Posted in 2015, heart, Love Journey, My Journey, My Love Journey, poem, Poetic, Poetry

Regret

I regret that one last chance to go there with you..

that one last chance to put my feelings in the air..

I regret opening myself to a man who isn’t ready..

I fail to realize to not see I couldn’t control..

how my feelings would react when you walk back in..

How did I let my heart get chip…

dent…

I regret everything that has happen in the past week..

But then again I can’t say…

I really regretted it…

It was meant to happen, so I could open…

my eye’s to you..

I was hoping he would open

his eye’s to reality…

but as someone brought to my attetnion..

I fucked that up by been..

unexperience….

What do we do when regrets seem to take over..

But at the back on your mind..

You screaming…

but words seem to betray you ..

and your emotions is taking over..

Im stuck with regrets…

12/7/15

As I mention I have bn writing even though I may haven’t bn busy blogging and sharing. I have bn sharing my thoughts on paper. Right now I’m refusing to do just that, because I’m going thru so much as the poem says. I know things happen. Teach us a lesson. I hope and pray everyone have a bless Christmas and if you don’t celebrate Happy Holidays 2 you and yours. God Bless 🙂

 God is truly the reason for the season. I can’t sleep since I’m not feeling my best and my mind is doing 2 much thinking. I need to write and I don’t want 2. I usually let myself think for awhile before I temp to write. But I truly need to think as much as possible cause I refuse to write. No matter how much it may make me feel good or either break me .

 

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Word to the wise(Spiritual Word Of The Day )

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Some of you maybe screaming or have screamed… GOD WHERE Are You? He said I’m where I’ve always been. I will never leave you nor forsake you!!!

GOD is so good, I pray all is well with each and everyone of you all. I’m dealing with my crazy insurance That’s giving me trouble with meds, to keep me out hospital.  What a heck of a day. I hope to be back blogging very soon. I miss reading you all blogs: )

Posted in 2014, poem, Poetic, Poetry

Do Me Right…

Caress me…
Rub me.
Please me. ..
Don’t you dare tease me…
Tonight our night, baby
I been waiting for the right time…
The way you caress me..
Sends shivers thru me.
You even rubbing the right spots.
You even pleasing me, the  way I imagine…
Caress me, like it’s our last time…
Rub me, as you hold me
Don’t forget the love I possessed for you…
Please don’t you dare stop..
The melody of us is sweet music…
You whisper my name…
I scream yours as you go deeper
In me…
Don’t you dare tease me…
You better please me…
Tonight the only night we have…
1/2/14
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I know I started it at the end of last year but finish at the beginning of the New year, just didn’t know what to call it and of course with my health not at its best its taking me longer to share my poetry! Do enjoy and let me know what you think! GOD Bless:)

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Posted in Faith, God, Health, My Journey, poem, Poetry, School, Sickle Cell Anemia, Update

My Story

Has taking me places I never thought it would be going.

Only honesty can get me out of this right now

So to my kind followers

Lately I have been losing

courage to share my JOURNEY

with you all.

It seem like I’m ready to throw

in the towel and ready to give up

All I want to do is cry,scream,yell

and hide under the covers in

the dark!

This is My story

2/22/12

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I was going to put it in a poem, but I decided to just make it in a post to put all my thoughts in it! I hope you all brought your cup o joe and something to snack on as I share a little or should I say a lot with you. As of lately I have been in pain every single day since las Thursday! I enjoyed the few days of no pain.  Seems my blood count is looking good so they wont keep me. Sighs! I done read stories of other sickle-cell patients that in pain every day of they lives, but honestly that have never been me. My heart always went out to them, and broke. Yesterday I had one of my weak moments and just broke down and cried out and just wanted to be out of my misery. I know GOD got a purpose for me, I know he’ll take me out this WORLD when his ready! I’m just glad my blood count is looking good, but not happy about the pain I’m having and wish and praying that it will all go away. My doctor appointment didn’t go well if you all is wondering. His worry and I’m worry, his really want to get me into seen a sickle-cell doctor ASAP! So we can see what’s really going on with me. I feel like his giving up, and I know I wanted to give up. I just don’t want to since no one giving up on me or I get that vibe of them doing that. But I do understand if he can’t do anything for me I should see a doctor that can see whats really going on with me. I have good and bad moments. I have to tell you, I’m actually taking my time with this post. My classes have started again today, I thought I had another week but I do need something to take my mind off my pain. I even started playing Farmville on Facebook again, to pass time. I should read one of my novels I recently bought. I have done a lot of catching up on different blogs. Okay back to the point of my blog. I don’t want you all thinking I want pity, because that not what I’m about.  I never imagine MY JOURNEY would be rollercoaster, but GOD knew, so I’m going along with it! Some days I might not have much to share and some days I might have a lot to share. I actually have a class I have to retake because of being so sick last semester. Sucks, but for some odd reason I rather take it over then just make up the stuff I haven’t done.  After this semester I’ll be off to the FALL. Hopefully I have my illness in check and you all wont hear about me been in the hospital so much. I seem to be everywhere in this post once again. Lastnight I got so upset with the nurse, but she explain herself to me afterwards. I just want people to understand I HATE HOSPITAL/DOCTOR OFFICE/. I had a few good nurses last night, that took real good care of me. The nurse explain to me that I have so much going for me and she wants to know whats going on with me because she is use to take care of sickle-cell patients and she know I never use to come in as much as I have been coming in. I don’t blame her for thinking like that, but its a way to show someone you care so they can see where you coming from. I hope that made sense. Now I see what many sickle-cell patients go through when people think that addicted because they come to the hospital so often, hell if that was the case I would just go drop off all my prescription I have in my room and get them fill. I’m allerged to pretty much everything, so only can take one thing. Hmmm, and they keep giving me darn prescription for stuff I don’t like. Yes, I’m serious. Anyways away from that nonsense.  I’m so thankful for the encouragement and prayers, truly mean so much to me. You all just don’t know how much it keeps me going at times. 🙂 I know I’m not alone on this JOURNEY! I will not give up the fight, I’m trying to be more of ADVOCATE, something I truly always wanted to be. I know I keep tell myself I’ll do post explain what my illness is, do bare with me. I haven’t forgotten.

