships, survivor

I’m Back

You took a lot from me
Look where I’m at.
I had to fight to get here.
I had to overcome my
Demons.
I didn’t realize how broke
I was.
I was living but not really
Living.
I was dead inside
Trying to come back
You never realize the
Damage.
Till it done.
All my warnings
Went out window.
I thought I was in love
But you just wanted another
Notch under your belt.
You may have broken me
I’m a survivor.
Overcame my demons
And won
I’m back and better than ever.

5.8.19

~PJ~

No matter who you are, we can get taken and played. It’s how you return to the top that define you. Don’t let your mistakes stop you. Dedicated to love journey. Do Enjoy! God Bless

Posted in 2019, family, Love, Mother, My Life, poem, Poetry

GodMother

Today is Mothers Day

I would have picked up the phone

To ring you and say Happy Mother Day

But you not here with us anymore

I’m still confuse

I still want you here with us

Above ground.

Today is Mothers Day

And you are miss dearly

I walk by rack yesterday

Had my mind set on what to get you?

I pick it up and showed my mother.

You not here

I just knew you were going to make it

Today Mothers Day.

I’m thinking of you.

Oh, how I miss you.

I love you.

5.12.19

~PJ~

I was in tjmaxx shopping and saw something she wanted and had my eyes/heart give it to her. The memories know how slow you down. Do Enjoy. Hope everyone had a good mothers day. God Bless