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Hope Unites Globally (HUG) Award

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Hope Unites Globally (HUG) Award

The HUG Award was given to me to both three lovely ladies :Lauren: http://lscotthoughts.com/ My favorite twins: http://autumnsunshineandgabrielleangel.wordpress.com. Thank you ladies for consider me for this lovely award. You all have been such a Blessing to me on My JOURNEY!

For those of you who aren’t familiar with this award, below is some information from the HUG Award web site:

The HUG Award© was initiated by Connie Wayne at A Hope for Today at http://ahopefortoday.com, which promotes hope, love, peace, equality, and unity for all people.

The HUG Award© is for people with an expectant desire for the world, for which they: Hope for Love; Hope for Freedom; Hope for Peace; Hope for Equality; Hope for Unity; Hope for Joy and Happiness; Hope for Compassion and Mercy; Hope for Faith; Hope for Wholeness and Wellness; Hope for Prosperity; Hope for Ecological Preservation; Hope for Oneness

“People do not have to give up or compromise their own religious, spiritual, or political beliefs to qualify for the Hope Unites Globally HUG Award©. They qualify for the HUG Award© when, without bias or prejudice, they use their resources and gifts to make the world a better place for everyone.”

For more information on this award, please visit: http://ahopefortoday.com/2012/01/14/hope-unites-globally-hug-award-guidelines/

** You never know how much a hug could be so healing and comforting. I’m truly touch for this award! God Bless 🙂

Please do bare with me on my nomination for this lovely AWARD!

1.http://squammie.wordpress.com/

2.http://waltbrite.wordpress.com/

3.http://sophomorejinx.wordpress.com/

4.http://teeceecounsel.wordpress.com/

5.http://ravenmariesthoughts.wordpress.com/

6.http://maureenlermer.wordpress.com/

7.http://nmwritersbloq.wordpress.com/

 

If you haven’t check there blogs out make sure to check them out, they all bring something different to the table from poetry,wisdom, to whats going on around the world. God Bless 🙂

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Who Am I Suppose to choose

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Who Am I Suppose to choose

 I miss you so dearly

I’m not sure I’m ready

to go down this road

again…

Who Am I Suppose to choose

his heart is confuse..

his love is pure..

I choose the one that’s close…

Who Am I Suppose to choose

I find something in you

that drive me crazy…

you have a voice of angel…

you have a way to touch me

that drives me wild….

Who Am I Suppose to choose?

I’m so confuse….

his heart not sure if

he should stay or go….

his not sure if he could

go back down that road

again…..

They lucky because the one

I choose is here with me

3/5/12

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Poem is dedicated to Love Journey, so do enjoy! God Bless 🙂

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My Music Man

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The way he cares,

truly touch me

He sings, from his heart

making sure to leave a

mark on my beating heart

Sound of Angel

that takes me high

What A Music Man

I have…

I love the way you care

drives me sane when

you cater to my heart

My Love for you

is the drumming

of my heart.

Making music with you

is dream come true.

2/28/12

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As you can see I have no title as of yet, and poem has been on my mind lately. Basically rough draft I may add more or tweak it! As of right now, sleep is truly calling me. So do let me know what you think! Enjoy and I believe I’ll dedicate it to Love Journey!  God Bless 🙂

Thank You Gabby, for helping me with the title of the poem! I love how you don’t mind giving me title ideas! God Bless You 🙂

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Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

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Before I begin, I hope I don’t be everywhere with this post! You have been warn 🙂 I’m so glad the month almost over, hopefully okay maybe I should be saying I’m praying I have a better month ahead of no pain, doctor visit, nasty uneducated doctors, and nurses with no freaking back bone.  I believe I put all that in a nice way to be honest! As of last night, my lovely blood count has drop! I’m so not happy, I take it the uneducated doctor is waiting for it to drop lower before I should be put in the hospital. I have to say I’m totally losing my cool for hospitals all together. I know all doctors,nurses or not that ignorant. Lets just say I didn’t have a good day yesterday! I did have someone take care of the situation that had happen before. So thankful on that! I have come to conclusion, if I say I’m FINE, everything might just be that eventually! People or asking me how I’m feeling and I’m saying okay or I’m fine, because honestly I really just want to feel fine! I believe today has been one of my worse days. I forgot to bring some meds with me so I had to be in pain for a while today. You know how some say the calm before the storm. I believe I said that right, my head isn’t all here right now. I believe sleep is finally calling me home. Yesterday I was worry I would’ve wait longer before I could see the sickle-cell doctor, because of another reason, but got call and hoping to see him soon. I refuse to make a trip to E.R where I’m at! Plenty of hospitals, but when you in pain I don’t see the point going out the way, might be something I have to rethink to be honest!  Something the nurse said to me who was discharging me, she just don’t know I had a lot of unkind words I would’ve said, but didn’t! I can’t lose my cool because there uneducated on my illness. Easy said then done, but something I truly need to work on. Honestly I’m starting to believe certain doctor love to see me in the E.R, but just not able to stick her head in the room when I’m there.  Hmm you know a lot of words come to mind. I must say I better not have to visit the evil place no time soon. Sighs! I believe this post is long enough and you all can sense how I’m feeling about it all! Sorry to surprise some of you, but hey we all have our weak moments when we just fed up! I must say I think I need to go back to when I was younger and had to drag me to the evil place! I don’t think that good ideal, because I had to literally fall out before I actually went! Me in the evil place have many stories we could share!

