Good Morning and Welcome to My World!! I don’t know if I’ll return to blogging. My world has come crashing down on me. I know it’s best to write then let it all build up on me before I explode. I lost my ole man on 6, cancer took him from me. I’m actually doing stuff to not think of him not bn here. But it’s hard when he was my hero. I finally wrote last night and it broke my heart. I know he in a better place but I just want him here with me. I did get a chance to tell him I love him the night before. He didn’t say it back he was hurting so bad. Omg to see him suffering was heartbreaking. I wish I could rewind time back to when he was healthy and strong. I know we’re not suppose to question God, but I wasn’t ready to let him go. I knew deep down I was going loss him, but not so soon. I think I’m going end post here. It’s breaking my heart. I do pray all is well with each and everyone of you all. God Bless
Category: emotions
I need you
I need you
I need you for reasons you cant imagine
I need you on days I want to throw in the towel
I need you even when you give me hell
I need you
Baby
I need you as much as you need me.
Needing you has become part of me
Hearing your voice reminds me just how much i need you
Healing you
Is what you need
I need you
To be ready to love me
Without your past pulling you in
To be ready break down walls
Baby
I need you
Im needing You
More and more
While needing you
I’m hurting you and us
I need you
On days I’m fighting
To not express how I feel
On days saying enough can get me by
I need you
Understand
I’m struggling on you loving me
And me letting your love heal
What’s so damage
That I’m ashamed of my brokeness
I need you
2.8.9.20
~PJ~
A new poem dedicated to My Love Journey and emotions. Do enjoy an der me know what you think. God Bless
In A Crisis
My heart beating to so many emotions
I’m trying to figure if I should stay
Or go
I’m in crisis
My body betraying me
I’m losing the battle
Within myself
It out of control
I can’t come to terms with my emotions
I’m in crisis
And my frustration is at breaking point
I’m losing control
The old me returning
I’m struggling in crisis.
I’m in need of deliverance
I’m in crisis
Crying out
For help
I can’t take it any longer.
I’m in crisis
My head spinning
I’m losing control
Can you hear me?
Do you see me?
I’m losing control
My body betraying me
My emotions
Done destroyed me
I’m out of control
Yo
I’m in crisis
Can you help me?
11.8.19
~PJ~
This poem is dedicated to my life. Do enjoy and let me know what y’all think. God Bless
Pulling Me Back
I don’t want to think of you
I’m trying to let go
You keep pulling me back
I don’t want to hurt anymore
I’m trying to see my future without you
You keep pulling me back
I’m sitting here
With regret and frustration.
But deep down I know it’s you I want.
You may not be what I need.
But that’s between me and God.
You came in my life
When I was ready for love
When I needed someone
I was so ready to give up
But the way you stepped to me
Stop me in my tracks.
But you turned out to be a tornado
Destroying everything
From my walls
That been up for the past few years
I’m losing the battle
And I can’t have that.
You keep pulling me back
I’m trying to fight my feelings
My heart
Isn’t having it.
My head is saying run
I’m stuck
In my feelings
I’m trying to come to terms
With my emotions and let’s just say
You making it easy to turn my back
And walk away.
But I know deep down
I can’t just walk away
Without expressing how you make
Me feel.
8.7.19
~PJ
I have been writing a lot lately and here is one of my pieces just finish last night. Do enjoy and let me know what you think. God Bless
More than Memories
They quick to say you’ll have memories
I don’t want the memories
I want you here with us.
Maybe im been selfish.
But I don’t care.
What are memories?
When you can pick up the phone to tell them
You love them.
When you can hug them.
And hear their laughter.
All I have is memories
I need more.
I want more.
More time.
I’m not ready to say goodbye
Memories aren’t enough
I just need
No, I just want
More time.
5.10.19
~PJ~
More of my feelings and emotions. I lost my Godma. Guess I should be lucky/bless I had her as long as I did. Almost shared my age. It’s nothing like having them here with us. Make sure let your loved ones know you love them.
The Past
I don’t want a reason to feel…
I’m tired of going back and forth
About you.
With my heart.
I just don’t want to think about you at all
I want you to stay in my past.
Why why
Am I still thinking about you in my present?
I don’t want to think about you.
I don’t want to feel anything
When you come to mind.
I want you to stay in my past
Where all my mistakes live
12.8.17
~PJ~
Day 20. A blast from the past when came across the poem. Was just telling my friend its good see where I was back then. Seem come a long way. Do enjoy.
Full Of Love
You know I love you
No No
I gotta hear at times
Action speaks louder than words.
I show you every day.
But baby I need to hear them
Time of two
You say know I love you.
But you acting like I don’t.
You know I love you.
No No
I want to hear you say it
A time of two
Baby
I love you
You love me
The world going know our love
The way I look at you
Is with love in my eyes
The way I touch you.
That’s love.
The way we carry on
Baby,
If you don’t know by the
The way we make love.
I don’t know what to say.
I’m lost for words.
Cause my love is for you.
I love you
Remember action speaks louder than words.
Don’t ever doubt our love.
4.12.19
~PJ~
Photo/Title
Siomaria
Day 12. I usually ask my friend for help when it comes to pictures. I didn’t even have a title yet and as soon as she read it. She gave me one. Do enjoy.
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