Wounded people have the tendency to take out their frustrations on whoever comes along next. You can’t learn to love or allow someone to love you if you are still frustrated and controlled by the pain from your past ..Break up with Dysfunctional relationships and stop building up for the next while you’re being damaged for the next ..I break the chain of allowing toxic relationships to live within you 👑🙌🏽🙏🏿💖 #itspossible
Another powerful message. So many carry the hurt from previous relationships to next. We’re doing more damage than good. We need to heal before we can move on to another relationship. Sometimes it’s best to be by yourself. Love yourself first, then were able to love another. As y’all may know I’m on love journey. Love hear what y’all have say on the matter.
Good afternoon, another powerful message. Pray, speak to someone heart/soul. God Bless
Hey and welcome to my world. It’s been a while since I wrote anything about my disease. Every since new year came in I have been hurting and dealing with a minor crisis. I have made two e.r visits. The first one I should have stayed but I felt like I was better but let me tell you it was all in my head because I got worse but refuse to go right back. When you been thru hell with medical staff people you choose to go home then being judge from people who don’t know your illness. I ended up going back Sunday and counts had come back up but was still hurting. A different doctor that day and since counts look better they wouldn’t admit me. So I had tough it out at home.
I haven’t seen my sickle cell doc since September and ended up losing my primary doc because she moved back home. Without primary doc, you can’t get in to see a specialist without a referral. So I have been without my meds since November. I must admit I don’t miss taking them, but I know my folic acid is a must have for me. To help me stay healthy. You don’t realize how much you so dependent on meds, like my sleep meds. I haven’t been sleeping lately. I hate the pain meds they have me on, makes me itch and let me tell u I hate scratching. The E.R did a number on me. I have so many fresh scratch marks on me from a week ago. Nope, they haven’t healed yet. I have been taking over counter meds to help with minor pain. I finally find a new primary doc and hope meet her next month. My blood doc got me in to see my sickle cell doc next month on 4, so I’m happy about that. It’s odd how I can see cancer/hematology doc without a referral. So thankful for him. Also get labs and result on the same day. My count has dropped once again. Guess that’s why I been cold so much lately and hurting. Winter is heck on my body. All I want is feel normal without pain, but I wouldn’t wish my illness on anyone. It amazes me how many nurse and docs have compassion and the ones who don’t. Are we allowing frustration of someone we once love to destroy the compassion we have as human beings?
Hold on, the Pain will End.
Good Evening, I hope all is well and message speaks to someone soul/heart. God Bless
Hey and welcome to my world. As of lately, I haven’t been feeling good. I couldn’t use my right hand to do much of anything. Feeling a little better today. I had to make E.R trip Sunday because I was hurting so bad and right hand is and was swollen. I had to debate with myself if I wanted to go. The crisis started late Saturday night, I knew I didn’t want to go that night and be stuck with a lozy doctor with no bedside manners. I know I shared some of my experience with you all in the past. I was worry I would have the same problem as Sunday rolled around. I finally made up my mind go before it got worse. The wait was prob over an hour it was a busy day. Got triage out the way. I did t like the doctor who name was on my band. He was the same doctor that gave me med I’m an allergy to and can kill me. The doctor never wants to listen to the patient. I got a woman doctor who I had when been admitted on the floor. She now works in E.R. Before go into more information on my experience. I have bn going cold turkey without my pain meds. Haven’t had it since June but did have E.R visit last month. So I made sure let her know that. She wanted to just give me fluids and oxygen see if that helps. Red flag, if I could handle my pain at home I wouldn’t be made E.R visit. So I was in pain for over an hour before got med. Thankful counts were looking oh do good, but at the same time I know just because of counts show good report doesn’t mean anything. She was like what should we do. She caught me off guard with that question. I have never got asked that question from a doctor at that hospital. I was like is she pulling my finger she can’t be serious. She was like we going to give you some meds so you can think about it. She even asks what I take. I’m like yea this got me a joke. But she was serious. I decided to go home because I could go to my sickle cell doctor and pick up my prescription. She gave me a look because she knew I was in pain still. And sometimes I do end up returning back to E.R. she gave me three bags of fluids before she discharged me. Sometimes you have been strong when you don’t want to be. Don’t get me wrong I was getting frustrated because of my pain. I wanted to cry and scream but I know to do all that would make it worse. I did have some good nurses that night. And woman got my port on the first try, when I went last month, they had a hard time. I had request a nurse who never miss doing my port. When you hurting, you don’t want to hurt even more. I did pick up on the doctor I don’t like voice and was glad I didn’t have a deal with him. God is good all the time. I did get a chance to see my favorite doctor who got me last time. I wasn’t on his side and he was like she is good. He always let me know what’s up with nurses and doctors. I can talk to him like a friend. Both hospital visits were not so bad. I have started taking my Endari meds again, so I’m taking that’s helping with my counts. My retic was high. I usually get sick and have been admitted in October. Still not 100 percent. I have post and blog when I’m feeling ok to pick up. My hand is still swollen, it’s going all the way up to my shoulder blade, to be honest. I pray all is well with each and every one of you all who read my post. And thank you for the prayers, I can never have enough. God Bless.
