Posted in 2019, Cancer, family, God, My Journey, My Life, Sickle Cell Anemia, Update

Update

Good Morning and Welcome back to my world. Finally made it to my sickle cell doctor and must say glad be back on some of my meds. So far my sleep is blah. I done got out of bed, so many times. Either use restroom or something to drink. I done fold clothes up, played a few games on my phone. Why Am I Up? I need sleep, like right now. Guess I took my sleep meds late and body is like oh no we ain’t with that. Sighs. Tossing and turning and dealing with pain.

As some of yall may know if you been with me for a while. My dad has cancer. Well, he had to have surgery back in November because one wasn’t shrinking. It was getting bigger. The surgery went well. Thank God. He went for a scan last week to see how the others are doing since starting treatment again. They shrinking but two of them. The doctor wants to go in and remove them. My dad was like like let me think about it. In other words, pray about it and talk to the wife about it. You know God is good all the time. No matter what you going through. I can’t imagine not having my dad. When we find out a few years ago. It was shocking. We could have lost him. I thank God for that doctor appointment after Christmas. His counts were low. We knew something was wrong, but never in million years, we think it was cancer. We had to literally tell him to go to the hospital. He needed blood because he was losing it, and to see what was going on. His primary was like it maybe its cancer or an ulcer.

My nephew just celebrated his 9 birthday these past weekend. They grow up so fast. Where has the time gone? He celebrated his bday at the bowling alley. Second year in a row. No bowling, he chooses the arcade and lazor tag.

Posted in 2019, Heart, Love, My Love Journey Thought, Relatonships

Love Thought

How can we love someone, when we cant even love ourselves. So many of us going in and our of relationships like its nothing. Some even going back and forth to same one they left. Have we really forgot our worth?

So many thoughts running thru my head. It’s been awhile since I shared some love thoughts with y’all. I would love hear what yall think. Will next time. God Bless:)

What happen to loving you, discovering you before you decide to love someone else .

So many thoughts running thru my head. It’s been awhile since I shared some love thoughts with y’all. I would love hear what y’all think. Will next time. God Bless:)

Posted in 2019, knowledge, life advice, Motivation, Wisdom, word of encouragement

Life Advice

Stop being afraid of what you could lose—get excited about what you could GAIN!

Good Evening, I hope all is well and everyone having a good week. I’m making my way back little by little. I have been enjoying catching up on blogs and I know I haven’t put a dent into it just yet. Thank you all for who joining my jouney while I was away. I hope something I share speak to someone soul/heart. God Bless

Posted in 2019, God, Health, My Journey, My Life, Sickle Cell Anemia

Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

Hey and welcome to my world. It’s been a while since I wrote anything about my disease. Every since new year came in I have been hurting and dealing with a minor crisis. I have made two e.r visits. The first one I should have stayed but I felt like I was better but let me tell you it was all in my head because I got worse but refuse to go right back. When you been thru hell with medical staff people you choose to go home then being judge from people who don’t know your illness. I ended up going back Sunday and counts had come back up but was still hurting. A different doctor that day and since counts look better they wouldn’t admit me. So I had tough it out at home.

I haven’t seen my sickle cell doc since September and ended up losing my primary doc because she moved back home. Without primary doc, you can’t get in to see a specialist without a referral. So I have been without my meds since November. I must admit I don’t miss taking them, but I know my folic acid is a must have for me. To help me stay healthy. You don’t realize how much you so dependent on meds, like my sleep meds. I haven’t been sleeping lately. I hate the pain meds they have me on, makes me itch and let me tell u I hate scratching. The E.R did a number on me. I have so many fresh scratch marks on me from a week ago. Nope, they haven’t healed yet. I have been taking over counter meds to help with minor pain. I finally find a new primary doc and hope meet her next month. My blood doc got me in to see my sickle cell doc next month on 4, so I’m happy about that. It’s odd how I can see cancer/hematology doc without a referral. So thankful for him. Also get labs and result on the same day. My count has dropped once again. Guess that’s why I been cold so much lately and hurting. Winter is heck on my body. All I want is feel normal without pain, but I wouldn’t wish my illness on anyone. It amazes me how many nurse and docs have compassion and the ones who don’t. Are we allowing frustration of someone we once love to destroy the compassion we have as human beings?