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My Pain

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My pain,

you can’t see

Do they not

understand,

I hurt in

the same way?

Why must I suffer

because of stupidity

I know they thinking

nothing wrong, she

here for the meds.

The pain

I have, they should

walk a mile

in my shoes

Are we not the

same?

Look pass my outer

Laying here

tossing & turning

Praying

The pain

I have is driving me

crazy

Do they not understand

I hate this place

Don’t I tense up

every time a needle

is mention.

I know they got

to be tired of seen me

trust it goes both ways.

My pain

they don’t understand

nor believes.

Oh your blood count is good

and everything else is fine

Lets send her home.

I swear they love seen

me coming back

to this EVIL PLACE

I wish they could

understand and treat me

with RESPECT..

GOD

I know you in Control

and you know my pain

Praise God

for a doctor

who understands,

a friend

who always there

a nurse

who never forsake me

Praise GOD

he knows My Pain

1/19/12

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I’m so thankful for everyone kind and encouraging words, and letting me know you still praying for me. Yesterday morning I woke up around 12 and my whole body was hurting, I couldn’t move. I got up and fell back down on my bed. Took me turning and tossing in my bed for like 4 hrs to get back right so I could sleep. I still wasnt feeling my best when I did my post yesterday. The poem is inspired about what happen and etc…

 

 

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Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

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No, I’m not in the hospital, I use numbers and count the days when I’m in hospital. Since I have been out, I haven’t been feeling my best. I’m trying not to stress because hey we all know what stress can truly do to our bodies. It ain’t pretty sight! I’m more worry about my blood count then anything right now.  Its been long time since I haven’t had to get transfusion, my count wasn’t all that high. I’m use to leaving hospital with either high 8 or 9 and last month it was 10. It kept going up to even when I visit my primary doctor. When I did visit the hospital the first time it was sort of high 8, but it drop to low 7 since I was in so much pain and it was going up to it reach 7.8 then a little bit more. So you think I should be, NEGATIVE. So since I’m not feeling my best, I was told to make a doctor appointment with my Primary Doctor. I already knew that wasnt going to happen, since I can get to his office on time and still be in there for almost four hours if not exactly four hours. If you wonder what the heck he be doing, you truly not alone. So I made the appointment with  my hemoglobin doctor. If I have to get transfusion, I plan on going for the port ASAP, I can’t take no more sticking and poking.

 

I started my JOURNEY with sharing my illness with ya’ll because I wanted to spread more AWARENESS on my illness. I must say I haven’t done a good job at all. Seems either I’m sick or school or you know we had the lovely holidays last year. I know I still have to do a post to explain what exactly it does and you know all that good stuff. I know everyone doesn’t know what it is exactly. I believe before I continue sharing my illness, I should share a post about it, and do trust me its coming very soon. I’m still struggling with catching up with my studies and staying on top of it. I hate when I’m behind and it takes forever to catch up, seems like that all I’m doing to be honest and its showing in my grades. So not happy when I’m so close to been done with my associate degree. I plan on getting my bachelor once I graduate. Off the topic, but wanted to share that little bit info with you all. I do hope everyone is having a BLESS Day/Night! God Bless

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Laying In Bed

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Laying In bed

tossing & turning

Trying to get right

Laying quietly in

my room

I heard babies crying,

while some are playing.

Poor littles one in pain

Pain so intense

I couldn’t sleep.

Praying just to get

some Zzzz’s

I.V in  sore spot

driving me crazy

As my pain intense

so does the I.V

Laying in bed

Tossing & Turning

Thanking

GOD

 for never leaving me!

Morning came

new nurses arrived

he showed me to never

lose FAITH

Laying in bed

oxygen on point

blood pressure

not looking so good

Tossing & Turning

praying to be able to

go home soon and

be pain-free

1/17/12

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As you can see I had a lot on my mind. I know for a fact I will be adding more to it, if I don’t get to busy with homework.

