Don’t ever disrespect someone who made sure you were straight when nobody else did!!!
Good Afternoon/Evening, I pray all is well with each and every one of you all they lay they eye’s on this message. Sometimes we tend to forget who been there for us from the beginning when things don’t go the way we want it. No matter who comes in your life today tomorrow and down the road, always remember who been on your team from the beginning.
Good Morning World,
I hope everyone had a bless and safe weekend. I hope everyone that was affected by the storm is doing ok. My end wasn’t as bad as some area. Got plenty of rain and win that 4show. Other than that we came out okay. I haven’t been to my place see how it did on that end yet. I’m hoping to check it out. After seen that video going around on facebook of the two trap babies. Omg God is truly good all the time. It brought tears to my eye’s see how all that was involved came together save them, babies. My god that stranger that was praying the whole time. Just really did it for me. Nobody but God that’s all I can say. Yesterday was a pretty day. Windy and sun were out. I love how the weather can make something so bad be so beautiful. Watching the news and seen how many people died. My God, it breaks my heart, let us keep them in our prayers and their family as well. We never know when it’s our last time on earth. Let’s remember to let our loved one’s know we love them and we forgave them for whatever the reason maybe. Sometimes we think we have more time to do whatever we haven’t done. But honestly, we don’t.
I have been debating on what to post or how to share certain things with you all on my blog since I have been going so long. I have plenty to post about, it’s the idea getting everything together just right that bothers me. Till next time, I pray all is well with each and every one of you all. Take the time and pray for someone are let them know hey I’m thinking about you are I love you. God Bless during these terrible times we living in.
Some ppl have the “I’ve arrived” mentality when in reality they haven’t even left yet! #StayLow #HappySaturday
Good Morning, God is truly good all the time. I pray all is well with each and every one of you and message speak to someone heart and soul.
I wanted to do something a little more different with my blog. As you can see I change the title of this one. I’ll have Word to the Wise on some days and Word Of Wisdom on others. Do enjoy and pray everyone has a good and Bless Weekend.
Dear Cancer,
Why you had come ruining my family? We didn’t welcome you, nor ask for you. Honestly I never thought I would hear your name in my household. I was always out looking in, but now I know first hand the damage you can cause on someone I love. But you don’t care, how you came. Long as you settle within the body, and destroy it. I’m watching you take a toll on my ole man..you not going to win dis fight, nor will you break him.. me on the other hand you’ll succeed. I’m fighting to control my fight and to overcome stress. you created so many problems with your arrival. You almost won cause you came unexpected. I’m thankful God stepped in and covered the situation. I catch myself checking on you throughout the day to make sure you still among the living. I’m tired of you and honestly I’m ready for you to exit the way you arrive.
Sincerely Concern,
Daughter
God is stronger than your deepest fear…
~ What a powerful and lovely message to share with you all these week…
Good Afternoon, I pray all is well with each and every one of you all. I read these message while on my way to doctor appointment Monday. It says so much and I wanted to share it with you all. God Bless
Good Afternoon World,
What a day, had wait an hour to be seen. That’s one of the reason I hate doctors offices, you hardly ever seen when you suppose to be seen. But honestly I can understand when you go to oncology/hematology doctor. They see so many patients, many cancer patients on top of what I have. I know some maybe getting bad news and some maybe getting good news. My heart goes out to the one’s who receiving devastating news. Today was sorta good day. My counts were 8.3 and 24. I haven’t been that high in a while. It might be from the meds that suppose to help me have less crisis, but I can’t handle them headaches with the pills. I just have to stick with my Folic Acid. Besides I have been cutting back on a lot of things. So whose say I truly need that meds. I hate reading story of woman losing they hair to the meds. Some even had to shave they head and go natural. Me on the other hand I’m already natural and I would hate to have to start over again on my journey. I must admit I love my doctor. I love how he talks about God and come in with good attitude. When you find a good doctor, you know you in good hands. If only he was still in the state of Alabama and not Florida. It’s cool day here, but nice breeze and weathers. I love it. Not to hot and not to cold. I didn’t get chance see the sun till about around 1. It was gloomy all day. I must admit I might some nice people while waiting. I’m usually jamming and not paying attention to my surrounding, but t.v no music in ears. Did have a good boom read but still had chance talk different one’s. I believe out of all them was older woman. I’m hoping she got good news, she came out in good spirits, telling different one ‘s bye and speak to them later. Before she left she said God Bless sweetie and I said it back. Her strength showed through her character. Well going end post here. I pray you all are well. God Bless
Fight the Fall
I can see myself falling…
in love with man….
