pain

Broken Soul

Posted on 29 Dec 201129 Dec 2011 by poeticjourney

You know his soul…
cried out..
He scream my name…
warning me to not
to leave him..
I couldn’t feel nothing..
cause of my soul
had died..
and I kill his soul..
I couldn’t even cry, cause…
my heart wouldn’t let me feel…
I saw his pain..
but did I care..
I wanted him so bad..
cause he touch my heart..
in more ways than one..
I thought I was ready..
but I was wrong…
He never hurted me..
he kept his word..
I was the one that..
broke his spirit..
He had my soul on fire…
Gave me the world…
What did I do?
I left..
Walk out in the rain..
Felt no regret..
No remorse..
I knew I was doing the right thing..
My soul was at peace…

7/29/07

PoeticJourney

Another poem from my past and wanted to share with ya’ll. Its part of my Love Journey, things I learn about myself. I believer every relationship show us things, even if we dont understand at the time. Wow is all I can say after reading the poem, I really wasn’t at a good place when I wrote it. I have come along way. Thank God for that! 🙂

Health, Sickle Cell Anemia

Day 2, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

Posted on 11 Dec 201111 Dec 2011 by poeticjourney

Another day and still in hospital. I maybe stuck in here for awhile! Blood count playn tricks on me, so might have to get tranfusion. Lucky me right! They wasnt sure about keeping me lastnight cause it wasnt low enough and it done drop! Still in pain, believe ima go back to bed! Hope Everyone Have A Bless Day! God Bless

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AWARENESS, Health, Sickle Cell Anemia

Day 1, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

Posted on 10 Dec 201110 Dec 2011 by poeticjourney

I have been at the hospital all afternoon. Good to know I dont need blood,hope it stay that way. Since im hard to stick. Dont believe im up to getting poke anymore tonight. I came to ER wednesday and went back home. Gave me time to get worse 😦 Hoping not to be here long!

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AWARENESS, God, Health, My Journey, poem, Poetry, Sickle Cell Anemia

Living with Sickle Cell Anemia

Posted on 7 Dec 20114 Jan 2012 by poeticjourney

I must say I haven’t been doing good for a while, but I have been pushing it to the side and praying that it pass. Guess stress really do know how to get to me and my weary body. If you didn’t know the cold doesn’t do my body justices whatsoever. I couldn’t imagine living in a state that’s colder than Alabama. You probably thinking it don’t get cold here, maybe you right. But since I’m not fond of cold I can’t agree with you. I actually wrote a poem, that I will share.

Pain you have return

I’m praying you leave me

I’m hoping GOD hears my

prayer.

I done stress myself

before classes started

I done lost a love one

and mourn to my

chest tighting up

Pain you need to go

I’m praying for pain

free month

Headaches please vanish

You making it hard to

concentrate with my studies

Back pain…

Not today. tomorrow

or this month

Tears

please go away

I have cried enough

I choke back tears

GOD

Thank You

sometimes that’s all I can say

Pain leave my body

today.

12/4/11

PoeticJourney

As you can see this hasn’t been good month for me yet, But I’m Bless to be alive even if I’m in pain. God Is Good. God Bless 🙂 HOpe Everyone Is Having A Pain Free Day!

Death, family, God, Love, poem, Poetry

God knows Best

Posted on 28 Nov 201128 Nov 2011 by poeticjourney

Nomore suffering
He knew your pain
The burden you carry
After losing two
Daughters
That broke your spirit
He knew your pain and
Held you close to his
Heart
God knows best
Were sad you gone
Some angry and
Dont understand.
I pray your soul is
Resting in peace
God knew what
He was doing when
He call you home on
This cold gloomy morning
You have fought a good
Fight
And shared love
Laughter with the ones
You love for over 80 yrs
God knows best

R.I.P
11/28/11

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poem, Poetry, Sickle Cell Anemia

Posted on 10 Nov 201110 Nov 2011 by poeticjourney

In my body
Here & there
From head & toe
One minute its
Gone & Hello
Its back
Tears of pain
Needles, doctors
Nurses
So much pain
Someone dying in the
Room next door
A young lady giving birth
On the second floor
Tears of joy
So much pain
Around me

11/10/11
Poeticjourney

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My Journey, poem, Poetry, Sickle Cell Anemia

Better Days

Posted on 8 Nov 2011 by poeticjourney

Laying here
In pain
Praying for
Better days
Lord Lord
I need You
Lifting my arms
To you
Crying Out for better days

PoeticJourney

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God, Sickle Cell Anemia

Weary

Posted on 1 Nov 2011 by poeticjourney

My body is Weary

But I’m still holding on

To his hand (GOD)

I know I’m not alone

Even when my body is

Battling itself

How can we be at

Ends with each other

When all I want is

To be free of pain

Though my body is

Weary

I’m praying for

Better days.

11/1/11

PoeticJourney

All I had time to do, more to come. Its working process…..

My Journey, Sickle Cell Anemia

Living with Sickle Cell Anemia

Posted on 31 Oct 201131 Oct 2011 by poeticjourney

Today isn’t good day. I have pretty much being in bed all day. The weather has finally got to me and I’m battling with myself. I’m praying it shall pass because I’m already stressing with school and it’s over week after next. Telling myself I can’t get sick, just to keep myself going. Right now I’m love my bed but hating at the same time since I have so much to do and going on right now in my life. I have to tell myself I can’t get sick or just wait to I’m done with my classes. I wish it work that way. I had good weekend we took the little ones to the park, probably shouldn’t stayed out in the windy weather. It was so beautiful Saturday and to see my love’s enjoying they self. I shall post pictures up later or once I’m feeling better. I must say they wanted to play instead of taking pictures for auntie. I just spoil them about hour ago with some candy since we don’t really celebrate Halloween. Just to see they little face lights up makes me feel good. I can honestly say I missing the days with no pain right now. I stay in bed longer then usually. I have to give myself pep talk before I can start my day. I actually wrote a poem and once I’m feeling well. I shall post it. Believe I’m going to call it a night or either lay down since I finally took something to ease my pain. I hope everyone is having a Bless Night! God Bless 

p.s Thank You Nightshade130 for your encouragment, you truly A Blessing. More to come. God Bless You

AWARENESS, My Journey, Sickle Cell Anemia

Awareness

Posted on 26 Oct 201129 Oct 2011 by poeticjourney

Am I wrong for wanting more Awareness for Sickle Cell Disease? I was recently talking to someone about my illness and she was like I didn’t know you had it and that she didn’t know much about it but wanted to know more about it. How can I spread the word about it and not get to emotional about not having much Awareness for my disease? I want to be Advocate, to be one that mean I would have to open up more about who I Am, and How I am living and dealing with it for over 20years? I didn’t know about we had a month of Awareness, to have a month but not really hear much about it bothers me. But someone had told me they heard about it and saw a few things as well.

To live everyday and to be in pain a majority of your life sometimes getting to the point and just being unbearable. I smile on days I wanted to cry and just wish I wasn’t here anymore, but I knew it wasn’t my time to go yet. I know I haven’t blog much about my illness. I have been doing research on it for my English paper, so I have been learning new stuff each and every day. When I decide to spread more word on the issue I don’t want people thinking I don’t know what I’m talking about. I know I haven’t made it back to explaining what it is yet.

You’ll see more on these topic of Awareness, it’s time for a change and I’m on my way of making it happen in due time. Right now days have been hard due to my headaches getting the best of me at times.

GOD BLESS,

POETIC