September is Sickle Cell Awareness and wanted to share the interview from a fellow warrior who experiences same crap I do and many others. Thank You for coming along for my journey. God Bless
Good Morning and welcome to my world. Today isn’t a good day for me. Idk what’s going on? It’s too soon have another crisis, then again not really. I suppose if they had done the job correctly last time, I wouldn’t be in this predicament. I so don’t want to go the hospital, but deep down I need to. Chest pain and knee pain. I’m concern about chest pain more than anything. Don’t get me wrong knee pain important as well, cause that means I can’t get around by myself and I can’t have that. I going to end these post here since I’m in so much pain, try update when I’m feeling much better. God Bless and pray everyone in good spirit and health.
I’m still in the hospital and in a lot of pain. At one point I truly thought, I was getting better, but that’s negative. I haven’t got much rest to be honest. I started working on the post yesterday, but my body wasn’t having it. Some days I just felt defeated. I haven’t gone 7 months with no hospital stay in a long time. It’s being awhile since I gotten sick. Honestly, we know our body better than anyone. With all the rain we have been getting, I’m not surprised on the way I been feeling! I’m still trying fight the sleep. You know as a child we hated to go school. I pray who all were affected by Tropical Storm Cindy, made it out with no harm. My count seems to be playing with me big time. Drop all the way 7.3 and following day it comes up to 7.6. I’m feeling much better than I was, which I’m very thankful for. We a lovely visit from my Lil Lady, she had been texting me saying she misses me. That visit I truly needed to brighten my day. Thank you all for the prayers , it truly means a lot to me. God is truly good all the time. No matter the situation, good or bad. Going end post here since I’m hurting . God Bless
Good Evening, I decided to make E.R visited yesterday since the pain wasn’t letting up. My mom actually pushes me to go, so they could give me some fluids and oxygen. Let me tell you I was thankful the doctor I like was working. He actually knows a lot about my illness so that’s a plus. My counts weren’t too bad was in middle 8’s, with an 11 for the retic, which let me know why I was hurting the way I was. With two doses of meds, my pain wasn’t moving. I didn’t catch it in time and that’s nobody fault but mine. I have been resting every since I got on the floor, let me just say probably slept 5 or 10 mins be honest. I can’t rest like I want when I’m hurting. I have been having chest pains on and off over the past week. So he made sure to do an x-ray to make sure I didn’t have an acute chest. I’m hoping and praying these a short stay. I have a nice doctor, she had to change my orders how often I get meds before seen me. That meant so much to me. She took the time out to read my orders and what was done last time I was admitted. I got some good nurses as well. Loving with these disease has taught me a lot. Taught me how to pick up on signs and what not to do when it’s already too late. I was getting upset with myself yesterday cause nothing was touching the pain. I thought I was doing everything right, but it doesn’t matter if you do what need be done. It comes with vengeance over of body. Sorry cut these short, but I’m getting tired hopefully I can get some rest. Truly means a lot if Y’all can keep me in your prayers and thoughts. Until next time, pray every one of you all is well. God Bless
NO growth comes without pain…pain is inevitable…don’t get distracted with #minor distractions.
Good Morning… God is truly good all the time. I hope everyone had a good and bless weekend. I spent weekend resting since I can get better. I was making hospital my last choice. Thank you for the prayers, truly means a lot to me. God Bless
Today isn’t a good day, I have been hurting since Tuesday. I haven’t seen inside hospital e.r since the beginning of the year. Some days are better than the others. I may be going to the hospital later today, but let me tell you, that’s the last thing I want to do be honest. But the meds aren’t working, I haven’t had pain meds that hospital give it a long time. I have been taking nerve meds to relax, but it’s not working. So I know what I need to do… It’s the idea of ignorant doctor knowing more about my illness that’s turns me off on going to be treated. I truly believe some doctors are out to kill a lot of us with this illness.. Oh, your blood count looks fine, so we not going to do anything. The last time I went. My retic was high, did the idiot check my counts nope just retic. Did he give me any meds that I was suppose to get. Nope, he gave me something I never had before and it made me feel worse. Did he give a damn, nope. They truly believe giving us fluids should help without proper care. I just hope when I do go to the hospital I don’t have to deal with idiot doctor. My whole body is betraying me in the worse way. sighs…Do keep me in your prayers, I’ll be cutting these post short, because hurting too bad to focus properly. I pray all is well with each and every one of you. God is truly good all the time,
no matter what we go through. He got us.