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Look into my Eyes

They tell a story of what

 I been through

shows my pain,frustration

They hide so many things,

but not the intensity of

my pain, that sends me away

from my love ones

Look Into My Eye’s

What do you see?

Do you see inside my soul?

Do you see my heart crying out?

Make sure you don’t stare,

just be honest and let me

know when they change.

Look Into My Eye’s

They betrays me at times

So many time’s

I had to cover up and push on

Look Into My Eye’s

Tell me what you see?

1/3-4/12

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The poem is inspired by my illness.  With Sickle Cell Anemia, my eye’s or normally yellow, but when I’m feeling bad there turns a little more yellow.  That is when I have to worry, and drink my liquid. Let me tell you feels like I’m drinking too much water. lol

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Push Play

I’m constantly

thinking always influence

to write

 dream more,

This is my story

some is already

recorded

 so I’m just

rewinding it & pushing play

Majority of it is Whats

happening now, the present

Some I pause or rewind

I have to admit it,

I  have

fast forward some parts

I’m constantly

over thinking

stressing

When I should be relaxing

11/16/11

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Something I wrote when I had a lot on my mind and was struggling with school and my illness.  I havent really finish it, that’s all I could come up with at the time and not sure if I’ll add more to it. Not sure if I stick with that title, but thats what I came up with at the time. God Bless 🙂

Posted in Love Journey, My Journey, poem, Poetry, Relatonships

Defeat

I can’t sit here and wonda…
I can’t act like its cool when its not…
I can’t even focus….
I was going bak and forth…
Things right now looking real simple….
Who AM I..
To Question Defeat?
I done lost the battle with myself…
I done gave in… I done fought the last
fight..
So Who Am I…
To Question anything..
But all Im saying.. Is I can’t…
Only can be real…
Can you handle it?
Can you take wat I have to say…..
Move on…
I can’t sit here and not think…
Dang did he get away… ?
Did my Conflict hold me bak?
Dang…
You Is Who U R…
Im Who I Am…
Dang that…
Hell…
Did you notice how cold it got?
I can’t tell u…
U wrong.. cause your right…
But dont tell me…
Im wrong…
I Can’t walk without putting it out there…
But I can Do these..
Let you know..
Defeat is my name…
Defeat is the Game..
1.. 2..
Defeat…

11/21/09

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Another old one from my past, and wanted to share with you tonight. I’m actually have been working on a few things and still trying to tweak some of my post. I hate when I don’t think my work is good enough, so I have to truly debate with myself before sharing my work. Do enjoy and God Bless 🙂

Posted in 2012, God, My Journey, Update

~Welcome to 2012~

I like to say Thank for joining my JOURNEY(2011), and for sticking with me and been my support system when I needed it. A Blessing to me, when I truly thought I couldn’t deal with alone, sometimes we need help, even when we think we can handle it.

“THE JOURNEY IS THE REWARD”  Saw the quote today while I was out with my mom, but not sure whose it by and wanted to share it with ya’ll, honestly I don’t think I have come across the quote before.

Also like to thank you all for the prayers for me, my family and friends. I do pray for each and every one of you. I heard from one friend her mother is doing much better and also says thank you for the prayers. GOD IS GOOD.  I hope & pray each and every one of you made it into 2012 safe & sound! Many Blessings 🙂

I been reading my messages as they came in today, but couldn’t respond to them since for some odd reason my data wasnt working like I would like it. I have a lot of reading and catching up on. I actually had a good day. I got to see my cousin who has been gone for a long time. It was good to hear from her and to see her. I can’t wait to see how 2012 go for all of us. A post without a poem. I so can’t believe it. lol

God Bless Each & Everyone Of You!

Posted in 2012, God, Journey, My Journey, poem, Poetry, song

Change In Me

I’m ready for a change in me

I’m ready

Yes, I am

Either you with me or not

Choose who you for today

Because you can’t serve two

Masters

A change is coming

And I’m not talking about a

New Year

A change in me

Watch me Evolve into

Who GOD wants me to be

I’m ready

For a change

Hold On

To his hands and never

Let go

A change is coming

So be READY!