 

 

Thankful for all the prayers and encouraging words, truly means a lot to me! God Bless Each & Everyone of You 🙂

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Quiet

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Today hasn’t been good day! I’m avoiding going to E.R, because I’m tired of them thinking nothing wrong because my blood work looks good! Feels like a few years ago back in 06. I almost died because they wouldn’t keep me! So if I’m quiet and you don’t hear much from me that’s why! I do hope everyone is having a good weekend! It done got cold once again which I’m not happy about! Sighs! Thank you all for the prayers and kind words truly means a lot! I’m praying I start feeling better soon! God Bless & Good Night 🙂

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My Story

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Has taking me places I never thought it would be going.

Only honesty can get me out of this right now

So to my kind followers

Lately I have been losing

courage to share my JOURNEY

with you all.

It seem like I’m ready to throw

in the towel and ready to give up

All I want to do is cry,scream,yell

and hide under the covers in

the dark!

This is My story

2/22/12

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I was going to put it in a poem, but I decided to just make it in a post to put all my thoughts in it! I hope you all brought your cup o joe and something to snack on as I share a little or should I say a lot with you. As of lately I have been in pain every single day since las Thursday! I enjoyed the few days of no pain.  Seems my blood count is looking good so they wont keep me. Sighs! I done read stories of other sickle-cell patients that in pain every day of they lives, but honestly that have never been me. My heart always went out to them, and broke. Yesterday I had one of my weak moments and just broke down and cried out and just wanted to be out of my misery. I know GOD got a purpose for me, I know he’ll take me out this WORLD when his ready! I’m just glad my blood count is looking good, but not happy about the pain I’m having and wish and praying that it will all go away. My doctor appointment didn’t go well if you all is wondering. His worry and I’m worry, his really want to get me into seen a sickle-cell doctor ASAP! So we can see what’s really going on with me. I feel like his giving up, and I know I wanted to give up. I just don’t want to since no one giving up on me or I get that vibe of them doing that. But I do understand if he can’t do anything for me I should see a doctor that can see whats really going on with me. I have good and bad moments. I have to tell you, I’m actually taking my time with this post. My classes have started again today, I thought I had another week but I do need something to take my mind off my pain. I even started playing Farmville on Facebook again, to pass time. I should read one of my novels I recently bought. I have done a lot of catching up on different blogs. Okay back to the point of my blog. I don’t want you all thinking I want pity, because that not what I’m about.  I never imagine MY JOURNEY would be rollercoaster, but GOD knew, so I’m going along with it! Some days I might not have much to share and some days I might have a lot to share. I actually have a class I have to retake because of being so sick last semester. Sucks, but for some odd reason I rather take it over then just make up the stuff I haven’t done.  After this semester I’ll be off to the FALL. Hopefully I have my illness in check and you all wont hear about me been in the hospital so much. I seem to be everywhere in this post once again. Lastnight I got so upset with the nurse, but she explain herself to me afterwards. I just want people to understand I HATE HOSPITAL/DOCTOR OFFICE/. I had a few good nurses last night, that took real good care of me. The nurse explain to me that I have so much going for me and she wants to know whats going on with me because she is use to take care of sickle-cell patients and she know I never use to come in as much as I have been coming in. I don’t blame her for thinking like that, but its a way to show someone you care so they can see where you coming from. I hope that made sense. Now I see what many sickle-cell patients go through when people think that addicted because they come to the hospital so often, hell if that was the case I would just go drop off all my prescription I have in my room and get them fill. I’m allerged to pretty much everything, so only can take one thing. Hmmm, and they keep giving me darn prescription for stuff I don’t like. Yes, I’m serious. Anyways away from that nonsense.  I’m so thankful for the encouragement and prayers, truly mean so much to me. You all just don’t know how much it keeps me going at times. 🙂 I know I’m not alone on this JOURNEY! I will not give up the fight, I’m trying to be more of ADVOCATE, something I truly always wanted to be. I know I keep tell myself I’ll do post explain what my illness is, do bare with me. I haven’t forgotten.

