Hello welcome to my world! Im still in hospital, and lets just say what a hell of a way to start my morning! My count has dropped 5.2, seem I had to get threatened to even consider transfusions. My options were have heart attack or my kidney failure! Lastnight was rough on me, seem my knee got swollen on the leg just had surgery on. Cant move it much or put pressure on it. They mention trying pull fluid from it, lets just say your girl flipped out. That was big ole needle and it didnt sit well with me. Mri didn’t sit well with me!! Idk how my lil heart handle all that stress lastnight. Right now im in some pain, so I shall end it here and hopefully update tomorrow! Thank you all for comments and prayers! God Bless
Category: My Journey
Day 1-3, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Hello welcome back to my world! I have been in hospital since Monday! Right now blood count is 6.4! Still no transfusions, idk how much I can take! I’m tired of hurting all the time, I’m in pain now, so dis will be short post! I’m so thankful for your prayers and comments at dis time! God Bless
Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
It have been awhile since I mention my illness,to it surprise me last week and broke my spirit at same time. But I know God is all I need.It started with me getting nasty cold, which turn out be bronchitis with lil pneumonia! Im like serious on bronchitis, just went through it the month before.I couldn’t hardly move,so that was my notice to make my way to evil place! God Bless me with some good nurses and doctor while in ER! I did have a long wait, which my poor body hated, and germs spread! You would think peep would cover mouth,but nope! As you all know, im finally home since MondAy afternoon! Lets just say,my body is in for a fight of my life again. I rather not go into detail. If I refuse to take my meds, im killing myself!But come on, all meds have bad sides of them! I almost went back to hospital Tuesday, I was in so much pain! Hurt move,talk, think, cry! God gave me strength to fight without the hospital! Im still in some pain, but not as bad as early in the week! Good weather, and I cant enjoy it:( I have update doctor appointment next week, plus to get recheck on labs and xray really? Labs understabdable, but umm u sent me home saying things look better! No smart comment at the moment! Turn out I needed antiobodies, which wasn’t mention to me before you discharge me! Thinking I need a new primary doctor! Im lil lazy to do the searching right now, but dont feed me bs and then have to eat your words later 🙂 All the prayers,comments touch my heart in so many ways. I cant have transfusions, to everything is cleared. I left hospital at 7.2! Another rough journey, im praying ill make it through once again. Makes you wonder how some people become doctors when you educationing them. I did have two big idiots as doctors.
Day 4-6, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Hello World, thank you for prayers and comments. Meant so much to me. I had rough weekend, idiot doctor who didnt know crap. Bless with many wonderful nurses, who showed me so much compassion. My count came up and then drop. I did come home, but I shouldn’t have as today im in more pain today then before. Im trying stay strong and not move around much, it makes me hurt even more. I cant have transfusions, im back on steroids! Told my doctor I wasn’t going take them, but im doom even more if I dont. Ooo lucky me stuck with more poison to take. Idk how to deal, when my body wants best of me and im getting discouraged! I know God have last say so! Idk how much fight I have in me. I pray all is well with each and everyone of you! God Bless
Day 1-3, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Hey and welcome to my world. I have been in pain for a few days. Im In hospital, and hoping to go home soon. I know it won’t be with good news. Its been awhile since I been In hospital, and transfusions. Right now my test came back to hurt my heart. I have a good doctor and some good nurses, had a problem with her lastnight. I have port for a reason and I don’t like when people try and bs me, talking about they can’t draw from it. So I gave the tech one chance and she didn’t want to do it, cause she knew the nurse was lying. Blood count has drop, its in the 7s, but still good for men but would love to be in the 8s. I hope everyone is well. I do have a feeling I’m forgetting so something, but I do update when it comes to me. God Bless
Abused Heart
You abuse my heart
Threw the words right back
At me
I’m so done
You are my past
That’s where you lay
My heart told me
Not to go there
Nobody fault
But mine
I applaud you
I hurt you
Over and over
And you paid me
Back..
