Hey, welcome to my world! A very short post. I have been under weather lately. Blood count is good n praying doesn’t drop anymore. Had a follow up doctor appointment today. Over weekend got so bad couldn’t walk r stand. My ankles had swollen up. If it’s not one thing it’s another. My arms and hand hurts, which make it hard to type. I do read when I get the chance, hoping to have update with more information. Please do keep me in your prayers. God is good all the time:) I pray all is well with you, you and YOU:)
Category: My Journey
Broken..
You broke me….
even when I felt..
like loving you ..
was a waste…
of time.
I’m a broken woman..
on a mission..
to erase you…
out my heart…
I’m running away…
from my feelings…
When I should be ..
putting them in a box…
and digging a hole…
to place them in…
You broke me…
You destroyed me…
I’m tired of been ..
punish for loving..
a fool…
If anyone every said..
love was easy…
It’s a lie…
I’m a broken …
woman..
Whose heart been..
tumbling over….
I just want to erase…
the memories of..
Me and You…
7/31/14
~PJ~
Do enjoy and let me know what you all think, its dedicated to my love journey. God Bless 🙂
Only You….
You make me happy….
You make me sad….
I don’t know how to express myself…
I’m torn….
You make me happy…
You make me sad….
Why do I feel so
confuse?
I’m trying to reach my point &
and make myself happy…
You make me happy…
You make me sad…
I can’t deal with your moods…
You either loving me,
are you hating me…
I can’t deal…
I want your love…
all year around…
You make me happy…
You make me sad…
I don’t know how to explain my heart…
I do know you a confuse man…
and think I’ll be here forever…
Some may say
Only I can make myself happy…
I would think loving..
someone you choose ..
will do the same…
When I’m away..
I’m happy…
When I’m near…
I’m torn..
Your moods are pushing
me away…
You make me happy…
You make me sad…
I may myself happy…
I can spread my wings & fly…
You make me..
Incomplete..
I’m complete when I’m away…
from you…
You gotta be remove outta
equation…
7/31/14
~PJ~
I actually wrote dis one while I was sick and before getting put in hospital. Some things needed to be shared, so do enjoy and let me know what you all think. God Bless 🙂
Update
Hey Everyone, and welcome to my world. I haven’t been feeling my best but been trying to do what I can, as of right now. I have made some visit to e.r since my doctor have been on vocation. lets just say them visits’ didn’t go so well. I got sent home every time feeling worse then before. First time I went, had rude nurse practiner… It took God him self for me to hold my peace and not lose it. Next time to had cool doctor, he explain everything to me on dis visit. Since my blood count looks fine, didn’t see a reason to keep me. He also told me that I know ya’ll can have pain even if blood count looks fine and retic. He tried to do everything he could, but since obamacare everything seems to be difficult to do. Hmm always something. Must admit its getting crazy for me as a person with chronic pain, if meds at home not doing its job. Taking meds and drinking plenty fluids (water). I guess it a roll into E.R on my death bed then I get treated the proper way. Other then that my plumbing problem is almost taking care of that’s why I’m posting from home. I’m dealing with my nagging headaches, so it’s making it harder for me to post and read like I want 2. So do bare with me. I hope everyone is enjoying there summer, I hate the summer, its hella hot.. And not good for me. Who wants to stay in the house all the time? Looks around not me… I do pray all is well with each and everyone of you all. So thankful for all who have join my journey. I now I have been slipping big time. So do bare with me, I have been writing, I just need to type it all up so I can share it with you all.
I haven’t did update on the lil one’s in awhile. They getting so big and tall. Lil lady is 6 now and Mr. Man is 4. School will be starting soon for lil lady and of course Mr. Man will be going back to Daycare. I must say so glad to be home to enjoy peace and quiet. Maybe my headache will stop. I’m praying it does.. They grow up so fast right? Lil lady have become so freaking sassy its driving me crazy. Nast lil attitude for someone so young. Ha, I think I maybe rubbing off on her with attitude part. Ha. Mr. Man have one as well, and his tantrum is grr… That’s all I’m saying. Nope I’m not missing them whatsoever on this point. On flip side, the MOM who had them finally came home from prison. I must say I haven’t change my mind about her. I need proof that she done change and want to be in her kids life. One visit from my lil lady, she done got worse. Attitude … I already not liking it, but hey I’m not finna stress myself about it.. Another quick way to put in hospital looking crazy… Believe that’s enough update for now…
Only God
Nobody but God
Brought me out…
God
I want to take time..
