Posted in 2021, Bless, chronic illness, God, My Life, my story, Update

Update

UPDATE.. LIFE

Hello and Welcome to my World. Its been awhile since I posted and read comments. I have been through a lot meaning to my emotions and still trying to get over losing my Ole Man{ dad}. Its rough when you a daddy girl. Its getting better but still is a struggle to be honest. I have been in hospital a few times. Its weird not having him here when he was the one I usually counted on when something would happen to me. I’m thankful last visit wasn’t long there was more concern about me getting covid then anything. I went awhile before I even step foot near the place since my area was getting it bad and they had sent extra help because of it. I did have to get blood that I wasn’t happy about. One of these days it can kill me instead of help me. Even though I haven’t blog much I have been writing here and there. I’m also thinking about where to go from here. i need go back to school and finish my last year and i still want to blog and educate people on my illness. I cant believe how many people have follow my journey because of the fact I have shared so much. Its a blessing that so many of you care and willing to learn. I still want to bring more to ya’ll. my fight isn’t over yet and its not easy. I must say I haven’t had any bad experience lately. I know the last time I went i got someone I wasn’t crazy about because they don’t know anything about sickle cell. She was making it seem like I had Covid instead of listening to me , I have made it clear that I don’t want her. If you not going to listen to the patient why be in the field period? Another season has come in and pray everyone is staying warm/cool depending wherever you from. I pray everyone is staying healthy as well. No matter what we going through God is still good all the time. Till next time God Bless

Posted in 2020, family, God, poem, Poetry, Pray, Prayers

Prayers

I’m so thankful for all the kind comments and prayers. Only God knows all things and just how much I’m lost without my ole man.

I’m in need of prayers for comfort

I’m in need of a piece of mind

Prayers

Are the only thing that will get me through all this.

One day at a time

My heartbreaking just the mere thought of not seen him anymore.

Breaking even more because of Sunday.

He just reminded us last month it was coming up.

Prayers

To not question why he choice to leave so suddenly.

Prayers

To know I got this thing life without him in my corner.

Prayers

For comfort for my family

Prayers

To keep living and not dwell on him not been here.

I know death is part of life.

It always catch me off guard when you don’t expect it suddenly

Prayers

Just to keep moving day to day.

Prayers

6.19.20

~PJ~

Posted in 2020, God, Heart, life, Life Lessons, Listen, My Life, My Love Journey, poem, Poetic, Pray, queen, Relatonships

Bigger Picture

My heart hurts so bad right now
I done made the biggest mistake
And fallen for a man
Who only thought of me
As a chess piece
The time I needed to be strong
I fail myself
Im standing in the rain
With a broken heart
Im a Queen
In dire need
If you see me walking with
Head hanging down
Please mind your own business
Im dealing with my lost
One after another.
I need to go back to the time things
Was simpler and remember my damn
Place.
God will give it to you

And take it away.
Im dealing with my lost
And having a talk with my master
Let me do this alone.
He never left me when I had it all
And didnt know how to act.
Dealing with heartbreak when
The world going thru pandemic
It seems so trivial.
To worry about a Lil heartbreak.
When God is showing me a bigger
Pic

4.1.20

~PJ~

Hope you enjoy. I have been working on this piece for over a month. Glad to finish it for poetry month. Do let me know what y’all think. God Bless

Posted in 2019, Heart, knowledge, life, Lord, Love, prayer

Life Advice

Today Lord put creative ideas in my HEAD, keep real love flowing in my HEART, place great opportunities in my HANDS, and set genuine people in my LIFE.

Good Morning, God is truly good all the time. I pray message speaks to someone and everyone has a good Saturday. Stay cool and if you have rain do stay dry. God Bless

Posted in 2019, change, knowledge, life, Wisdom, Word Of Wisdom

Word of Wisdom

Life changes in the blink of an eye—We must learn to enjoy the season we’re in.

The message takes me back to when I was younger and losing my best friend a few days before our birthday. Yea never knows when your last time to let your loved ones know you love them. We got to learn to enjoy life, don’t put off to whatever reason. You may never see the next hour/day. Live your life.

Good Evening, God is truly good all the time. Pray message speaks to someone heart/soul. What a long day with a doctor appointment. Tomorrow hoping have a post about it.

Posted in 2019, child, life, Love, poem, Poetry

Don’t You Dare

Don’t do it
Don’t you dare
You’ll love
My child
You’re strong
Don’t let the pressure overtake you
Don’t do it
Don’t you dare
You’re strong
My child
You’ll love
Don’t let them break you.
You a winner
You’ll love
Stop
Don’t you dare
We need you
We love you
Don’t do it.
You’ll love my child
We’re not ready to say goodbye.

4.10.19

~PJ~

Day 10 dedicated to poetry month. This one is a little outside of my comfort zone. Do enjoy and let me know what you think. God Bless

Posted in 2019, knowledge, life advice, Wisdom

Life Advice

Speak over your life.
It doesn’t matter what it looks like, it doesn’t matter what it feels like, call it what it shall be. Let your words come alive. #Manifest

Good Morning, God is truly good all the time. Pray everyone is having a bless Tuesday. God Bless

Posted in 2019, change, knowledge, life advice, Wisdom

Life Advice

We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same. Everything in life is a matter of choice. If you don’t like the way your life is going then it’s time to make better choices. Happy Tuesday 💙

Good Morning, I pray all is we with each and every one of you all and message speaks to someone heart/soul. God is truly good all the time. God Bless

Posted in 2019, Cancer, family, God, My Journey, My Life, Sickle Cell Anemia, Update

Update

Good Morning and Welcome back to my world. Finally made it to my sickle cell doctor and must say glad be back on some of my meds. So far my sleep is blah. I done got out of bed, so many times. Either use restroom or something to drink. I done fold clothes up, played a few games on my phone. Why Am I Up? I need sleep, like right now. Guess I took my sleep meds late and body is like oh no we ain’t with that. Sighs. Tossing and turning and dealing with pain.

As some of yall may know if you been with me for a while. My dad has cancer. Well, he had to have surgery back in November because one wasn’t shrinking. It was getting bigger. The surgery went well. Thank God. He went for a scan last week to see how the others are doing since starting treatment again. They shrinking but two of them. The doctor wants to go in and remove them. My dad was like like let me think about it. In other words, pray about it and talk to the wife about it. You know God is good all the time. No matter what you going through. I can’t imagine not having my dad. When we find out a few years ago. It was shocking. We could have lost him. I thank God for that doctor appointment after Christmas. His counts were low. We knew something was wrong, but never in million years, we think it was cancer. We had to literally tell him to go to the hospital. He needed blood because he was losing it, and to see what was going on. His primary was like it maybe its cancer or an ulcer.

My nephew just celebrated his 9 birthday these past weekend. They grow up so fast. Where has the time gone? He celebrated his bday at the bowling alley. Second year in a row. No bowling, he chooses the arcade and lazor tag.