It’s sad how so many of us are dying due to the lack of care/ and knowledge. We’re dying because they don’t want to listen to us and think we faking it and want to be drugged up. I wish I can be normal but that’s, not the case. Im a warrior and in this fight till im call home. It breaks my heart to hear how we are getting treated. Hell, I still hate going to the hospital with all the BS I done went through. It’s getting better, but that nagging fear still in the back of my head. On my last stay, I was blessed with a good doctor who took the time out to hear my voice. I was so shocked it threw me off. I even had a good CNA! We stay in touch to this day. Doctors and nurses need to go back to school and get more educated on what the hell is Sickle Cell is. I hate when they ask how long you have been living with the disease. Im like what the hell. All my life. I done had so many compassionate nurses than doctors and that says a lot. The question is when will they do better by us?. We want to live and not die by their stupidity. From on out ill be doing more on my illness. Im tired of hearing someone died when they could have lived. We shouldn’t have to be scared of going to the hospital. Im is sorry if im everywhere with my post. I just want us to be heard and to show yall what I go through with living with this illness.
Life of Sickle Cell Warriorr
I know it’s been a while since I blogged. I have had two hospitals Stays since. The first one was after lost my lost man and they thought had covid but ended up with pneumonia. The question to me is how I got it. Thinking someone at the funeral was sick and should have stayed home. For the ones who have been with me since I started blogging about my illness, you know the shit I have been through. The mistreatment, not wanting to believe my pain because they couldn’t understand or see it. I have a podcast for you to check out. I’m going to school with the young lady they talking to. She is one of the strongest women I know who battle this illness. No matter how strong you are they still try to mistreat you. She gave me the ok to share it. I’m still trying to find my way back to blogging. I think I’m almost there. So bare with me. I’m going to visiting blogs. Thank you to the new followers who join my journey. God Bless each and everyone of you all. https://www.wnpr.org/post/almost-everybody-hurts-exploration-pain
Word of Wisdom
The enemy knows that if he can just get you to push that GOD GIVEN idea back “one more time”, it will take you longer to pursue PURPOSE.
LET THIS BE THE DAY YOU DRAW THE LINE. 🔥.
Good Afternoon, God is truly good all the time. I pray everyone is well and message speaks to someone’s heart/soul. Blessings
Life Advice
Fear will have you watching from the sidelines when you are supposed to be in the game! #FearNot
Good Afternoon, God is truly good all the time. Pray message speaks to someone’s heart/soul. It speaks so much to my soul and had to share with y’all. Do bare with me trying to make my way back. I have so many blogs to visit and so thankful for the old and new followers. God Bless
Word of Wisdom
Focus more on listening to them than fixing them…they need to be heard ‼️💪🏾
Good Morning, God is truly good all the time. What a powerful message I got Bless with that I wanted to share and pray it speaks to someone heart as much as it spoke to mine. God Bless
Word to the Wise (Spiritual Word Of Day)
Side Note:
The shaking is HERE. God is shaking loose EVERYTHING THAT IS NOT OF HIM! (Hebrews 12:24-29) Don’t be guilty of holding onto old perceptions, paradigms, and plans! #letgo
#worshipwordandwork
Good Morning, God is truly good all the time. Part the message speaks to someone’s heart/soul. I know I mention. I was going to try and blog every day. But I’m just not feeling it. Some days or better than the others. So I’m going to strive for the days and blog. I had lessons to learn this month so it’s hella rough. God Bless
Word to the wise (Spiritual Word of Day)
The enemy has been attacking your CONFIDENCE and putting up road blocks on the path that God and your gut told you was right. You’re feeling anxious, scared and uncertain of yourself. The enemy is fanning the flames by playing voices of defeat in your head, activating nay sayers in your camp, and raising the stakes. Get out of your FEELINGS—that’s where the enemy is, and get in your FUTURE—and walk this thing out by FAITH. What God starts, God finishes.
#HappyTuesday
Good Morning, I pray all is well and everyone is doing well and message speaks to someone heart and soul. I will be making two post today since I miss yesterday post due to me not feeling well.
How to grieve
Is there appropriate way to grieve for someone you lose? Do you rush someone to move on when they lost there love one? I understand not going into depression over it. We have to pray for them not demand they move on. I had a talk with someone about it and they getting mad cause someone seems to be sleeping there life away. Please don’t tell me you understand when you don’t. Don’t tell me it’s going get better. Don’t tell me you going be there for me and you don’t. Don’t ask me what do I or the family need. I notice when you lose a love one, and after the funeral they calls stop. What happens afterwards when we still grieving and wishing our love ones still here. What happen to the calls the showing of love? Does it all go in vain and was you m lying to them? What happen when we start to struggle and lose our way. Can we call on you when we drowning and our hell and wonder if we ever going get out of it. So many unanswered questions. I’m so thankful for the people who understands where I’m coming get from and don’t sit and lie to me. Who says after so many odd years they still miss them and thinking of them and it doesn’t get any easier. Stop lying to us and saying it’s going to get better. Just be real and let us grieve the way we want. Pray for us and keep reaching out and checking in. Just be a friend or a family. What I come to realize after losing my dad, is family is BS. They like to show there assume and it the worse possible way. If only the person who we grieving the was alive you wouldn’t act the way you act and turn your back on family. When grieving we go though so many emotions. It’s really many steps to grieving.
Question is how do you grieve? Have you ever had anyone tell you to get over it? What do you do when a love one tells you how to grieve ? So many emotions run thru me when people try to tell me how I feel. Do share your thoughts on the matter.
Prayers
I’m so thankful for all the kind comments and prayers. Only God knows all things and just how much I’m lost without my ole man.
I’m in need of prayers for comfort
I’m in need of a piece of mind
Prayers
Are the only thing that will get me through all this.
One day at a time
My heartbreaking just the mere thought of not seen him anymore.
Breaking even more because of Sunday.
He just reminded us last month it was coming up.
Prayers
To not question why he choice to leave so suddenly.
Prayers
To know I got this thing life without him in my corner.
Prayers
For comfort for my family
Prayers
To keep living and not dwell on him not been here.
I know death is part of life.
It always catch me off guard when you don’t expect it suddenly
Prayers
Just to keep moving day to day.
Prayers
6.19.20
~PJ~
Mini Update
Good Morning and Welcome to My World!! I don’t know if I’ll return to blogging. My world has come crashing down on me. I know it’s best to write then let it all build up on me before I explode. I lost my ole man on 6, cancer took him from me. I’m actually doing stuff to not think of him not bn here. But it’s hard when he was my hero. I finally wrote last night and it broke my heart. I know he in a better place but I just want him here with me. I did get a chance to tell him I love him the night before. He didn’t say it back he was hurting so bad. Omg to see him suffering was heartbreaking. I wish I could rewind time back to when he was healthy and strong. I know we’re not suppose to question God, but I wasn’t ready to let him go. I knew deep down I was going loss him, but not so soon. I think I’m going end post here. It’s breaking my heart. I do pray all is well with each and everyone of you all. God Bless
