Tag: pain

Posted in 2016, heart, Love, Love Journey, My Journey, My Love Journey, poem, Poetic, Poetry, Pray

In my Feelings….

Posted on by poeticjourney

Im in my darn feelings…
But it’s time for me to come
To my freaking sense..
bump the past…
On to the next…
The past is the past for a reason….
I’m thanking God the year is almost
Over…
To be able to leave my mishaps and
Heartbreak in 2015.
Seems like a good idea,
But I know it’s going to haunt
Me and in the following year.
I just pray I’m strong to not go
Back…..
I messed up.
I got carry away once I slipped
Into my freaking feelings ..
My heart

12/12/15
~PJ~

I have bn writing, just havent had the time to post due to health and holidays, do hope you all enjoy. dedicated to my love journey do enjoy. God bless;)

Posted in 2016, heart, Love, Love Journey, My Journey, My Love Journey, poem, Poetic, Poetry

In my Feelings….

Posted on by poeticjourney

Im in my darn feelings…
But it’s time for me to come
To my freaking sense..
bump the past…
On to the next…
The past is the past for a reason….
I’m thanking God the year is almost
Over…
To be able to leave my mishaps and
Heartbreak in 2015.
Seems like a good idea,
But I know it’s going to haunt
Me and in the following year.
I just pray I’m strong to not go
Back…..
I messed up.
I got carry away once I slipped
Into my freaking feelings ..
My heart

12/12/15

I have bn writing, just havent had the time to post due to health and holidays, do hope you all enjoy. dedicated to my love journey do enjoy. God bless;)

Posted in God, Health, My Journey, Sickle Cell Anemia, Sickle Cell Awareness, Update

Update

Posted on by poeticjourney

I know it’s been awhile since I post. I bn going thru it dis summer.. some times I feel like I should give up, but my sense come back and reminds me. I’m here for a reason. God has last so even when we begging to be taking away. I got out Sunday and I’m pain again . I feel like my cold dawn got worse. Voice almost gone. I know when I left counts wasn’t the best, but I was ready.. if I known I wasn’t ready probably stay little longer.  Almost sickle cell awareness month, we have the bold lips for awareness.. wear your boldest lipstick and take pic and use hash tags. A few weeks when i got out,  had get my scripts . The woman behind counter ask me what sickle cell is, hate say I don’t like talking about it. I got get out of that mind frame n spread word. We lost another warrior a few nights ago. One day it’s going be me. I want to touch so many lives and do so much before I leave. I ask myself am I really living, part of me says I’m not. I’m hurting myself. I bn battling with my faith, illness.. I know God got me, no matter what. It just get so tiring when all u go thru is repeating itself.. hope that make sense, half asleep.. I pray all is well with each and everyone. God bless

Thank for riding with me…

Posted in 2015, AWARENESS, God, Health, Sickle Cell Anemia, Update

Day 3, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

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Hey peeps, welcome to my world! It has being hella hectic for me since weather hasn’t bn good to me.  I was just in hospital last week and got out Sunday, and hello back th’s following week. I’m so ready for Spring! I’m in process of meeting with pain management doctor soon. I see my sickle cell doctor dis week. Haven’t seen him in months, was need to get my crisis under wraps. I’m at the point I need drop my primary doctor a.s.a p. Dont want to stress about it while recovering. I’m Praying I don’t have see inside hospital unless it’s for blood work or surgery. Pray all is well with each and everyone of you all. I got Bless with some good doctors and nurses. Remember I said doctor,  I go to the other hospital that my doctor not connected with..Thank GOD. I’ll end post here so I can get some rest. But before I do, count is up, oxygen strong, so it blood pressure, pulse. GOD is truly good. Lil pain not as bad as it was:)

Posted in 2015, AWARENESS, Health, My Journey, Sickle Cell Anemia, Update

Day 4, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

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Not sure how to start my post. I have been sick since Christmas Eve. Didn’t want go E.R are miss bn my family for the holidays. I finally decided to go to E.R Saturday after Christmas,  long as my count was good, they didn’t keep me. I thought I was getting better and ended up worse then Christmas. Two more hospital visits before I was bless with doctor who knew what to do when it comes to my illness. Tuesday morning, I was brought back to E.R, but what a wait cause hospital was book. I know I cried so much that the pain got worse every time. 6 hours waiting to be seen. once I got in back, it went smoothly. Had a good doctor and nurse. I couldn’t walk the first few days. I can walk a lil now but legs still bothering me. I got two units first day here, didn’t work as soon as I got it. Brought my count up to 9, has drop to the 7’s now. Praying it doesn’t drop anymore. I’m still here cause of pain n count dropping. Hoping go home tomorrow but only time will tell. I’ll end it for now and share more at another time. Pray everyone had a good Christmas and New Year. GOD Bless

Posted in 2014, AWARENESS, Health, My Journey, Sickle Cell Anemia, Sickle Cell Awareness, Update

Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

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Hey and welcome to my world, I have had a rough weekend. I don’t even know where to start. I’m so ready to throw in towel, seem some doctors don’t take us meaning people with sickle cell serious. Everything seem come back fine with my sc. Soon as I got home guess who couldn’t walk, hurt breathe. When I move I cried, yep if you said me you so darn smart. God Bless You! I even tried go back to er, let me tell you I didn’t want go. I just wanted to well we ain’t going go there.  By end of night I was worse then night before. Went to another hospital,  the first test they did was flu test,  since fever was 101.3. Came back positive for h1n1. I was shock as he’ll to be honest. Nope don’t get shot, haven’t had it since I was teen got shot n was bless with flu. When I’m out,  I carry Sanitizer n other stuff to help not catch nasty germs. That hospital said they didn’t keep flu patients, I was throwed by that. I had be tough n get shots,  so wasn’t please.  I was bless with port for a reason. I been in bed all weekend,  at doctor office. I start classes again, last year. When will it end, must say not happy See my doctor since didn’t catch it. Sighs. I hope to come back with another update soon, pain taking over,  hope I made sense. I pray you all is well n Ty for joining my journey. God Bless

Today mark my surgery anniversary. GOD IS TRULY GOOD. 😄

Posted in AWARENESS, Death, fight, Health, hear me, My Life, poem, Poetry, Sickle Cell Anemia, Sickle Cell Awareness, Thankful

My Life

Posted on by poeticjourney

How can I speak…

when I’m only one

person…

You seem to look…

at me crazy…

Cause of the pain..

and you don’t understand…

Yes,

I’m one in a million…

So many of us or losing..

the fight…

So thankful for the one..

who fought with me..

You may not hear me…

But I know many hear me..

and join me to fight for our..

rights..

Do you hear me?

I hate to yell but hell..

my pain is that intense…

NO act..

over here..

We want Justices…

done…

We tired of been

mistreated..

some die in pain…

because of the abuse from

the one’s…

who supposed to help us..

Do that make you all happy?

see so many dying?

Technical I’m not finish with it but wanted to get it up, while I have the time and strength to share. I wanted to share it last month, since it was Sickle Cell Awareness Month. But you all know its every day for me… Do enjoy and let me know what you think.  The poem says a lot, so many sickle cell warriors have died this year. We don’t have it easy when we go to E.R/hospital. Since so many don’t know what it is or what we go through. We get sent home in pain or mistreated while been in hospital. I know you all have read a few of my post, and know I had could not so good nurses and doctors. I’m praying for cure for us.

Posted in 2014, AWARENESS, Health, My Journey, Sickle Cell Anemia

Day 4-6, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

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Hey and welcome to my world. I must say I’m not home yet, which I had got my hopes up on going home. I’m praying for tomorrow.  Still in some  pain, but not as bad as when I got admitted. So thankful for all the comments and prayers, truly touch my heart:) blood count came back up on its own, and guess what dropping slowly but surely. I have to be put back on steroids,  and nope not happy about it. If I don’t take them it could do more harm then anything,  but honestly I believe it make me sick at same time. I hope I can get some rest in a few.  I believe I shall wrap it up and try get comfortable.  I  have had some good nurses dis time around,  which is a plus. I hope all is well with each and everyone of you all.  God Bless

Posted in AWARENESS, Children, Health, Heartbreaking Story, My Journey, Sickle Cell Anemia

Day 1-3, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

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Hey Welcome to my World!  I Had to make a trip to hospital. Monday I came and got fluids and meds,  find out I was dehydrated.  I take it Tuesday must got the best out of me. Rain isn’t good for me. I woke up Wednesday morning in pain from head to toe. You can only imagine how I was feeling at the time. I hate coming to E.R you always got to wait forever and a day. Doesn’t matter how early you come in. I had bad experience Monday when I came in. The guy half did his job, and four people that got here after I did. I’m wondering wdh going on.

My count is dropping slowly.I’m still in pain, but not as bad as it was when I came in Wednesday. Be a lovely thing if I had no pain whatsoever.  What dis cruel world coming to. 8 year ole find dead in ditch with nothing on. So many people trying come to terms with such heartbreaking news.  Praying for the family. Well believe I cut it short, pain and sleep. I pray all is well with you all. God Bless

Posted in 2014, AWARENESS, God, Health, My Journey, Prayers, Sickle Cell Anemia

Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

Posted on by poeticjourney

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Hey, welcome to my world! A very short post. I have been under weather lately. Blood count is good n praying doesn’t drop anymore. Had a follow up doctor appointment today.  Over weekend got so bad couldn’t walk r stand. My ankles had swollen up. If it’s not one thing it’s another. My arms and hand hurts, which make it hard to type. I do read when I get the chance,  hoping to have update with more information.  Please do keep me in your prayers. God is good all the time:) I pray all is well with you, you and YOU:)