On dis journey I have come across loving a man that was so broken that it took all of me to get his armour down. I have come to understand some or just for a season to heal so we can learn a lesson or two. I’m not going lie I made the mistake and fell a few times and got burn. I also have learn that some are out to use what you have to give. My Journey with love has been very bumpy.
Has been just that over the years. I have learn so much from my mistakes, the joys, pain, even the mishaps ( such as not seen what I had right in front of me before it was too late)..
Im in my darn feelings…
But it’s time for me to come
To my freaking sense..
bump the past…
On to the next…
The past is the past for a reason….
I’m thanking God the year is almost
Over…
To be able to leave my mishaps and
Heartbreak in 2015.
Seems like a good idea,
But I know it’s going to haunt
Me and in the following year.
I just pray I’m strong to not go
Back…..
I messed up.
I got carry away once I slipped
Into my freaking feelings ..
My heart
12/12/15
~PJ~
I have bn writing, just havent had the time to post due to health and holidays, do hope you all enjoy. dedicated to my love journey do enjoy. God bless;)
Im in my darn feelings…
But it’s time for me to come
To my freaking sense..
bump the past…
On to the next…
The past is the past for a reason….
I’m thanking God the year is almost
Over…
To be able to leave my mishaps and
Heartbreak in 2015.
Seems like a good idea,
But I know it’s going to haunt
Me and in the following year.
I just pray I’m strong to not go
Back…..
I messed up.
I got carry away once I slipped
Into my freaking feelings ..
My heart
12/12/15
I have bn writing, just havent had the time to post due to health and holidays, do hope you all enjoy. dedicated to my love journey do enjoy. God bless;)
Welcome to my world, I know it bn awhile since I wrote or had the courage to type. I have bn going thru a lot with my illness and dealing with idiot doctors I’m glad it’s finally finna be some warm weather we’re I’m at. I’m having more trouble with my shoulder so I have voice or either wait to I’m feeling upto typing. I also bn thinking what to do about my blog since I have bn abandoning it lately. I supposed I could do a post just talking to you all once a week about my week about what’s going on with me on my side of the world. I pray everyone had a good valentines day with there loves. I don’t do valentines, I see that as a every day thing, not just one time thing. But hey that’s just me. As I mention early in post about idiot doctors, seem to be having trouble when I go to er . I have do farther off, and that’s foolishness to me. Last weekend I suffer to Tuesday. Honestly I didn’t have the strength to temp move and be bother with people. I tend to have attitude when I’m hurting. Some say mean as a snake. I was glad know my counts went up a little after starting my meds I hate. I had went see sickle cell doctor back in December and they up my hydrea that I help, supposed help less my crisis but also makes me throw up and not want to drink water. I have to drink water, that’s a must for me. I was throwing up blood and I had stop it and go back to the other one till I see doc next week. Ill end post till Wednesday, hope all is well with each and everyone of you all. God Bless
Happy Birthday…
Let’s make this day…
As unbelievable as..
You…
I love the way you..
love…
The way you show..
Me love is magical..
To the young man..
Who have the other..
Half of my heart…
My prince…
Is turning the Big 6..
My little Iron Man..
Ninja Turtle.
Kungfu fighter..
I pray you enjoy your.
Day.
2/2/16
Much love
Nephew
A.K.A
Redman
I actually wrote it yesterday but since i haven’t bn feeling my best. I didn’t get chance type and upload. Enjoy
devil get up off of me..
you cant have me…
My soul belongs to God…
Set me free..
Get up off of me..
I seem to have slip back…
in some of my old ways..
God I need you…
Can you hear me?
Devil get up off of me…
You can’t have me..
My God done died for me…
My soul belongs to him and only him..
Set me free…
Get up off me…
I’m down on my knees..
crying out for his mercy…
I just want to be free…
I started to work on dis poem a few years ago, but never had the chance to finish it. But with everything that’s going on around the world and some of the things I bn dealing with. I got encourage and inspired to finish it. I hope it speaks to someone soul/heart. God Bless
Hello World,
I have been home for awhile since Wednesday. Blood brought my counts upto 9.5,which is good! I had good nurses and doctors! Thank God! Hoping 2016 be better year, lesser hospital stays..Its been cold every since and it’s already doing a number on me. Night I got out wasn’t all that cold, but i ran fever all way to next evening. I hate winter because it love tortue my body. Im hoping to have schedule days ill post till im done with hectic real life. Seem be on a break with writing and thats not good. I like to say Happy New Year to everyone. I brought the new year in with friends and family at church. My team won 0-38! Sorry about the short post, hoping have a longer one soon. I have doc appointment next week. So hoping that’ll be longer post. Looking to bring my love journey post back as well. Im hoping change blog up soon. I pray all is well with each and everyone of you all. God Bless
Hey Everyone,
As you can see by the title I’m in hospital, been here every since Christmas Night. So glad I had the chance to spend Christmas Eve and Christmas Morning with my love one’s. I was trying to make it to the end of the month. I was hoping it would pass. I had to have transfusion today. Blood count had got low, I knew something was wrong since I been having headaches . Its a sign that your blood count can be low or I’m getting ready to go in a crisis. I do hope everyone of you all had a Lovely Christmas. Well better then mine:) I have some great nurses and doctors. So thankful for that to be honest. Last time I was sometime last month, and doctor wasn’t doing right by me. So I left the hospital, and lets just say I was in a lot of pain. I’m hoping to do right by myself dis time around. I’m hoping to go home tomorrow if everything come back looking normal. I’m still in some pain right now. Hoping the blood did some good for me. I try not to get blood, because one day when I’ll need it , it may not help me . Sighs. Well I had warm Christmas, seem the cold front is coming in. Guess its a good thing I’m in hospital now, to prevent all that. But its just cold in the evening time, so it shouldn’t be 2 bad. I’m going to wrap this post up, because I’m getting tired and restless. I haven’t been sleeping much for whatever reason. I always got some stuff on my mind. I know I have check up on the 4 to see how the meds is doing. I hope good news, but I really haven’t been on them since I been in hospital. Only meds they giving me is my pain meds and not my every day meds. I must say it truly means something when you have a great group of people taking care of you. I even have some nurses coming visit me since they always say I’m a good patient. Makes me feel good when they think that about me. I feel like I be getting on there nerves at times. But I have met some that have became friends.
Good Morning,
Will be short post, since its Christmas. I posted the last update late. I don’t know what happen. I guess it had bn awhile since I posted that I forgot to take it off draft and hit publish.. lol. I had some what okay doctor appointment. I got put on more meds. So not happy about that. I got back in Feb, before I leave in March so that’s good. They up my dose on one of my meds. I already know how dis going to go. Lets just say I’m not happy:( . I bn dealing with headaches for like 3 days, not so bad today. I’m listening to music as I type up my post. So that’s helping. I’m loving the weather we having here in the South. Not cold whatsoever. I hope everyone having a lovely Christmas. I don’t believe I ever had a warm Christmas, but I’m so not complaining. Even with the rain. I’m not crazy about the rain because it makes my body aches and can interfere with my illness, but I do love rain. SO love and hate relationship. We trying to see about not depending on pain meds, I like the way that sound. Because I’m bad about going cold turkey a lot, but that could be reason why I be in and out hospital because I do that a lot. Sometime you just want to enjoy life and not be drug up. Just my opinion . Sorry it took so long to do my updates, with everything going on, with health and holidays. I probably wont post anymore 2 New Year. So I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and Happy New years one more time. God bless :). If I forgot anything in the update, will edit later on. I need some sleep. Music do put my mind at ease. Thank You all for sticking with me on dis bumping ride I call life.
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