I haven’t lost my FAITH, not letting the devil get the best of me either. I know we all go through different things in life. I see my illness has been one of them as of right now. No limits to what GOD can do for me and any of us! God Bless 🙂

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Ups & Downs

Up & Down

Down & Up

My body can’t make up its mind

to stay on the up and up

Telling myself not to stress

and make it worse

Transfusion was pointless

blood pressure

playing with me

All I want to do is scream

That wouldn’t help me any

Up & Down

Down & Up

What’s really going on

Is my body betraying me

running through my mind

Up & Down

Down & Up

2/12/12

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So much was going through my head at the time I wrote this poem, actually did it while I was in hospital. I Thank God he didn’t leave my side, through all this. I’m truly Bless, I don’t know how much I can say that. Do Enjoy! God Bless 🙂

Not sure if I like the title, just yet. Still working process, do let me know what you all think!

Posted in Love Journey, My Journey, poem, Poetry

Oh Sweet

Sharing the second part before the New Year come in, I will have the link posted at the bottom . If you havent read Sweet Melodies https://poeticjourney251.wordpress.com/2011/12/22/my-sweet-melodies/, you might want to read it first before jumping into this one. Its part of my Love JOURNEY..

I WANT TO HEAR YAH MELODIES…
I WANT TO HEAR U SCREAM MY NAME..
OH HOW SWEET DEM MELODIES…
MUSIC TO MY EARS..
THE WAY U MOVE..
UR LIPS..
TURNS ME ON..
OH DEM SWEET MELODIES..
MUSIC TO MY EARS..
OO RIGHT THERE…
STAY RIGHT THERE..
DONT MOVE..
DATS THE SPOT..
THAT MAKES MY EYES ROLL
TO THE BACK OF MY HEAD..
GOT MY TOES CURLING.
LET ME EASE UR MIND…
ONE FLOW AT A TIME..
ONE NOTE ON KEY…
SCREAM OUT UR NAME..
BABY DATS MY G SPOT..
OH HOW SWEET..
UR MELODIES..
MOVE ME..
FROM MY HEAD TO MY TOE..
SAY MY NAME..
SCREAM MY NAME..
MEAN IT LIKE U NEVER MEANT
IT B4..
SAVOR THE TASTE..
SO SWEET AS DA NOTES.
FROM UR LIPS..
MOVE IT ON DOWN…
OO OO YEA..
U DO IT LIKE A PRO..
HOW SWEET IS UR MELODIES..
TO MY EARS..

12/12/09

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Part 2 to My Sweet Melodies, click the link above if you never read it before, and you can choose which one you like the most. I like them both, the first one would probably be my favorite. This one well as you can tell its a good one, but hey its more work so of course I think its good. If you don’t like this type of thing then just love over it! If you haven’t had a chance to check out my Love Journey, do check it out. Starting next week should be more questions instead of poems, but if I get inspired to write then it will be both.

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE ! 🙂

Posted in Love, Love Journey, poem, Poetry

Broken Soul

You know his soul…
cried out..
He scream my name…
warning me to not
to leave him..
I couldn’t feel nothing..
cause of my soul
had died..
and I kill his soul..
I couldn’t even cry, cause…
my heart wouldn’t let me feel…
I saw his pain..
but did I care..
I wanted him so bad..
cause he touch my heart..
in more ways than one..
I thought I was ready..
but I was wrong…
He never hurted me..
he kept his word..
I was the one that..
broke his spirit..
He had my soul on fire…
Gave me the world…
What did I do?
I left..
Walk out in the rain..
Felt no regret..
No remorse..
I knew I was doing the right thing..
My soul was at peace…

7/29/07

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Another poem from my past and wanted to share with ya’ll. Its part of my Love Journey, things I learn about myself. I believer every relationship show us things, even if we dont understand at the time. Wow is all I can say after reading the poem, I really wasn’t at a good place when I wrote it. I have come along way. Thank God for that! 🙂