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2022, Journey, Mini Update, My Journey, My Life, my story

Update

Posted on 8 Mar 2022 by poeticjourney

Hello and welcome to my world. It’s crazy and it seems that all I have been doing lately is updating y’all on my life. I’m trying to do better. Sometimes life gets hectic and we forget certain things. I have my moment I want to shut down. I have been told I need to start writing again. I believe it’s the hurt and anger in me that’s destroying who I was. I’m a time bomb ready blow. Why not just share my thoughts and journey with y’all. I was told who knows who I may touch. You don’t realize who affects you till you hit hard there not here anymore. I have written here and there. Break down every time. Idk how to do this journey anymore. So bare with me while I walk this journey. Some days or rough days aren’t good. I even started back walking again and it’s been helping me. I didn’t realize how much I needed it. I did go back to keto to help keep me healthy and out of the hospital. My doctor’s appointment went very well. My blood pressure was good and so was my heart rate. And let me tell you, your girl took the stairs, I don’t do elevators long as I can prevent it. Well, pray everyone is well and bless. God is good all the time. Bless

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Update

Posted on 24 Feb 202224 Feb 2022 by poeticjourney

Hello and Welcome to my world once again. It’s been a while and a lot has been going on. I don’t know where to start but I have been in and out of hospital almost every week. They weren’t listening to me. But I believe I’m on the right track now. I do have a check-up coming on in a few days. I truly had some good doctors that took the time to listen to me. Listen so good they made sure I was seen this week. It’s a blessing when God put the right people in your care. This month has been rough for me. I know for a fact, I’m not ready to stop living. So it’s time to fight.

I have been having trouble with my heart rate getting high for no reason. Then my blood pressure got high as heck. 175/100. I was going thru it, to be honest. I wasn’t stressed The only time I would stress is if certain people would call with nonsense about stuff I can’t do anything about it because I’m sick. It’s crazy how they want to bother you when you are down? Anyways my counts ended up dropping and had to have blood. Just thankful it didn’t take me long like a month or two ago when dropping to 5.4. God knows how to slow you down. I truly have lost my way. My faith has been shaken. I’m working on finding myself again. Meaning spiritual and emotional and physical. I’m ready to start living again. I know the last visit I had started blogging and sharing more. But it was hard to focus thru pain and meds so gave up. I may share them still but as of now not sure about them. Going to cut the post here because tomorrow is doctor appointment and hoping to share more. I pray everyone us well and safe. God Bless

Please forgive me for the visits. Let me get myself together and I catch up soon.

2022, My Journey, My Life, my story, pain, Sickle Cell Anemia, Sickle Cell Awareness, sickle cell disease

Day 1, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

Posted on 4 Feb 20224 Feb 2022 by poeticjourney

Hello, and Welcome to my World. As some of you may know that’s been following me for a while, the title lets y’all know I’m in the hospital. I made sure to stay this time. I’m not going to keep running back up here. My counts still holding their own. My EKG and x-rays were okay. They even decided to give me covid and flu test. It was a slow process but once they got me to the back things ran somewhat smoothly. I had a doctor from last time that I said was good to me. Hella a week. Me trying to fight thru it all. Pretend like everything is alright when all u want is to die on the inside. My counts have dropped from 8.7 to 7.4. This post was supposed to go up last night. I couldn’t keep my eyes open due to the meds. So until next time. God Bless

2021, AWARENESS, Cancer, chronic illness, God, My Journey, my story, Sickle Cell Anemia, Sickle Cell Awareness

Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

Posted on 7 Oct 20217 Oct 2021 by poeticjourney

Good Morning/Evening, I havent been feeling well for the past few days. I take it change of season. Some days I dont want to get out of bed, but hell who doesn’t have them days? On other days I just push through it and pray about it. Thats all I can do at times. I really do miss my dad. He would know what to say right now. Its another month and usually I get sick in October. But lately I been getting sick like every other month. I need to return to keto to be honest, it really helped me out . Have you every realize when you change your eating habit for the best, your body does so much better. I have slipped after losing my dad. But I must admit I’m not ready to leave this world just yet. So its time to get back on track. Another day in pain paradise. Not funny, but had to say it. When it comes to Covid, I make sure I dont go out if I dont have to. And I always wear a mask when I do step out, I care santizer and wipes. I dont do gloves because some stuff Im allergy to and same with diff mask as well. Its weird you never know what you allergy to until you stuck with having to have it around you or in your life constantly. I know I mention awhile back. I havent got the shot and I don’t plan on getting it. Im always careful and to be honestly I dont like been around people to be frank. Im more of a home body and I keep to myself. With this virus thrown at us it make us realize a few things. We tend to forget who and whats important to us. We have the opportunity to spend time with our love one’s. Thats a sore subject for me to be honest still. I still want more time to be with my dad. Covid didnt take him, the damn cancer rob him and us who love him. I always figure I would leave before him, but look I’m still here and his gone. Just thinking about it hurt