I haven’t lost my FAITH, not letting the devil get the best of me either. I know we all go through different things in life. I see my illness has been one of them as of right now. No limits to what GOD can do for me and any of us! God Bless 🙂

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Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

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Hello and Welcome to my place, if you new to my JOURNEY, you may not know I just recently got out of the hospital for been in there for about a week! sighs! If you been on my JOURNEY, you all know the routine and thank you all for staying with me for the long ride. I never imagine it would be so bumpy. I have never seen the inside of hospital as much as I have this year. I suppose it’s the first time for everything. Well not just this year, since the year just came in. lol. I have never seen the inside of hospital every month. Usually just once or twice and sometimes none. I truly miss the times I didn’t see inside the hospital. I’m glad I finally got my port, on my last stay, so I don’t have to worry about  getting stuck so much when I do have to visit doctor office as well as the hospital. I’m hard person to stick. Every since I been out the hospital I haven’t been feeling my best. I have been in pain ever since. I find out yesterday I’m actually in the process of having a crisis, but were trying to do everything to prevent it before it get out of hand. I’m happy to let you all know, my blood count is looking good. YAY! I hope it still looks good,when it comes to check up or if I have to return to hospital because for some odd reason I can’t get my pain under control. I must admit did have nice looking doctor yesterday with the prettiest darkest blue eye’s. I’m a sucker for them. Okay you getting to know me a little bit more 🙂  On side note, my little lady has been sick as well with ear infection, she is starting to feel a little bit better. THANK GOD! If it was anything besides ear ache, I couldn’t be around her. She been saying, but I love you. 🙂 Okay back to the point of my post. I haven’t been feeling my best, right now I’m still not feeling the best that I should be feeling. I’m actually in the process of watching a movie with my little lady.  I just hope my blood count stay the same, since it was looking good, but long as I’m hurting that means it got plenty time to betray me. 😦 I’m praying it stay up and going strong. I’m so thankful for the one’s who or still praying for me and holding me in their thoughts. It means a lot to me! I must admit, the day I came home from hospital I did tell the doctor I wanted to come home even if I was in pain, but to be honest, I had started to feel better. The weather has been a little crazy here.

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Ups & Downs

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Up & Down

Down & Up

My body can’t make up its mind

to stay on the up and up

Telling myself not to stress

and make it worse

Transfusion was pointless

blood pressure

playing with me

All I want to do is scream

That wouldn’t help me any

Up & Down

Down & Up

What’s really going on

Is my body betraying me

running through my mind

Up & Down

Down & Up

2/12/12

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So much was going through my head at the time I wrote this poem, actually did it while I was in hospital. I Thank God he didn’t leave my side, through all this. I’m truly Bless, I don’t know how much I can say that. Do Enjoy! God Bless 🙂

Not sure if I like the title, just yet. Still working process, do let me know what you all think!

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:)

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I know I mention I receive good news yesterday 🙂 The good news was I went home, so I spent the rest of the day with my family. I was so glad to see my little lady , her little face lit up. She was so upset about leaving school that she was crying, she stop when she saw me. It truly made my day coming home, I must admit. I told the doctor I was ready to go home either way if I was hurting or not. Let me tell I meant it. A week in the hospital was long enough for me. I must admit I did have cute doctor, the man I saw the first night I was put in. I was excited to hear my blood count went up a little bit more. Thank God. It didn’t get check the night before, and I was off the fluid the day before for four hours, so who knows it might have made a difference. I must admit I did have a good Valentine, going home and being with the one’s I love. Nothing is better than that. In my book that the perfect Valentine. 🙂 For the first time since I have been in hospital I haven’t really been in the mood to post or comment through my ordeal. I must admit it has been one of my not so good experience in a long time. That truly says a lot. I’m not going to bore you with long story, I know you all getting tired of reading about my experience in the hospital. SO I leave it as that. Thank you all for your encouraging words and prayers, truly meant/means a lot to me. Kept me going! God Bless 🙂

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Day 7,Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

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Another day in the hospital, I’m hoping to hear some good news tomorrow about going home. My blood count is still the same as yesterday. Hasn’t gone back up or down. I’m still a little concern that it drop so quickly. I still have some pain but not as bad as the pain I had when I came here. I’m hoping to receive some good news later tonight or early morning when they come do some lab work on me. I don’t really have much to post about. I have been in bed most of the bed. Little homesick, suppose you can say I miss the little one’s. I wasn’t there when my little lady went to daycare for the first time. I hope it went good for her, guess I find out tomorrow when I go home. I’m so thankful for all the prayers & encouraging words, truly means a lot to me. I see the shift is changing, with more new nurses tonight. I actually got to know the young lady last night, she is a few years younger than me who recently just move from here. I thought she didn’t talk.but she was just worry about bothering me and making sure I got plenty of rest.