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Emotional Paralyzed

My heart has been paralyzed by emotion from my past
I believe he done played my strings as if I was yo yo
I’m bitter
And down right
How could I been so stupid?
So many signs!
My heart may never be the same
The past knows how to destroy you and bring uproar
His web of deceit
May have won this fight
I be damn if he win the battle
I may be broken
Bitter and down right ice cold
But a love of a good man hasn’t left me….
PJ Registered & Protected

I’m not sure on title just yet, so it may get change. Do let me know what you think. Enjoy and God Bless… of course its another one dedicated to my love journey.
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Day 1-3, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

Hey Everyone and welcome go my world!  I have been in hospital since Monday. I actually got sick Sunday night around 11, and knew I was in for rough night! My blood count was.7.9 when I arrived, now it 6.9! I know I mention in one of my post I had a cold, idk if that help kick in my sickle cell. Sounds like I I’m coughing up my lungs. Sighs! I have, some awesome nurses so that’s a plus in my book.  Be sweet if I could get some sleep! But my pain is making it difficult for me right now! Actually spoke to my doctor before he went on vocation, he was the E.R when I came in, so he fill the doctor in that’s stepping in for him about my situation. I still can’t receive transfusions right now. Another story for another time. If anything else comes up, ill make sure keep y’all updated! God Bless 🙂

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Day 3, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

Well got a little good news today. My account went up some,but still low,but if it keep going up. NO TRANFUSION! Yay! I have been in bed majority of the day getting some good sleep. Headache been kicking my butt:( Its cold and I wish Spring was already here for me. Havent seen the doctor yet today, not sure how I feel about that. I’m just glad it’s not the rude doctor from before. Yes, if you wondering if I complain about him too my doctors. the answer is yes! Guess I should get to doing a little homework while the pain is gone. Thank each and every one of you for praying for me, asking how im doing. your encouragement! God Bless

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Update(Doctor Appointment)

I receive some good news, so I don’t have lupus and that’s real good to know. I’m not happy about how long t took my primary doctor to fax some information over that I needed to see the doctor. Last time I saw him was before Christmas I was back there and now have made it back to  the waiting room, while waiting for them to get with it. Lets just say I wasn’t happy about how everything was going. Have you ever wonder why doctor office are always cold? Well I have, I would think it be warm since its hella cold outside. Sound like they trying to send me back to E.R, but hey that’s just me over thinking the situations. What do ya’ll think? I finally left, so hopefully I wont get a bill talking about my insurance wont cover it and I have to pay whatever crazy amount. I know for a fact I have to act a fool. Another plus side of the situation is that the doctor was nice looking man. 🙂 I had to share that little info! He gave me pamphlet about Lupus, I’m just glad I don’t have it. THANK GOD FOR AMAZING GOD WE SERVE.  GOD IS TRULY GOOD ALL THE TIME. THANK EVERYONE WHO HAVE BEEN PRAYING FOR ME! I never imagine my JOURNEY taking me through this, but I must say I’m so glad to have ya’ll  as a support system. I don’t know what I would do without ya’ll!

OAN: I’m feeling much better today, then yesterday. Thank God! Please do give me time to catch up on approving comments, and visiting blogs.  God Bless 🙂

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Recovering/Information On Disease

I seem to be stuck with cold ever since I got out the hospital and can’t get rid of it for some odd reason. I never had this problem before getting over cold. The New year is almost here and have two new doctors to see coming up in a few weeks. One is for my headaches I was getting all the time. I don’t get them as much right now, which is a good thing. But after doing more searching about my disease and learning about why I could be having headaches everyday. I learn something that  I didn’t know that it could be cause of a tumor. Since I’m the only one in my house hold with my illness, its good for me to study on it and learn as much as possible. You do know with seen the different doctors I do have, they never mention anything about me having tumors. I don’t know if that a good thing or bad thing, part of me make me think they don’t believe it could be that serious for me and then other is they probably know I can’t handle no more awful news. Also the other doctor appointment is about why I have so many antibodies in my body. Since its hard to find my blood type, I like to say thank you to each and every one of you whose been praying for me and still praying for me and who donates blood or know someone who does. Last time it didn’t take long to find my blood type. I was so happy! I was just in the hospital that long because of a slow ignorant doctor. Seem like he don’t know how to talk to a lot of people’s, and think people s have to take his lip and attitude. Thats a negative! Hey my mouth is working process.  I had a good  Christmas, wasn’t down in my body or stuck in hospital, did have a doctor appointment before Christmas. It went sorta good and sorta not. Yay for getting took off one medicine and boo for getting put on a new one that suppose to be better for my headaches. If you don’t take medication on every day basic, you or truly bless, and don’t ever take it for granted.  If some had read up on my disease because I havent made it back to do all that good stuff. That post should be up sometimes this week. Different ones with my disease can take the medicine to help them have less crisis, but to be honest I never really needed it before I got put on it when I was younger and it didn’t;t agree with me. I almost died in 06, so that’s when I got introduce hydroxyurea.  I usually take Folic Acid, that been working for me every sense well shoo forever. Seem like I’m everywhere with my post today. I’m pretty sure more to come this week, hate to bore all of yall in one post. 🙂



I do love all my followers, you have truly been a BLESSING to me on my JOURNEY, can’t wait to see how 2012 goes for us. Many Blessings to each and every one of you, like to welcome all my new followers, and say glad to have you on my JOURNEY, can’t wait to get to know each and every one of you as the year goes out and as the new year comes in. God truly knows what he doing when he seen certain peoples in your life that you never expect to make a mark on you.