Posted in 2019, Love, Love Journey, love thought, My Journey, My Love Journey, My Love Journey Thought, Relatonships, worth

My Love Journey Thoughts

When looking for love and dating. How do yall feel about them calling you sweetie, baby, sexy, etc? I’m not fond of it, just be honest. You don’t know me so don’t come at me with sweet talk. I feel like we have let them pass because we think its cute are whatever reason may be. Sweet talking doesn’t work on me. What happens to talk to the opposite sex with respect? If you correct them they want to call you a female dog. Why should I lose my worth because they have lost their dang mind on the correct way speak to me with some sense. Am I wrong for thinking like that. Fellas how do yall feel about woman calling yall sexy, handsome, etc?

Posted in 2017, Wisdom, Word Of Wisdom

Word of Wisdom

Never trade respect for attention!!!

Good Morning, I pray all is well with each and everyone of you all. God is truly good all the time.  Attention is not better then respect, pray message speak to someone soul and heart. God Bless

Posted in God, Health, My Journey, poem, Poetry, Sickle Cell Anemia

My Pain

My pain,

you can’t see

Do they not


I hurt in

the same way?

Why must I suffer

because of stupidity

I know they thinking

nothing wrong, she

here for the meds.

The pain

I have, they should

walk a mile

in my shoes

Are we not the


Look pass my outer

Laying here

tossing & turning


The pain

I have is driving me


Do they not understand

I hate this place

Don’t I tense up

every time a needle

is mention.

I know they got

to be tired of seen me

trust it goes both ways.

My pain

they don’t understand

nor believes.

Oh your blood count is good

and everything else is fine

Lets send her home.

I swear they love seen

me coming back

to this EVIL PLACE

I wish they could

understand and treat me

with RESPECT..


I know you in Control

and you know my pain

Praise God

for a doctor

who understands,

a friend

who always there

a nurse

who never forsake me

Praise GOD

he knows My Pain




I’m so thankful for everyone kind and encouraging words, and letting me know you still praying for me. Yesterday morning I woke up around 12 and my whole body was hurting, I couldn’t move. I got up and fell back down on my bed. Took me turning and tossing in my bed for like 4 hrs to get back right so I could sleep. I still wasnt feeling my best when I did my post yesterday. The poem is inspired about what happen and etc…



Posted in Friends

Poet Dilema(Why Me?)

I don’t know where or how to start this entry. Been a good friend, can get you in predicaments that have you wondering how did I get here.

A & B

Mr. A. has become a father a few months ago. I met him years ago when he was dating my younger cousin, who was underage at the time. So the only time to see him, I would have to say we going to spend some girl time together so she could see Mr. A. Me and him have been friends for years, even though they not together anymore. He recently came back into my life almost a year ago in February anyways back to the point of the post. Mr. A has feelings for me, yea shocking I know. I DON’T DATE ANYONE WHO HAS BEEN IN RELATIONSHIP WITH FAMILY MEMBERS OR EITHER FRIENDS. I done told him this so many times, but he not hearing or he don’t believe. we had a conversation last night and he was like i know you thought about it at one time or another. I was like honestly I havent, and truth be told it was the truth. ITS ALL ABOUT RESPECT WHEN IT COMES TO ME. Mr. A has been there for me when I got sick a few years ago. He was at the hospital everyday with me, and when the nurses took to long to come he would go get them. he the only guy every see me cry besides my father and brothers. When I got drunk the first and only time when I was at my rebellish age he took care of me. Watch over me the whole time without trying anything. And let me tell you it wasnt easy job to do. lol I done tried to hook him up with a few other people’s since we known each other. He fell in love with my best friend but was too scared to let her know how he felt, and lost her to his cousin and then finally lost her to someone she shouldn’t have every marry. How do we know if we have a chance with someone if we don’t open our mouth and let it be known how we feel about them.  This guy done got ticket for me in the past, when I use to stay in Florida he was coming to see me because we hadn’t seen each other in a long time. Thats how close we was and still is that close to today. I’m slow when it comes to picking up on the feelings. If I’m not into you, I wont notice that you into me.  I even dated his cousin who I was digging along time, we had talk before we actually met and seem to have kick it off. Doesn’t matter that we don’t talk nomore, or if the relationship went sour. I choose to stay true myself and true to any friendship/relationship I make on my JOURNEY.

Mr. B has been in my life for a long time as well. His marry and well they going through somethings. Before I get into anymore details. We were together when we was younger, but things didn’t work out, so we both move one. He got marry and I got engage to someone and cut it off for my reasons of course. Anyways he discover me on Facebook.  I must say I don’t use my real name on Facebook so how did he find me you ask? We have the mutual friend in common and he had been asking about me. Why would a marry man ask about another woman, was the question I ask myself and my best friend. Anyways I debated on adding him on Facebook, so I went for it because well my feelings for him had been dead a long time ago. We stayed in touch through messages on Facebook then move from that to texting and then talking on the phone. Hold on now, we never talk on the phone while his marriage was going good, well I thought it was good. I decided to check my Facebook status of all my friends and his caught my attention. I was like whats going and it wasnt showing that he was marry anymore. So I tried to help him out by been  a good friend and telling him to make it work out. I didn’t know the whole story what was going on, meaning he didn’t tell me everything when I was in the hospital back in September. I find out more once I got out the hospital and I was like I’m sorry to hear and whatnot.  He haves a little girl int he mix of all this drama that’s going on. So right now he done with trying to make it work, for whatever reason. Don’t want to go all in detail with his business. I recently told him I would be here for him, because hey I’m a good friend and I know what it mean to have someone you can count on. He done caught feelings and I can honestly say I care for him like a friend.  Seems I get myself caught up in all this mess when I try to be nice or help a friend who needs someone.

The point of the post is I need advice or  in put or should I call it feedback. Whatever sit right with you. I can give advice to someone all day but it seem like I can’t give myself advice when I need it. I honesly don’t see how I got myself stuck in this situation. IF you wondering have I tried been mean to them, let me tell you! Yes, I have and it doesn’t get me nowhere. Iff you wondering if I know how to be mean, trust and believe I do. Maybe I should’ve made this into a poem instead!  Probably would’ve been everywhere in that as well.  Oh yea please do look over my typo’s. I would love to hear what the guys have to say if they get inspire to tackle this post.

Posted in Thoughts!!!!

Thought Of The Day

 I have always being big on encouragement and inspiration or just motivation for myself and anyone else that going through hard time in their life. We never know what another person is going through in they life. Even when my Sickle Cell act up I’m always posting a thought or either a quote here or I was doing it on my other blog so I decided to bring it here so I hope it touch someone life. God Bless Registered & Protected

“To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived – this is to have succeeded.”

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson