Posted in 2012, God, My Journey, Update

~Welcome to 2012~

I like to say Thank for joining my JOURNEY(2011), and for sticking with me and been my support system when I needed it. A Blessing to me, when I truly thought I couldn’t deal with alone, sometimes we need help, even when we think we can handle it.

“THE JOURNEY IS THE REWARD”  Saw the quote today while I was out with my mom, but not sure whose it by and wanted to share it with ya’ll, honestly I don’t think I have come across the quote before.

Also like to thank you all for the prayers for me, my family and friends. I do pray for each and every one of you. I heard from one friend her mother is doing much better and also says thank you for the prayers. GOD IS GOOD.  I hope & pray each and every one of you made it into 2012 safe & sound! Many Blessings 🙂

I been reading my messages as they came in today, but couldn’t respond to them since for some odd reason my data wasnt working like I would like it. I have a lot of reading and catching up on. I actually had a good day. I got to see my cousin who has been gone for a long time. It was good to hear from her and to see her. I can’t wait to see how 2012 go for all of us. A post without a poem. I so can’t believe it. lol

God Bless Each & Everyone Of You!

Posted in 2012, God, Journey, My Journey, poem, Poetry, song

Change In Me

I’m ready for a change in me

I’m ready

Yes, I am

Either you with me or not

Choose who you for today

Because you can’t serve two

Masters

A change is coming

And I’m not talking about a

New Year

A change in me

Watch me Evolve into

Who GOD wants me to be

I’m ready

For a change

Hold On

To his hands and never

Let go

A change is coming

So be READY!

12/31/11

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As you can tell I’m not finish with it just yet. It’s a working process, after having a good talk with my cousin who did my hair today.  She open my eye’s up to different things that I have overcome, let me tell you without GOD I wouldn’t be here. I’m here because of him. Will be new stuff coming from me in the New Year so just stay tune and wait it out. The poem/song is my story. Lessons I have learned since I been on my JOURNEY &  the different people’s who have come and gone!  Okay enough of me talking your eyes off. Lol. God Bless and Welcome to 2012!

Posted in family, God, Health, My Journey, poem, Poetry

Learning to Forgive

I know I have written on Forgiving a few times, its part of my JOURNEY!  This post is sorta like update on how I have come long way and what I have learned through it all.

I never knew how much it could

destroy me, holding so much

angry in my heart!

Learning to Forgive

hasn’t been easy

Now

I can honestly look at

the person I was so hurt with

 without anger

in my heart.

You know I tried to understand his

pain, but the way he act destroyed

my compassion I once had for

my own flesh & blood

Maybe it was me been sick

and laying in the hospital

that truly got me thinking.

Or maybe it was me working

on a better relationship with

GOD

That showed me how

Learning to Forgive

could be healing process

for the soul

as well  as for the body

 It hasn’t been easy!

but so worth the JOURNEY

to overcome.

it truly does make you feel good

on the inside

Learning to Forgive

12/28/11

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After taking a break from the post and coming back to it. Before Christmas I saw something in me, I had started to forgive my brother, and saw how much I needed to learn to forgive the other person I was mad with. I shouldnt’ have so much animosity in me, when I’m struggling with trying to make it day by day with my illness.  having talk with my mother by somethings and I realize how my body felt when I talk about certain person. I let myself get the best of me and felt like I was choking. That was a sign to let it go and end the conversation. The post is about Learning to Forgive and how  I’m a working process.

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Recovering/Information On Disease

I seem to be stuck with cold ever since I got out the hospital and can’t get rid of it for some odd reason. I never had this problem before getting over cold. The New year is almost here and have two new doctors to see coming up in a few weeks. One is for my headaches I was getting all the time. I don’t get them as much right now, which is a good thing. But after doing more searching about my disease and learning about why I could be having headaches everyday. I learn something that  I didn’t know that it could be cause of a tumor. Since I’m the only one in my house hold with my illness, its good for me to study on it and learn as much as possible. You do know with seen the different doctors I do have, they never mention anything about me having tumors. I don’t know if that a good thing or bad thing, part of me make me think they don’t believe it could be that serious for me and then other is they probably know I can’t handle no more awful news. Also the other doctor appointment is about why I have so many antibodies in my body. Since its hard to find my blood type, I like to say thank you to each and every one of you whose been praying for me and still praying for me and who donates blood or know someone who does. Last time it didn’t take long to find my blood type. I was so happy! I was just in the hospital that long because of a slow ignorant doctor. Seem like he don’t know how to talk to a lot of people’s, and think people s have to take his lip and attitude. Thats a negative! Hey my mouth is working process.  I had a good  Christmas, wasn’t down in my body or stuck in hospital, did have a doctor appointment before Christmas. It went sorta good and sorta not. Yay for getting took off one medicine and boo for getting put on a new one that suppose to be better for my headaches. If you don’t take medication on every day basic, you or truly bless, and don’t ever take it for granted.  If some had read up on my disease because I havent made it back to do all that good stuff. That post should be up sometimes this week. Different ones with my disease can take the medicine to help them have less crisis, but to be honest I never really needed it before I got put on it when I was younger and it didn’t;t agree with me. I almost died in 06, so that’s when I got introduce hydroxyurea.  I usually take Folic Acid, that been working for me every sense well shoo forever. Seem like I’m everywhere with my post today. I’m pretty sure more to come this week, hate to bore all of yall in one post. 🙂

 

 

I do love all my followers, you have truly been a BLESSING to me on my JOURNEY, can’t wait to see how 2012 goes for us. Many Blessings to each and every one of you, like to welcome all my new followers, and say glad to have you on my JOURNEY, can’t wait to get to know each and every one of you as the year goes out and as the new year comes in. God truly knows what he doing when he seen certain peoples in your life that you never expect to make a mark on you.

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Honestly Don’t Matter

I’m gone…
U did it…
I walk…
U messed up…
It don’t matter….
I  already said bye
u said whatever…
It don’t matter…
I’m a G…
N I know its killing you cause I don’t care…
I tried to care, but all I saw was you doing yo thing…
So I bounce & I’m good on my own…
I don’t care cause I never really love you…
I don’t care, I know you can tell now..
Everytime we talk it’s whatever n however..
And you like it wasnt even like that…
What we had wasnt anything serious
it was a journey & now its over…
I’m walking away…
Trust I’m never coming back…
I promise you these…
U had me once & now you lost me…
I died the night you screwed me over…
Did u see the blood in your hands…?
it was my soul…
Did you hear the screams in the back of you head?
It was me but you was so caught up you didn’t even give
a care…
I’m not mad… I’m just over it & I’m so gone…
It honestly don’t matter n
I honestly don’t care about you

3/10/10

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As you can see this poem was writen a few years ago, and since I’m on a JOURNEY I wanted to share it. I may go back and forth and share poems from the past present and whatnot. I learn to deal with things a little differntly I can honestly say I’m glad I got a better understanding and relationship with GOD.

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Thankful

 

The month to be thankful

I’m thankful all the same

I’m thankful of so many wonderful

Peoples who took the time to join

My journey and pray for me

~THANKFUL~

There encouraging words that

Lift my spirit to keep me

Moving

I’m so…

~THANKFUL~

I never would have thought of

Blogging about my illness

If it wasn’t for a nurse some months

Ago…

I’m so…

~THANKFUL~

 He encourage me

Without him putting the ideal into

My head…

I wouldn’t have met so many great peoples

Who believe in praying for a stranger?

Who truly needed it?

Ya’ll gave me the courage

To push on

It has been rough

I been dealing with my illness

For over twenty years.

It doesn’t get easy.

But it does help when I have so many

Good peoples on my team praying

For me…

~THANKFUL~

 Ya’ll have been a blessing

To me

11/12/11

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It’s the day before THANKSGIVING, and wanted to share the poem. I actually wrote it the day I got out the hospital but I’m also behind on some of my post always getting inspired so I leave one and move to the next. I’m so THANKFUL I never imagine I would touch so many people’s on my JOURNEY. It’s like having another family. I HOPE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU HAVE A GOOD THANKSGIVING. I KNOW SOME MAY NOT CELEBRATE IT SO I’M STILL SENDING LOVE YOUR WAY. AND FOR THE ONE’S IN CANADA THAT HAD THERES ALREADY. LIKE NIGHTSHADE130 SAID IT SHOULDN’T BE JUST ON ONE DAY AND SHE IS SO RIGHT. WE SHOULD BE THANKFUL EVERYDAY OF OUR LIFE. YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN THE LAST DAY ON EARTH. LET YOUR LOVE ONE’S KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. I’M ALWAYS SAYING THANK YOU LORD EVEN WHEN THINGS OR GOING BAD/GOOD.

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