During my Journey recently a lot of different things have come to my knowledge. As I was having conversation with my best friend about her journey. Im not big on saying follow your heart. For the fact, at times my heart and head are saying different things. Deep down I feel like I’m betraying myself. What I mean part of you want to forgive and the other half want to hold your ground and move on and just stay guarded. We got to know when to do what’s best for us. Sometimes bn guarded can do more harm to us then heal. Something I’m still learning.
Category: My Journey
Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Hello World,
I’m late with sharing how I’m doing. I have bn resting and trying recovery. I have bn doing a lot of writing. Dis post will be short till I’m at my best to do a update. I have doc appointment Monday. I may then do update then. My counts was holding it’s on I think. A lot has bn going on so I can’t remember if it was or not. Already dealing with fevers and nausea and vomiting. Which I’m not happy about it. So last night was rough had allergic reaction to something. I didn’t get much sleep. So hoping tonight I succeed.
Yearning
I’m yearning..
The way things used…
Be…
Its bn a minute….
Since I heard..
Your voice…
Oh how I yearn…
To have your arms…
Around me…
-sighs-
If only I could go back….
In time & fix..
My mistake….
I’m yearning….
The way you feel…
Your smell…
Just to see your gorgeous…
Smile..
I’m yearning you….
I never realize…
Just how much…
I miss you…
To it’s gone…
I find myself…
Loving your imperfection…
Oh how I yearn…
Just to know we okay…
I hate the way…
Things are…
Yearning….
For your love Is bananas…
Yearning….
3/5-6/16
~PJ~
Do enjoy.. I wrote while in hospital for the second time, will be doing a post shortly… do let me know what you think. Dedicated to my love journey.. God Bless
My Love Journey Thoughts…
I recently have learned a life lesson on what my words could do to someone I truly love and want in my life for along time. On dis Love Journey it’s hard to acknowledge just what a person is feeling when it comes to you and your needs. I have been in love with a guy going on 12 years off and on. We finally got the chance to really get to know one another but I still keep my heart guarded because I feel he does the same. I’m a very sarcastic person, and I thought he could tell the difference. No matter how long you know a person, you still have be careful how you word things. You can lose them or push them farther away and have to work getting them back to where you work so hard to let there guards down.
Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Hello World,
Yesterday I got the word I could go home. I got paperwork on having pneumonia. I’m hoping and praying I’m cleared of it all. I’m not feeling my best, I’m hoping it all past soon. All I want to do is sleep and that’s all I plan on doing. I’m so thankful for all the prayers and comments, truly means a lot to me. I hope to have a update post soon as I’m 100%. I pray all is well with each and everyone of you all. God Bless
Day 3, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Hello World, I’m writing you from hospital bed. I bn sleeping off and on today because of my counts bn low. Yesterday was a rough day for me. I woke up with headache and it didn’t go away till the end of night. I wasn’t feeling nobody. My counts are at 7.1, not the best and not the worse. My right arm is still giving me trouble. I can’t do much with it. The doctor mention blood transfusion yesterday, honestly that’s my last result. The last transfusion was back in December when I get put in hospital on Christmas. I done had some great nurses. Thats always a plus when it comes to me. I’m praying counts don’t drop no more. Till next time. Thank you all for the prayers and comments, truly means a lot to me.
My Love Journey Thoughts..
When dealing with love on my journey and coming across someone who tend to want to use you for all the good you worth. Some times it seems were the light that they need to survive, to get them out there hell hole. Is love taking all the hell they put you through just to show them. I love you, I’m here for you. I ask myself dis question constantly, because it seem like I may have something prove. Do we stay because we gave them our word that we wouldn’t hurt them. Some even play on our guilty conscious when we fed up and ready to walk. The control a user can have is banana’s.
I decided to add thoughts towards the end of it so I won’t get confused. When I’m feeling much better.. hoping start the other My Love Journey post again. Till next time. God Bless
Day 2, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Hello World,
I’m writing you from my hospital bed once again. I’m not feeling so hot , woke up with a nagging headache. I’m not going home today. The doctor decided to do x- ray on my wrist since it been giving me trouble. I’m glad to hear no damage. Some time I can have a crisis in my hands and it moves up. I’m right handed so it was making it harder to type. Still not at it’s best. I’m hoping when I do leave it be in good spirit, if y’all know like I know. I’m not happy about nurses bn late when my meds, it takes awhile to get my pain uncontroll and with them bn late truly isn’t helping the cause. I pray all is well with each and everyone of you all. So thankful for the prayers….
Day 1, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Hello Everyone,
Writing from my hospital bed. I’m not feeling my best. I was planning on doing a post yesterday saying living with it, but I couldn’t take the pain no more.. I was throwing up and gagging a lot. Come find out have fluid in my lungs, seems I may have a touch of pneumonia. I have a great group of people on my team here. It took me awhile get on the floor dis morning. I’m trying write to distract me from my pain. It’s not really working. My port still not letting them pull blood from it. So when they came around to check port I let them know and she reclog it to get it working. I’m not ready to get it replace. I know it still works, it can be flush and I can get fluids, and meds. My right hand is swollen real bad so I’ll cut dis post short with you all. I pray all is well with each and everyone of you all. God Bless:)
Update
Hello World,
Another wonderful day to be alive. Last night was rough due to the weather, not much damage my way. I can’t say the same for my neighboring states in the south. Some lost love ones and some lost everything they have. I’m sitting at doctor office waiting to get labs done, so not feeling my best. Let see what my counts tell me. I like coming see him, I get hear how everything looks. Since im having problems with my shoulder, im not letting them touch my arm to draw labs from. Thankful i have port and itll be first time for them. YIKES! Im working on stressing less over stuff in my life I have no control over. I’m a work in progress. Just left the doctor office, things didnt go as plan with my port it would give the lovely lady back blood. So I had to suck it up and well you know the rest. My counts holding its own, not its best, but not its worse. I dont belive he did retic count. Hopefully my counts can hold to i can see my primary doctor next week. Yes, working on looking for a new one. Thats a post for another time. With all the meds im on, trying break it down see what im allergic to exactly;(. I pray all is well with each and everyone of you all. God Bless