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Day 4, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

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Hello Everyone,

Time to share some of my day with you. Still in the hospital, have seen the doctor. I have finally saw the doctor and right now at 5 I’ll be getting my blood check and praying It still good or even better. I’ll let you all know how that goes. I’m ready to start feeling better so I can go home and enjoy the craziness of my family. Trying to do my homework but its hard with only one hand to use. I can’t use my right hand because of the I.V been in an uncomfortable spot for me. And I’m not trying to get stuck again. If things don’t go well with my blood count, then maybe I’ll have to get another I.V thats for another post! I have great nurse who I met years ago. It’s good to see a familiar face when you in unpleasant place. I actually miss doing some poetry, I have been thinking of a few pieces to write but havent had the strength to type, I wouldn’t dare write since I wouldn’t be able to understand.

before I end the post I would love TO THANK EACH & EVERYONE OF YOU FOR PRAYING, KEEPING ME IN YOUR THOUGHTS, AS WELL ENCOURAGEMENT! GOD BLESS EACH & EVERYONE OF YOU 🙂

GOD TRULY BLESS ME WITH EACH & EVERYONE OF YOU

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Day 3, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

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Well got a little good news today. My account went up some,but still low,but if it keep going up. NO TRANFUSION! Yay! I have been in bed majority of the day getting some good sleep. Headache been kicking my butt:( Its cold and I wish Spring was already here for me. Havent seen the doctor yet today, not sure how I feel about that. I’m just glad it’s not the rude doctor from before. Yes, if you wondering if I complain about him too my doctors. the answer is yes! Guess I should get to doing a little homework while the pain is gone. Thank each and every one of you for praying for me, asking how im doing. your encouragement! God Bless

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Update(Doctor Appointment)

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I receive some good news, so I don’t have lupus and that’s real good to know. I’m not happy about how long t took my primary doctor to fax some information over that I needed to see the doctor. Last time I saw him was before Christmas I was back there and now have made it back to  the waiting room, while waiting for them to get with it. Lets just say I wasn’t happy about how everything was going. Have you ever wonder why doctor office are always cold? Well I have, I would think it be warm since its hella cold outside. Sound like they trying to send me back to E.R, but hey that’s just me over thinking the situations. What do ya’ll think? I finally left, so hopefully I wont get a bill talking about my insurance wont cover it and I have to pay whatever crazy amount. I know for a fact I have to act a fool. Another plus side of the situation is that the doctor was nice looking man. 🙂 I had to share that little info! He gave me pamphlet about Lupus, I’m just glad I don’t have it. THANK GOD FOR AMAZING GOD WE SERVE.  GOD IS TRULY GOOD ALL THE TIME. THANK EVERYONE WHO HAVE BEEN PRAYING FOR ME! I never imagine my JOURNEY taking me through this, but I must say I’m so glad to have ya’ll  as a support system. I don’t know what I would do without ya’ll!

OAN: I’m feeling much better today, then yesterday. Thank God! Please do give me time to catch up on approving comments, and visiting blogs.  God Bless 🙂

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Lastnight

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Wasn’t suppose to happen.. I was suppose to walk away and leave it as that…
I’m glad I know now to b honest… but it doesn’t change anything..
I’m still walking away… and you still with her..
Lastnight
bought to many memories back… When we first met, the day we took it further as friends.. and the day you ask me to be your wife..
Even the day you broke my heart..
To the times I hurt you and you left the room… You know  going our separate ways is for the best…
I hurt you.. You hurt me… You stay hurting me…
What A Night.. I’m mad to know I still love you But give me time.. Its going to be gone. . My soul is broken My heart is rip..
I can’t breathe I’m slowly dying. You said you don’t want to hurt anyone..
But hurt me every time I know where your heart really at and it’s not me..
Lastnight..
was suppose to happen.. slap some sense into me, and help me walk away.. with no regrets..
That night did something to me.. showed me my heart sill beats to you..
show me closing love out, hell its always there…
You push me away.. I haunt you, to you ready to accept and believe..
Lastnight…
U came to realize, can’t no other man touch me like you do, thats freaking crazy to me..
You work your way in my life left a mark on my heart

6/20,23/09

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Another old poem and wanted to share with ya’ll. Truly give you something to think about! I don’t know why the poem came out like this. Guess the way the other blog was set up!  Do enjoy

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Untitle

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They call me Poet Afterthought

I’m liable to leave you hanging

to my after thoughts!

Join my JOURNEY,

I promise to leave a Poetic

thought to set you free!

They call me Gem because

I’m precious to the mind

and heart!

Read my life you’ll see

why, I’m call Poet!

1/6/12

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I would say its finish but I lost the last little bit when working on it from my phone, little sad about it. The first time I have nothing to call a poem, 😦