It took me a minute to get here…
Someone once ask me did I know
What I want…
The turn around and told
Me I didn’t know what I want…
Funny thing is they were right…
I never in my life
Wanted to fight for anything but
My rights
As a black woman
I find myself lately…
Thinking about
Fighting for love…
I thought love didn’t need
No fighting
If it was meant to be…
It would be…
I hate that saying…
Big time…
Then I find myself thinking…
Could any man have me wanting
To fight for love…
I’m still a little confused on it…
And been doing a debate in my head
For awhile now…
I don’t want to fight..
I want to give up!
I want to walk away…
Deep down…
All I want
Is you
Next to me…
Holding me down
Staying true to
What’s right…
I fell for you a long time ago
I thought I could
Fall out of love
With you with so many
Miles between us…
I thought no man
Could get me to change my
Ways when it came to that…
Boy was I wrong…
I thought I was solid as a rock…
I’m working on finding my way back
There!
It’s been rough!
I never been one
To stay still for one person…
I can’t even wait…
But I know I should…
That person is everything…
I need right now…
I don’t know about
Tomorrow!
Or next year
Or later on…
But right now
I know!
I’m not trying to think about the future without
You…
I’m not trying to picture my life
Without you…
I’m trying to dream it
Imagine it…
And while I’m at it
Pray about it!
I’m trying to make this right…
It’s hard when that person won’t acknowledge
You when they still in their own ways…
Something got to give…
It’s got me going both ways…
I always wanted to have someone that’s
Irreplaceable….
In more ways then one…
Always wanted someone that
Could complete me in more ways then one
If I throw it at them…
They are going to throw it back…
Stubborn as a mule…
Mean as a snake…
But gentle to the touch
And love in his ways…
Seems like I ask for a lot…
When a lot of peeps can’t even attempt
To stay true to themselves
I’m finally…
Admitting it to myself…
Took long enough
Going on 4 yrs in May…
Well it’s been a long time and a long
Journey!
Like to say Thank God for you!
Poets Afterthought 
Wow. This was so powerful that it almost sounded like something I’ve been experiencing and thinking about for the past couple of weeks. In this situation it’s unrequited love that I speak of…but it was returned to me with shock in that the person already had someone and was stringing me along knowing full well that this relationship could never be.
The way you express it, I sense the pain and yet I see the strength in how you are being real with yourself. There’s nothing wrong about fighting for love. The journey is painful at times and we learn a lot along the way. Even when we give up we must stay strong and not lose our ways. Others may do things to change you and may not appreciate the current you but you are who you are and if they can’t accept it, they don’t value the love you have to give. Your love has value and even if another does not see it’s value, you must not give up on it’s value. Stay strong and remain as beautiful as you are.
Thank you for this truly spoke to me in ways you cannot understand.
Never give up on love. Stay blessed 🙂
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Ty! It came from my heart! Im sorry you went thru that ordeal! Im glad it touch you. I actually just wrote a poem about some of the things you said. And you so right about the value. I wont give up on love.. Ty for your kind words and encouragement! God Bless U
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Yrs ago I almost gave up on love. I try and post poem up before I call it a night! Where would I be if God gave up on me!
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So True. God loves us even when others don’t 🙂
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Amen!
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Which is why we should love Him unconditionally too!
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In my journey, I’ve grown to understand that “the best things in life are worth fighting for!”
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True and you so right!
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I agree 100%
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