I can’t have…..
I seem to always…
get put in this position….
Why we want what we can’t…
have?
I tell my heart to stay on guard..
because his my weakness…
It’s like diving head first…
and think later…
Why the hell you making me feel..
this way?
I love been free…
without remorse….
I’m screwed…
while you here…
I see myself loving you…
While fighting my heart…
I don’t want love here…
What happen to fun and freedom….
Did I mess up falling for you….
YES!!!
Did I FUCK UP, letting you back..
in my bed?
HELL YEA!!!!
I hate that I let my guard break once again..
When will I learn?
I’m falling and fighting myself?
I so hate…
feeling so confuse…
You cloud my judgement…
I’m over here over thinking..
and still fucked up…
I’m falling..
while fighting regret…
I regret that one last chance to go there with you..
that one last chance to put my feelings in the air..
I regret opening myself to a man who isn’t ready..
I fail to realize to not see I couldn’t control..
how my feelings would react when you walk back in..
How did I let my heart get chip…
dent…
I regret everything that has happen in the past week..
But then again I can’t say…
I really regretted it…
It was meant to happen, so I could open…
my eyes to you..
I was hoping he would open
his eyes to reality…
but as someone brought to my attention..
I fucked that up by being..
unexperienced….
What do we do when regrets seem to take over..
But at the back of your mind..
You screaming…
but words seem to betray you ..
and your emotions is taking over..
~PJ~
Not sure when I wrote it. I just know it was sometime last year. With different things I was going thru, and things other people were going thru. Just put my heart in my work and wrote. I thought about changing some of the language, but at that point of my life. I was struggling so hope you enjoy..
FEAR is insecurity, judgment and internalized shame. FEAR is the opposite of love and acceptance. In order to evolve past FEAR we must actively make the decision to choose LOVE, radically, wholly over and over again. Only then can we truly be FREE!!!
Good Evening, pray all is well and word speak to someone soul and heart.
Good Morning World,
I know it’s been awhile since I last posted. I have bn busy trying find new primary doctor, taking care of myself at home without er visit. It hasn’t bn easy, but haven’t been in one, in few months. Before I forget hope everyone enjoyed Easter. And we all know the real meaning of it. So I won’t go there right now. I’m not feeling my best at the moment. I have appointment with m hematology doctor Monday, just trying hold out till then. Pray for me please and thank you. Well good news I find primary doctor and cant wait meet her next month. I’ll make another post on that. Hopefully Monday I’ll have good news on what’s going on with me. Usually my counts drop some. It hasn’t been in 8’s for a few months now. In December I had stop taking meds that would help lessing crisis and E. R visit. I had the worse Christmas ever. I was in bed most of the day. My head felt like it wanted explode. I ran fever as well. I refuse I was going go to hospital another christmas. So when saw sickle cell doctor two months ago, they put me on it again but took it down 3 instead of 4 and lesser doses. I hated the meds years ago and I hate it now. Let me tell you I don’t know how much longer I’ll keep taking it. Right now I’m still having headaches every day. Not sure if it’s from meds are I’m getting sick. I truly have miss blogging. I have started writing again, I take it I have been bitting by writing bug. I can finally express myself the way I should and deserve. I pray all is well with each and everyone on you all. God Bless
Where you are TODAY, maybe exactly the #training you need for the #place where God wants to take you TOMORROW!!!
Good Morning, I pray all is well with each and everyone of you all and message speak to someone soul/heart. God Bless
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