12/31/11

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As you can tell I’m not finish with it just yet. It’s a working process, after having a good talk with my cousin who did my hair today.  She open my eye’s up to different things that I have overcome, let me tell you without GOD I wouldn’t be here. I’m here because of him. Will be new stuff coming from me in the New Year so just stay tune and wait it out. The poem/song is my story. Lessons I have learned since I been on my JOURNEY &  the different people’s who have come and gone!  Okay enough of me talking your eyes off. Lol. God Bless and Welcome to 2012!

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Oh Sweet

Sharing the second part before the New Year come in, I will have the link posted at the bottom . If you havent read Sweet Melodies https://poeticjourney251.wordpress.com/2011/12/22/my-sweet-melodies/, you might want to read it first before jumping into this one. Its part of my Love JOURNEY..

I WANT TO HEAR YAH MELODIES…
I WANT TO HEAR U SCREAM MY NAME..
OH HOW SWEET DEM MELODIES…
MUSIC TO MY EARS..
THE WAY U MOVE..
UR LIPS..
TURNS ME ON..
OH DEM SWEET MELODIES..
MUSIC TO MY EARS..
OO RIGHT THERE…
STAY RIGHT THERE..
DONT MOVE..
DATS THE SPOT..
THAT MAKES MY EYES ROLL
TO THE BACK OF MY HEAD..
GOT MY TOES CURLING.
LET ME EASE UR MIND…
ONE FLOW AT A TIME..
ONE NOTE ON KEY…
SCREAM OUT UR NAME..
BABY DATS MY G SPOT..
OH HOW SWEET..
UR MELODIES..
MOVE ME..
FROM MY HEAD TO MY TOE..
SAY MY NAME..
SCREAM MY NAME..
MEAN IT LIKE U NEVER MEANT
IT B4..
SAVOR THE TASTE..
SO SWEET AS DA NOTES.
FROM UR LIPS..
MOVE IT ON DOWN…
OO OO YEA..
U DO IT LIKE A PRO..
HOW SWEET IS UR MELODIES..
TO MY EARS..

12/12/09

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Part 2 to My Sweet Melodies, click the link above if you never read it before, and you can choose which one you like the most. I like them both, the first one would probably be my favorite. This one well as you can tell its a good one, but hey its more work so of course I think its good. If you don’t like this type of thing then just love over it! If you haven’t had a chance to check out my Love Journey, do check it out. Starting next week should be more questions instead of poems, but if I get inspired to write then it will be both.

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE ! 🙂

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Fragile Heart

Fragile Heart: easily broken as or damaged, vulnerable delicate in appearance

Foolish: resulting from or showing a lack of sense, unwise. 2. Lacking forethought or caution.

You seem to keep going backwards & not forward.

You seem not to see whats good in front of you.

You pushing me away & you don’t know it.

You seem to want to do good, but your past

is keeping you from going forward.

Your Fragile Heart

Has been broken by the same person

over & over

And  you wont let no other person have a

chance to mend what has been damage

I call it been FOOLISH at the same time

Fragile Heart

You seem to see the good in one

person & that keeps hurting you

I haven’t even known you that

long, but from what I can see,

you can give a woman much happiness.

You seem to not care what I say & that

hurts me the most.

Fragile Heart

I see the good in your pa.

6/13,18/05

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I was supposed to share the poem the same day I wrote the new one. Check the link https://poeticjourney251.wordpress.com/2011/12/22/fragile-heart/ if you havent read it  and you can be the judge of the one you like the most. Trying to do a little catch up with some of my post before the NEW YEAR & before classes  starts back next week.

Posted in family, God, Health, My Journey, poem, Poetry

Learning to Forgive

I know I have written on Forgiving a few times, its part of my JOURNEY!  This post is sorta like update on how I have come long way and what I have learned through it all.

I never knew how much it could

destroy me, holding so much

angry in my heart!

Learning to Forgive

hasn’t been easy

Now

I can honestly look at

the person I was so hurt with

 without anger

in my heart.

You know I tried to understand his

pain, but the way he act destroyed

my compassion I once had for

my own flesh & blood

Maybe it was me been sick

and laying in the hospital

that truly got me thinking.