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Update

Posted on 4 Oct 20214 Oct 2021 by poeticjourney

Hello and Welcome to my World. Its been awhile since I posted and read comments. I have been through a lot meaning to my emotions and still trying to get over losing my Ole Man{ dad}. Its rough when you a daddy girl. Its getting better but still is a struggle to be honest. I have been in hospital a few times. Its weird not having him here when he was the one I usually counted on when something would happen to me. I’m thankful last visit wasn’t long there was more concern about me getting covid then anything. I went awhile before I even step foot near the place since my area was getting it bad and they had sent extra help because of it. I did have to get blood that I wasn’t happy about. One of these days it can kill me instead of help me. Even though I haven’t blog much I have been writing here and there. I’m also thinking about where to go from here. i need go back to school and finish my last year and i still want to blog and educate people on my illness. I cant believe how many people have follow my journey because of the fact I have shared so much. Its a blessing that so many of you care and willing to learn. I still want to bring more to ya’ll. my fight isn’t over yet and its not easy. I must say I haven’t had any bad experience lately. I know the last time I went i got someone I wasn’t crazy about because they don’t know anything about sickle cell. She was making it seem like I had Covid instead of listening to me , I have made it clear that I don’t want her. If you not going to listen to the patient why be in the field period? Another season has come in and pray everyone is staying warm/cool depending wherever you from. I pray everyone is staying healthy as well. No matter what we going through God is still good all the time. Till next time God Bless

2020, AWARENESS, chronic illness, My Journey, My Life, my story, Sickle Cell Anemia, Sickle Cell Awareness

My port update

Posted on 22 Nov 202022 Nov 2020 by poeticjourney

Welcome to my world. I haven’t blog in a while but have been thinking and contemplating on how to share more of my illness and my thoughts on different things. As I was browsing sickle cell Facebook group I came across a patient sharing what used to be my journey going to the hospital with multiple pokes and bruises. I never thought in a million years I would agree to a port. But when you tired of bn a pin cushion and having a rude ass nurse wake you out of your sleep to put a line in. You either go for line or port. I was glad my nurse was in the hallway when it happens. Some nurses or so compassionate and some just there for a check. It’s always a plus when a nurse has an illness just as bad as you and understands our pain as well. It’s funny because my doctor had been trying to get me to get a port for a while. I have always been scared of needles and still is to this day. When dealing with my port sometimes I hold my breath and they have reminded me to breathe. Everyone doesn’t know what they doing when it comes to my port. They don’t like to listen when you tell them what works and what doesn’t. The port has been a life savior for me in more ways than one. I haven’t taken many pictures showing my port, but do have one. My journey is just that (Mine). If you wondering what my port is used for. It’s for getting fluids, blood when I need a transfusion, and for meds of course. I know over the years I spoke about my port and probably when I got it. It’s good and bad with them. Hell, it’s good and bad with everything. I’m not really at my best, so I’ll end my post here. I pray all is well and everyone is staying safe and warm through the holidays. Many Blessings

My port

2020, AWARENESS, Health, Mini Update, My Journey, My Life, my story, Sickle Cell Anemia, Sickle Cell Awareness

Blog Update

Posted on 27 Oct 202027 Oct 2020 by poeticjourney

Good Afternoon, hope everyone is good and well. As things have changed so much. And seen how so many warriors or saying due to the treatment. I have decided to make a Facebook page so I can share my story and others who give me the ok to do so. Soon as I’m done with the page. I didn’t realize how much work just making another page and the naming process. I have come to the conclusion we need to be heard and if doing this and not been quiet about the treatment or care I get. How will we be heard and how will y’all know my journey and understand just what sickle cell is. A change starts with me not been quiet and hurting in silence.