Posted in 2019, emotions, God, Love, Love Journey, My Journey, poem, Poetic, Poetry

Pulling Me Back

I don’t want to think of you
I’m trying to let go
You keep pulling me back
I don’t want to hurt anymore
I’m trying to see my future without you
You keep pulling me back
I’m sitting here
With regret and frustration.
But deep down I know it’s you I want.
You may not be what I need.
But that’s between me and God.
You came in my life
When I was ready for love
When I needed someone
I was so ready to give up
But the way you stepped to me
Stop me in my tracks.
But you turned out to be a tornado
Destroying everything
From my walls
That been up for the past few years
I’m losing the battle
And I can’t have that.
You keep pulling me back
I’m trying to fight my feelings
My heart
Isn’t having it.
My head is saying run
I’m stuck
In my feelings
I’m trying to come to terms
With my emotions and let’s just say
You making it easy to turn my back
And walk away.
But I know deep down
I can’t just walk away
Without expressing how you make
Me feel.

8.7.19

~PJ

I have been writing a lot lately and here is one of my pieces just finish last night. Do enjoy and let me know what you think. God Bless

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Posted in 2019, fight, Love, Love Journey, Love Lesson, Relatonships

Love Lesson

What a powerful message. I wanted to take it back and just share a love lesson. Were so quick jump in a relationship just as well as jump out of it without fighting for it. We have lost how to communicate with our other half. When to love and when to throw in the towel have become the new norm. We have stopped trying to fix us and started moving to the next person.

When do you decide to fight? And when do you just walk away? Is love worth all the ups and downs? In my opinion, I believe it’s worth it.

If you can see the image, do let me know. For some odd reason, they not showing on my end.

Posted in 2019, chronic illness, Love, Love Journey, My Journey, My Love Journey, My Love Journey Thought, online dating

My Love Journey Thoughts

Dating with chronic illness. When do you let them know about it? I always have kept it to myself for so many years. The last person that was in my life understood what I went thru because he had someone in his family with the same illness. Do living with sickness stop yall from dating? Everyone doesn’t deserve to know. And everyone cant handle just what we go through on a daily. I have debated with this question in my head for so long. I’m at the point and saying screw love and my journey. I have had two friends tell me I’m wrong to think like that. Who knows maybe they’re right. I can’t hide behind my illness.

~TO BE CONTINUED~

Posted in 2019, Love, Love Journey, love thought, My Journey, My Love Journey, My Love Journey Thought, Relatonships, worth

My Love Journey Thoughts

When looking for love and dating. How do yall feel about them calling you sweetie, baby, sexy, etc? I’m not fond of it, just be honest. You don’t know me so don’t come at me with sweet talk. I feel like we have let them pass because we think its cute are whatever reason may be. Sweet talking doesn’t work on me. What happens to talk to the opposite sex with respect? If you correct them they want to call you a female dog. Why should I lose my worth because they have lost their dang mind on the correct way speak to me with some sense. Am I wrong for thinking like that. Fellas how do yall feel about woman calling yall sexy, handsome, etc?

Posted in 2019, Love Journey, My Journey, My Life, My Love Journey Thought, online dating, Relatonships

My Love Journey Thoughts

I never saw myself giving online dating a chance. And let me just tell you it’s not all that is cracked up to be. Some of the profiles are a joke and make you wonder why you even here. I have to take many breaks. If you have done online dating what did you look for are should I say did you know what you were looking for.? I ask that because you can say what you looking for and still the crazy ones won’t come at you sideways. I do know what I want, I don’t believe I find him online. But who knows God may place him in my path.

~TO BE CONTINUE~

Posted in 2019, Faith, God, Love, Love Journey, love thought, My Journey, My Love Journey, My Love Journey Thought, Relatonships

My Love Journey Thoughts

Does love truly find us in odd situations? Do we find it or go looking for it? Do we wait? I was always told We first got to help ourselves. Is that true when looking for love? Or does that mean we should discover who we are, or get ourselves out into the dating world? Can we truly find love online? I decided to give it a try. I don’t have high hopes for it. It’s good and bad in every situation when dealing with dating. How do you know when to go for it or step away. I’m putting my FAITH in GOD. He’s going to lead me. I also wonder if love could be really for me.

~TO BE CONTINUE~

Getting my toes wet and seen what it’s all about. Join me on my Journey, do share some of your experience are thoughts with me. Until next time. God Bless

Posted in 2019, fight, Focus, Love, Love Journey, poem, Poetry, Relatonships, survivor

I’m Back

You took a lot from me
Look where I’m at.
I had to fight to get here.
I had to overcome my
Demons.
I didn’t realize how broke
I was.
I was living but not really
Living.
I was dead inside
Trying to come back
You never realize the
Damage.
Till it done.
All my warnings
Went out window.
I thought I was in love
But you just wanted another
Notch under your belt.
You may have broken me
I’m a survivor.
Overcame my demons
And won
I’m back and better than ever.

5.8.19

~PJ~

No matter who you are, we can get taken and played. It’s how you return to the top that define you. Don’t let your mistakes stop you. Dedicated to love journey. Do Enjoy! God Bless

Posted in 2019, Focus, Heart, Love Journey, memories, poem, Poetry, Relatonships

Step Back

I had to step back and take a look
I got tired of being the one putting
In work for us.
I was the one picking up the phone
See how your day went.
I was the one doing the most
I had to reelevate us
I had to stop being a fool
And take my life back.
I’m not going to lie.
I think of you constantly
I wish I could hear your voice
Feel your heartbeat beating
As one
I wish you miss me as much
As I miss you.
I wish I wish I wish
I could get my wish
And you be the man for me
I done step back
And seen my worth

4.30.19

~PJ~

Day 30. Wow shared a poem every day for the whole month. May have reposted a few, but you never know what a person going through and it speaks to them. Do enjoy. God Bless.

Will feel good to step back and put my thoughts in perspective. I see a lot of writing in future.

Posted in 2019, Heart, Love, Love Journey, My Journey, My Love Journey, poem, Poetry

To be healed

I had to wait for my heart to heal.
I had to forgive myself
I had to learn to love me again
I never realize the hell you took me
Through
I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror.
I hated everything you took me through
I had to wait for my heart to heal
Boy you broke me
You destroy everything I was.
I had to learn to love me again
I had to have chat with myself
Teach myself you are worthy
I had to show myself
Who I was
That I was worthy
To be love
Boy
You showed me how strong I could be
Once reality kicked in.
I saw me returning to the strong woman
I once was.
I just had to wait
I had to learn to forgive myself
I just had to wait
To my heart heal
And I felt my worth
It was amazing
Feeling
To know my worth
To be loved
The way I loved you.
It’s an amazing feeling
To be healed

4.27.19

~PJ~Day 27. Feels good to express myself more and more after not writing for almost 2yrs. Do enjoy God Bless