Posted in 2020, fight, Love, My Journey, My Life, My Love Journey, poem, Poetry, Relatonships

Never Knew

I never knew how deep my love.
Could be for another man
Its crazy cause after the last
I was done with fuckery and
Knew damn well my heart couldn’t
Be touch again after shutting down
After my last mistake
That really took me back to the old
Me.
Cold-hearted
But you..
What can I say..
Our first interaction was EPIC!!!
Till this day I can’t get it out my head.
Damn a TAURUS at that
That should have been a warning
But im stubborn and warnings is
Like a GO for me.
I can name other reasons
But what’s the point.
I love how you became a person
I could count on without me realizing it
I love how you sneak your way in
Without me knowing I cared for you
I love you for many reasons
For staying when you should have a walk
From get-go
For fighting for me as you say.
I plead 5 on that.
But I give it to you.
Never thought I’ll meet someone worth
Fighting for
Im selfish
I want you to myself
But I can’t have you to myself

3.24.20

~PJ~

Do enjoy and let me know what you think. Going to add it to My Love Journey. God Bless

Posted in 2020, God, Heart, life, Life Lessons, Listen, My Life, My Love Journey, poem, Poetic, Pray, queen, Relatonships

Bigger Picture

My heart hurts so bad right now
I done made the biggest mistake
And fallen for a man
Who only thought of me
As a chess piece
The time I needed to be strong
I fail myself
Im standing in the rain
With a broken heart
Im a Queen
In dire need
If you see me walking with
Head hanging down
Please mind your own business
Im dealing with my lost
One after another.
I need to go back to the time things
Was simpler and remember my damn
Place.
God will give it to you

And take it away.
Im dealing with my lost
And having a talk with my master
Let me do this alone.
He never left me when I had it all
And didnt know how to act.
Dealing with heartbreak when
The world going thru pandemic
It seems so trivial.
To worry about a Lil heartbreak.
When God is showing me a bigger
Pic

4.1.20

~PJ~

Hope you enjoy. I have been working on this piece for over a month. Glad to finish it for poetry month. Do let me know what y’all think. God Bless

Posted in 2020, emotions, Love, My Journey, My Love Journey, poem, Poetic, Poetry, Relatonships

I need you

I need you

I need you for reasons you cant imagine
I need you on days I want to throw in the towel
I need you even when you give me hell
I need you
Baby
I need you as much as you need me.
Needing you has become part of me
Hearing your voice reminds me just how much i need you
Healing you
Is what you need
I need you
To be ready to love me
Without your past pulling you in
To be ready break down walls
Baby
I need you
Im needing You
More and more
While needing you
I’m hurting you and us
I need you
On days I’m fighting
To not express how I feel
On days saying enough can get me by
I need you
Understand
I’m struggling on you loving me
And me letting your love heal
What’s so damage
That I’m ashamed of my brokeness
I need you
2.8.9.20

~PJ~

A new poem dedicated to My Love Journey and emotions. Do enjoy an der me know what you think. God Bless

Posted in 2020, Love, Love Journey, love thought, Relatonships

Love Thought

Welcome back to my love journey and thoughts. I met a young man who has the biggest heart. But with so much hurt inside him. He gives so much but his love is taken for granted. His in search and need for that love, and that real love. How do you love someone whose heart been thru so much? Do you heal them before loving them the way he deserves? I like to hear what y’all thought on the topic.

Posted in 2019, Love, Love Journey, love thought, Relatonships

Love Thought

Question

How can you be still in a relationship when you have so much resentment towards your partner? What happened to just leave and started over when time right? I know some of us hate the starting over the process. You have learned another person again, tell them your life story and blah blah blah. We become worried and concern when others may not except us like the one we been with for years. Do we stay just stay? Do we make it work? What do we do when someone else may come in not even knowing they woke something up inside of you that you haven’t felt in a long time. It could be just a conversation, the way they carry there self. I like to know whats y’all thought on the topic?

Posted in 2019, Love, Love Journey, My Love Journey Thought, Relatonships

Love Journey Thought

My love journey seems to be at a standstill. For whatever reason at the moment. It’s weird how you can meet so many people that can have a character trait of what you want out of spouse/soul mate. Maybe its sign to stop and enjoy being alone and not worry about having someone to be put in your world. Or maybe its sign that they looking for you just as much as you looking for them. It’s crazy how meeting someone when you weren’t expecting to meet anyone can turn your whole world around.

Posted in 2019, Encouragement, Love, Relatonships, Wisdom, Word Of Wisdom

Word of Wisdom

It’s A #TRICK of the enemy! #EVERYONE is not trying to get u! The enemy will have u watching even the ones assigned to help, love and push u! He is a destroyer of #RELATIONSHIP. He hates divine covenant! THE Battleground is the MIND!!! Stop letting him FED u lies & PLAY GAMES! He is the FATHER of #LIES! He wants a disconnect!!!

Good Morning, God is truly good all the time. Pray everyone having a Bless Week and message speaks to someone’s soul/heart. God Bless

Posted in 2019, emotions, God, Love, Love Journey, My Journey, poem, Poetic, Poetry

Pulling Me Back

I don’t want to think of you
I’m trying to let go
You keep pulling me back
I don’t want to hurt anymore
I’m trying to see my future without you
You keep pulling me back
I’m sitting here
With regret and frustration.
But deep down I know it’s you I want.
You may not be what I need.
But that’s between me and God.
You came in my life
When I was ready for love
When I needed someone
I was so ready to give up
But the way you stepped to me
Stop me in my tracks.
But you turned out to be a tornado
Destroying everything
From my walls
That been up for the past few years
I’m losing the battle
And I can’t have that.
You keep pulling me back
I’m trying to fight my feelings
My heart
Isn’t having it.
My head is saying run
I’m stuck
In my feelings
I’m trying to come to terms
With my emotions and let’s just say
You making it easy to turn my back
And walk away.
But I know deep down
I can’t just walk away
Without expressing how you make
Me feel.

8.7.19

~PJ

I have been writing a lot lately and here is one of my pieces just finish last night. Do enjoy and let me know what you think. God Bless