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A Love Story Journey(true one)

I heard from a good friend yesterday. Its hard when your partner in crime n another state. Yesterday I talk about internet.If you miss out on that post please do check out My Love Journey P.5! How did I forget to share her story. I can think of a few reasons, but I ‘ll let ya’ll be the judge. My friend  met her soon to be ex. husband on MySpace. (yea who still use that site?) Not I! Anyways it started off as a friendship and move to dating soon after. Peoples what look good on the outside, doesn’t mean its good on the inside. I thought he was okay guy @ first, but he prove me wrong soon after. Have you ever heard don’t judge a book by its cover? How the hell did I let my guard down? Let me tell you probably because she had been through so much and to see her happy had me at ease. Back to the story at hand. Maybe he was to young to understand love & marriage is truly about. Sound like I’m making excuses for him. Snap Out Of Denial PJ! okay I’m getting a little carry away from my story.( sorry) He decides to pop the question and she accepted! 😦 <<<<< says it all how I felt. She find some letters and some pictures. Now if you got some stuff you don’t want your other half to see. Why keep it at all and leave it in your bags you give to the other person to hold? If you thinking like I’m thinking, we going to enjoy the love journey with me, if you not thinking like I’m thinking hmmm don’t know what to tell you. Phone call and its my friend crying, let me tell you we just had a girl day & we had good times, so I’m confuse on her crying. She letting me know I’m back on my way to your place. And shows up with all the evidence. (Engagement ring, letters). If you wondering why she marry him, that make two of us? lol This the friend I mention in yesterday post who have to learn on her own. I must say what a lesson & some drama she could’ve prevented if she listen to me 🙂 Anyways back to the story. HE DENIED ABOUT ALL THIS, YES, HE DID! If you wonder if he ever admitted to any of this. HELL NO! he said the woman he was going to marry was his cousin. OH YEA THE HELL HE DID! My friend and Ole girl had a talk & and she told it all. Did he admit, OH NO! Still all lies. Oh yea I almost forgot to let you know before they met online he was suppose to marry the other girl  a few days later. OH YES! And would;ve had a child, but they lost it. If you wondering if she knew? OH HELL NO SHE DIDN’T! Cough DENIES! OH YES!

Making the post short, sort of, he knows I don’t like him and why I don’t like him. You know in that department I can careless if he knew why.  Oh last thing almost forgot. The wedding was call off, but umm you know the rest. Oh yea let me tell you I was so busy with school I had neglect my friend. I know shame on me. I get a text letting me know she done got marry! I wasn’t happy! 😦 I was happy when she finally move back and decides to give the idiot another chance. Why? Hell IF I KNOW! Sighs! Forgive me for been everywhere with the post and for grammar errors.

Not all relationship from online will end this way, it’s just another example. I mention one that did last! You have to be willingly to take the good with the bad. I have learned to take everything I learn on relationship and put it all in my poems as you all can see. If we never had disappointments how would we be able to handle it when it comes. I have been a big fan of walking away when things get rough, I believe I still have that in me at times. I had to put that in my post in case a certain person reads it. lol

I hate to make this post so long and bore ya’ll, point of the post and hearing from my friend through email was to let me know she was going to finalize the divorce and she had find out he got some one prego. She was all sad because she doesn’t feel like a whole woman since its only 1% of chance she can have kids. I TOLD HER ITS NOT MEANT FOR YOU TO HAVE A CHILD YET! GOD HAS THE LAST SAY SO WHEN IT COMES TO ANYTHING. JUST BECAUSE THE DOCTOR IS TELLING HER SHE MAY NOT BE ABLE TO HAVE A CHILD, DOESN’T MEAN SHE SHOULD BEAT HERSELF UP OVER THE SITUATION. Sorry for all the caps look like I’m yelling when I’m not.

P.S Guys I know you all or not like this and so does she, I’m just telling you how it all went down, so don’t hate little o me. 🙂

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My Heart

MY HEART!….
IS GOING THESE WAY AND THAT WAY..
IM FIGHTIN A LOSIN BATTLE WITH MYSELF…
MY HEART !!!!
IS SUFFERING …
IM REGRETTING EVERYTHING I DONE SAID…
I THOUGHT I COULD WALK AWAY…
THE TEARS HAVE TOOKN OVER ME…
IM DOWN ON MY KNEES….
LORD LORD LORD HELP ME….
I CANT KEEP GOING…
IM DYING.. SLOWLY..
MY HEART!!!
IS BEATING TO DIFF BEAT..
UP N DOWN..
DOWN N UP…
OUT N IN..
IN N OUT..
MY HEART..
IS STRUGGLING…
IM TIRED OF TRYING TO BREATH..
I CANT KEEP GOING ON  LIKE DIS..
OUT N IN..
IN N OUT..
DOWN N OUT..
OUT N DOWN
MY HEART..
IS BEATIN TO  MY DARN
FRUSTATION…

11/04/09

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Another old poem from my Love Journey!