Or maybe it was me working

on a better relationship with

GOD

That showed me how

Learning to Forgive

could be healing process

for the soul

as well  as for the body

 It hasn’t been easy!

but so worth the JOURNEY

to overcome.

it truly does make you feel good

on the inside

Learning to Forgive

12/28/11

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After taking a break from the post and coming back to it. Before Christmas I saw something in me, I had started to forgive my brother, and saw how much I needed to learn to forgive the other person I was mad with. I shouldnt’ have so much animosity in me, when I’m struggling with trying to make it day by day with my illness.  having talk with my mother by somethings and I realize how my body felt when I talk about certain person. I let myself get the best of me and felt like I was choking. That was a sign to let it go and end the conversation. The post is about Learning to Forgive and how  I’m a working process.

Posted in AWARENESS, Health, My Journey, Sickle Cell Anemia

Recovering/Information On Disease

I seem to be stuck with cold ever since I got out the hospital and can’t get rid of it for some odd reason. I never had this problem before getting over cold. The New year is almost here and have two new doctors to see coming up in a few weeks. One is for my headaches I was getting all the time. I don’t get them as much right now, which is a good thing. But after doing more searching about my disease and learning about why I could be having headaches everyday. I learn something that  I didn’t know that it could be cause of a tumor. Since I’m the only one in my house hold with my illness, its good for me to study on it and learn as much as possible. You do know with seen the different doctors I do have, they never mention anything about me having tumors. I don’t know if that a good thing or bad thing, part of me make me think they don’t believe it could be that serious for me and then other is they probably know I can’t handle no more awful news. Also the other doctor appointment is about why I have so many antibodies in my body. Since its hard to find my blood type, I like to say thank you to each and every one of you whose been praying for me and still praying for me and who donates blood or know someone who does. Last time it didn’t take long to find my blood type. I was so happy! I was just in the hospital that long because of a slow ignorant doctor. Seem like he don’t know how to talk to a lot of people’s, and think people s have to take his lip and attitude. Thats a negative! Hey my mouth is working process.  I had a good  Christmas, wasn’t down in my body or stuck in hospital, did have a doctor appointment before Christmas. It went sorta good and sorta not. Yay for getting took off one medicine and boo for getting put on a new one that suppose to be better for my headaches. If you don’t take medication on every day basic, you or truly bless, and don’t ever take it for granted.  If some had read up on my disease because I havent made it back to do all that good stuff. That post should be up sometimes this week. Different ones with my disease can take the medicine to help them have less crisis, but to be honest I never really needed it before I got put on it when I was younger and it didn’t;t agree with me. I almost died in 06, so that’s when I got introduce hydroxyurea.  I usually take Folic Acid, that been working for me every sense well shoo forever. Seem like I’m everywhere with my post today. I’m pretty sure more to come this week, hate to bore all of yall in one post. 🙂

 

 

I do love all my followers, you have truly been a BLESSING to me on my JOURNEY, can’t wait to see how 2012 goes for us. Many Blessings to each and every one of you, like to welcome all my new followers, and say glad to have you on my JOURNEY, can’t wait to get to know each and every one of you as the year goes out and as the new year comes in. God truly knows what he doing when he seen certain peoples in your life that you never expect to make a mark on you.

Posted in God, Health, Jesus, My Journey, poem, Poetry, Sickle Cell Anemia

Let Go

Devil take your hand off of me

I want to be free

GOD

I know you see the different struggles

I been going through

I done seen my share of doctors and hospitals

And nurses

GOD

I feel like my body is losing the battle

I’m questioning my health

But I know you have the last say so

I done experience Depression for awhile

I done wanted to give up and walk away

Devil let go of me

I may be struggling but I’m not ready

To lose the fight

I have been fighting all my life

GOD

I know you have a plan for me

I’m a living testimony

Your son JESUS didn’t have it easy

So why would I?

I’m holding on but sometimes

It feels like I’m holding on

To my last string of HOPE

Devil takes your hand off of me

You can’t have me

12/24/11

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He doesn’t care what you going through, he know when you having a rough time and know when the right time to attack you when you at your lowest! 2011 is almost over and it hasn’t been easy for me or my family, but I;m speaking from my eyes right now. I been struggling with a lot and still have a long way to go to I accomplish what need to be done.  I Hope Everyone Have A Bless Christmas!