You abused my heart
Never Again
I promise
Never Again
I refuse to listen
And look you into
Your face..
You abused my heart
And left me wounded
And I saw what was meant
For me to see
You may have won
And maybe I lost the
Fight
But Never Again
Will you play my
Strings
3/22/14
PoeticJourney
Finally been able to express myself! Does feel good to let it all out! Dedicated to My Love Journey! Do enjoy and let me know what y’all think! God Bless
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Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Today wasn’t a good day! My pain has got worse since last post. I went to primary doctor, honestly didn’t do me no good! He treated me either kidney problems or either I got ulcer. I can’t sleep at night as it is. My sickle cell nurse told me if it get worse to go to hospital and get admitted! My primary wasn’t getting my sickle cell problem, I wasn’t worry about the problems he talking about! If I stress it kick my illness in worse 10 time worser! I can’t move or use both my arms to extent! My left side still bugging me. My second week of new term started today. So as you all know that been with me. This isn’t looking to good with stress. I have appointment with blood doctor tomorrow and I’m not even feeling him right now cause of all the pain I’m in. You can’t stick me! Nor check my blood pressure at this point in time. Now if they can get blood from my port that’s what’s up! But I ain’t having the abuse right now. To the next post. God Bless 🙂
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Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Today isn’t a good day. I’m so not enjoying the weather. Taking one day at a time, is easy said then done, when your body is screaming pain every which way. The E.R did call and check up on me yesterday, asking if I was feeling better then then day before, I told them no. I’m trying hold out to Tuesday, since I see my blood doctor. I don’t know if I can do that right now. My labs may have came back good, but my body is telling me another story, I don’t know what more to say. I was glad I didn’t have a long wait Friday, only thing I didn’t like is the medicine they gave me. Seems my headaches are getting worse, migraine medicine not working anymore and I don’t want to up my doses to 100. Me and hospital seem to be at Whits in st the time been. My whole left back is either sore. I can’t lay on it, or touch it. I have pain shooting up. And my left arm is doing the most. Sighs… IMA love it when I have a day or even a week with of no pain. I’m on break to Wednesday, so thankful for that Blessing….
Surgery Update Pt.3
Hey Everyone, I’m a few days late with the post, been trying finish term out. Sad that I have retake one of my classes, and I’m glad I have to do it. Because that class was so over my head.lol my doctor appointment went good. No damage was done from a few weeks ago, which I’m happy about 🙂 I did get approve for more physical therapy. It has been two months since my surgery, that was actually on Saturday on my dad birthday. Tuesday I was a little worry because I woke up with my hip hurting me, it was because of the weather. It was the first time since the surgery since I had pain like that. Im just glad everything is going good with my healing process,still having problems sleeping at night. I don’t go back to him to August, which is good in my book. Thank you all for all the prayers thru my hard times and good times.
Not looking back
Something tells me were not meant to be anymore..
I’m strong enough not to cry anymore…
Tears wont bring you back to me..
I tried to hold on to something that wasn’t meant to be…
Who am I kidding?
I know my worth?
I’m a CHILD OF GOD!
I should be treated so much better…
I shouldn’t have to wait …
To you make time for me…
Idk why I’m doing this to myself. ..
I may love you…
You may care..
Doesn’t mean we need to be a couple …
I need to be myself…
Find myself in CHRIST..
Right now I’m lost …
Blind by your misguided trust .
I have to do this on my own..
I know my FATHER wont abandon me..
I know my value…
I pray you know yours …
I’m not looking back…
Its time move on…
Closing the chapter of us..
And preparing myself
For someone worthy
When I’m ready…
11/22/13
PJ
I have had a lot on my mind lately. Wanted to share it with you all. Dedicated it to Love Journey, do enjoy it. Let me know what you all think. My friend (Red)http://glimpsesofred.wordpress.com/, gave me the title to my poem, she is on my blog roll if you would like to visit her blog.
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