To thank you..
For your everlasting…
Love…
My God…
Is awesome God….
So many times…
I wanted to walk away…
And throw my hands up…
When things got hectic…
Nobody…
But God…
Kept me sane..
Putting the right people…
In my life..
Telling me not to
Lose FAITH…
Don’t Let The Devil
Steal your Joy…
Thank you Lord..
For not giving upon me…
I’m so thankful…
Of your love…
7/18/14
PJ
Enjoy and God Bless
Updated
Hello and Welcome to my world. I got out of hospital the day before the 4th. Blood count had drop 6.5, but I wanted to be home. I’m off my steroids. I had stop taking them before I was cleared. But got the lovely news while in hospital. Had good nurses and my doctor wanted to be on his P’s and Q’s. Surprise me cause I was ready to get rid of him. I’m doing better then I was…Headaches are giving me hell. But I’m pushing on each and everyday. At the moment me and bro staying at parents house, we currently having plumbing problems. I’m missing my peace and quietness. I had update doctor appointment, since been out of hospital. It went good, blood count went up tremendously:) I just wanted fill you in what’s been going on since I been quiet. As of right now I’m not feeling my best and don’t know what’s going on. I’m trying to see how long I can stay out of hospital. Please do keep me in your prayers. Many Blessing:)
Day 1-2, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Good Evening, another Bless day. As I mention in last post, I ended up coming to er, and yep stuck here. Feeling much better then I was. I’m praying for a test to come back with good news, so I can stay off my steroids. Its bad enough I have to take meds every day. Must admit, I have had some good nurses. Can’t say nothing negative about them. Makes me wonder if they got there act together since I haven’t been here in awhile. I must admit I prefer to have male nurses. They so sweet, and cute as well. I’m hoping to make did short visit. Got me on oxygen, fluids, and of course pain meds. Guess what I saw my doctor. Hmm is all I can say. Got some x-rays done to see what’s going on. I have been in pain for three weeks, praying and hoping it go away on its own. Soon as I get information , I’ll share with you, when I get time and feeling strong enough to share. Thank you for the prayers, comments, as well as like, truly means a lot. God bless
Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Good Morning, Welcome to my world, I know its been awhile. I have been in pain for over two weeks. I have made time to go ER, lets just say one didnt go so well. I got bless with rude nurse who threaten me and told lies. I thought to myself im not in mood for stupidity when im sick. Yes, did check her once, she got mad slam door. She thought calling my mom make her look better, if you all wonder my age I just said goodbye to my twentys, and dont live with my parents. If you follow me on twitter, you may think im lying about my age. Oh well thats on you. Anyways she been reported, if you dont love your job for whatever reason, get a new one. My other visit was okay, but since hemoglobin was ib 7″s and retic wasn’t to high, rhey gave me fluids, meds. Hmm both times oh and not so favorite oxygen. Im at the point im just tired. Sighs…. I do have doctor appointment tomorrow, trying hold out. Waiting see blood doctor next week.
Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Hello and Welcome to my world, I know its been awhile since I did update on everything that’s going on with me when it comes to my illness. I was in hospital last week only for a few days. I don’t know what’s going on with me, I done seen inside hospital to last me 100 years. I have been in bed all day, due to me not feeling my best. I’m actually debating going to er as of right now. My left side of my bed feels swollen and I can’t lay on that side. I been tossing and turning, feels like I have a fever. But I don’t, have ac and fan going . Do bare with me, I do read all comments, just haven’t had the time to respond to them all. Thank you for prayers, comments, hugs.. God Bless me with a lovely blogging family….
My Day
Today I celebrate another
Year on earth.
Its my day
Set aside from the rest.
God created me back when
Blew breathe in me
Save me from myself…
Most of all, love little oh me
Today is my day…
I plan on living as if its
My last day on Earth..
Telling love ones I love them
Enjoying the lovely people God
Put in my life…
Happy Birthday to me..
Oh how sweet it was to hear
Mr. Man sing Happy Birthday
2 me..
He made sure he wasn’t left out
To give me some love over
Phone…
Happy Birthday
2 me!
5/21/14
PJ