I recently have learned a life lesson on what my words could do to someone I truly love and want in my life for along time. On dis Love Journey it’s hard to acknowledge just what a person is feeling when it comes to you and your needs. I have been in love with a guy going on 12 years off and on. We finally got the chance to really get to know one another but I still keep my heart guarded because I feel he does the same. I’m a very sarcastic person, and I thought he could tell the difference. No matter how long you know a person, you still have be careful how you word things. You can lose them or push them farther away and have to work getting them back to where you work so hard to let there guards down.
Category: heart
My Love Journey Thoughts..
When dealing with love on my journey and coming across someone who tend to want to use you for all the good you worth. Some times it seems were the light that they need to survive, to get them out there hell hole. Is love taking all the hell they put you through just to show them. I love you, I’m here for you. I ask myself dis question constantly, because it seem like I may have something prove. Do we stay because we gave them our word that we wouldn’t hurt them. Some even play on our guilty conscious when we fed up and ready to walk. The control a user can have is banana’s.
I decided to add thoughts towards the end of it so I won’t get confused. When I’m feeling much better.. hoping start the other My Love Journey post again. Till next time. God Bless
My Love Journey Thoughts…
In my Feelings….
Im in my darn feelings…
But it’s time for me to come
To my freaking sense..
bump the past…
On to the next…
The past is the past for a reason….
I’m thanking God the year is almost
Over…
To be able to leave my mishaps and
Heartbreak in 2015.
Seems like a good idea,
But I know it’s going to haunt
Me and in the following year.
I just pray I’m strong to not go
Back…..
I messed up.
I got carry away once I slipped
Into my freaking feelings ..
My heart
12/12/15
~PJ~
I have bn writing, just havent had the time to post due to health and holidays, do hope you all enjoy. dedicated to my love journey do enjoy. God bless;)
In my Feelings….
Im in my darn feelings…
But it’s time for me to come
To my freaking sense..
bump the past…
On to the next…
The past is the past for a reason….
I’m thanking God the year is almost
Over…
To be able to leave my mishaps and
Heartbreak in 2015.
Seems like a good idea,
But I know it’s going to haunt
Me and in the following year.
I just pray I’m strong to not go
Back…..
I messed up.
I got carry away once I slipped
Into my freaking feelings ..
My heart
12/12/15
I have bn writing, just havent had the time to post due to health and holidays, do hope you all enjoy. dedicated to my love journey do enjoy. God bless;)
Mr.Man
Happy Birthday…
Let’s make this day…
As unbelievable as..
You…
I love the way you..
love…
The way you show..
Me love is magical..
To the young man..
Who have the other..
Half of my heart…
My prince…
Is turning the Big 6..
My little Iron Man..
Ninja Turtle.
Kungfu fighter..
I pray you enjoy your.
Day.
2/2/16
Much love
Nephew
A.K.A
Redman
I actually wrote it yesterday but since i haven’t bn feeling my best. I didn’t get chance type and upload. Enjoy
Regret
I regret that one last chance to go there with you..
that one last chance to put my feelings in the air..
I regret opening myself to a man who isn’t ready..
I fail to realize to not see I couldn’t control..
how my feelings would react when you walk back in..
How did I let my heart get chip…
dent…
I regret everything that has happen in the past week..
But then again I can’t say…
I really regretted it…
It was meant to happen, so I could open…
my eye’s to you..
I was hoping he would open
his eye’s to reality…
but as someone brought to my attetnion..
I fucked that up by been..
unexperience….
What do we do when regrets seem to take over..
But at the back on your mind..
You screaming…
but words seem to betray you ..
and your emotions is taking over..
Im stuck with regrets…
12/7/15
As I mention I have bn writing even though I may haven’t bn busy blogging and sharing. I have bn sharing my thoughts on paper. Right now I’m refusing to do just that, because I’m going thru so much as the poem says. I know things happen. Teach us a lesson. I hope and pray everyone have a bless Christmas and if you don’t celebrate Happy Holidays 2 you and yours. God Bless 🙂
God is truly the reason for the season. I can’t sleep since I’m not feeling my best and my mind is doing 2 much thinking. I need to write and I don’t want 2. I usually let myself think for awhile before I temp to write. But I truly need to think as much as possible cause I refuse to write. No matter how much it may make me feel good or either break me .
True Love
I couldn’t be more happy
With this matrimony….
The day I met him and saw
The love in his heart for Kendra
In kids..
The words came out my mouth….
You belong together….
I got to mention..
I don’t like to many people..
But God saw fit for you to enter…
They life….
I love watching you two react with
One another…
I know the feelings aren’t 4sho.
The way kids love and respect you..
My brother you truly a blessing from God
My sista,
Bn long time coming you deserve
It mami
God was waiting on you to be ready for love…..
The time to heal and time to let
Go…
I love the conversation we had…
The man not going nowhere….
What God has brought together can’t no
Man/woman destroy…
Do keep God in your marriage.
You know he got you…
10/1-2/15
PJ A.k.a. P. PRIM
Left a mark……
My heart beating to so many beats..
You got me confused & I
Cant take it…
I’m grown now.. so the
Past will never repeat…
Ill always have feelings for you..
But you seem be the same
From my past…
We not young anymore..
So if you trying to play
Me..
Please walk away now
And let me be..
I never thought I catch
Feelings for you.
Never imagine I’ll keep
Thinking of you..
I felt so hurt when I heard
You had a little one…
Thats when I knew I didnt
Mean anything to you
Its cool.
I’m over it..
Some days it still hurt,
But not as much as before..
Now you have another blessing..
I always knew you be a
Perfect father..
I saw so much in you..
Years ago…
You seem to take my breath a way…
Your smile is so amazing…
Your heart..
One of a kind, but already
Full with your family.
Boy you got a piece of me.
I hate it cause every time you
Walk in….
I knew my heart will be broken..
Why can’t you see.
I’m one of a kind?
O well..
In due time..
Ill stop caring for you.
Thank God…
For blessing me….
See the real you..
Thank God…
I have strength to walk away…
Before you do me harm
9/10/15
PJ
I have started writing again. Actually wrote it while in hospital..I usually like to think and let stuff sit on my mind and heart for awhile. Dedicated to my love journey do enjoy.. let me know what you think.. God Bless:)
Will change title, still thinking on it:)
Guilty
Guilty
Everytime I think of you, its like I’m betraying my heart!
Last conversation
We was down right guilty..
I love you!
Guilty!
I need you!
Guilty
Is love supposed be so damn difficult?
Guilty Guilty Guilty…
Loving you from a far.
Isn’t helping…
Wishing you was near…
I need you like I need my last breathe…
So Guilty?
Can you charge me for staying true to my heart?
I haven’t acted out!
But baby I’m so Guilty,
I feel it in my soul.
I yearn for you.
Damn..
I’m Guilty!
2/17/15
So much on my mind I had to write it and share with you all. Do enjoy, and yes it’s dedicated to my Love Journey