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Time To Say Goodbye

I KNOW WE BEEN THROUGH THIS SO MANY TIME’S AND WE ALWAYS END UP BACK TOGETHER. BUT IM HERE TO SAY I DONT WANT YOU! I DONT GOT TIME FOR THE GAMES I WANT A MAN  GOING TO BE DOWN FOR ME AND TRYING TO BE SOMETHING IN LIFE. I WANT HIM TO LOVE AND RESPECT MY LORD. I KNOW SOMETIME IT GET ROUGH AND WE ARGUING AND NOT TALK FOR A FEW DAYS. I KNOW ITS NOT SUPPOSE TO BE EASY, BUT WHEN YOU SIT THERE AND MAKE ME LOOK LIKE THE BAD PERSON EVERY CHANCE U GET. I CANT TAKE IT NOMORE. SO IM SAYING GOODBYE. CAUSE IM READY TO BE ON MY OWN, I DONT NEED YOU NOMORE. I KNOW SOMETIMES YOU HEAR MY SONG ON THE RADIO I KNOW YOU THINKING OF ME CAUSE IM THINKING OF YOU! I USE TO TURN OFF THE RADIO EVERYTIME I HEARD OUR SONG CAUSE IT BROKE MY HEART. IM GLAD IM OVER YOU CAUSE I CAN DO WAT I DO AND NOT WORRY ABOUT A NO GOOD MAN LIKE YOU. I TRIED TO BE A GOOD WOMAN TO YOU CAUSE I KNOW YOU NEVER HAD ONE AND THATS ALL I STAND FOR, BUT AT THE SAME TIME A LOT OF PEEPS SAY I WANT SOMETHING GOOD BUT THEY BE LYING TO THERESELF. CAUSE YOU DONT KNOW WAT YOU GETTING INTO. YES, IM WALKING AWAY CAUSE IM READY TO BE FREE. I DONT NEED YOU CAUSE YOU CANT BE A MAN AND TAKE CARE OF UR’S. I GAVE YOU MY HEART AND U WALK ALL OVER ME. IM NOBODY FOOL SO IM GLAD TO SAY GOODBYE. DONT STOP ME! DONT SAY NOTHING, JUST LET ME GO AND BE ON MY WAY! YOU KNOW WE BETTER OFF BEEN WITH SOMEONE ELSE. SO THIS IS MY LAST WORDS TO YOU! IMA ALWAYS LOVE YOU BUT I DONT WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU! IM GONE AND TILL THEN YOU STAY BLESS AND DO WAT YOU DO!

10/4/06

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I still have a lot of poems to move over from my other blog, so you may see new poems mixture wth old one’s. Trying to get the old poems move over!

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Broken Soul

You know his soul…
cried out..
He scream my name…
warning me to not
to leave him..
I couldn’t feel nothing..
cause of my soul
had died..
and I kill his soul..
I couldn’t even cry, cause…
my heart wouldn’t let me feel…
I saw his pain..
but did I care..
I wanted him so bad..
cause he touch my heart..
in more ways than one..
I thought I was ready..
but I was wrong…
He never hurted me..
he kept his word..
I was the one that..
broke his spirit..
He had my soul on fire…
Gave me the world…
What did I do?
I left..
Walk out in the rain..
Felt no regret..
No remorse..
I knew I was doing the right thing..
My soul was at peace…

7/29/07

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Another poem from my past and wanted to share with ya’ll. Its part of my Love Journey, things I learn about myself. I believer every relationship show us things, even if we dont understand at the time. Wow is all I can say after reading the poem, I really wasn’t at a good place when I wrote it. I have come along way. Thank God for that! 🙂

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Fragile Heart

Fragile Heart: easily broken as or damaged, vulnerable delicate in appearance

Foolish: resulting from or showing a lack of sense, unwise. 2. Lacking forethought or caution.

You seem to keep going backwards & not forward.

You seem not to see whats good in front of you.

You pushing me away & you don’t know it.

You seem to want to do good, but your past

is keeping you from going forward.

Your Fragile Heart

Has been broken by the same person

over & over

And  you wont let no other person have a

chance to mend what has been damage

I call it been FOOLISH at the same time

Fragile Heart

You seem to see the good in one

person & that keeps hurting you

I haven’t even known you that

long, but from what I can see,

you can give a woman much happiness.

You seem to not care what I say & that

hurts me the most.

Fragile Heart

I see the good in your pa.

6/13,18/05

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I was supposed to share the poem the same day I wrote the new one. Check the link https://poeticjourney251.wordpress.com/2011/12/22/fragile-heart/ if you havent read it  and you can be the judge of the one you like the most. Trying to do a little catch up with some of my post before the NEW YEAR & before classes  starts back next week.

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What you scared of

Or you worry about

your old feelings returning

Or you scared he may

feel the same for you

You didn’t know

you hurt him back

in the day.

Years have past

And here is your chance

again

And you have found one

another all over again.

What you scared of?

Dont let your opportunity

pass you by.

These could be your second & only

chance.

What are you scared of?

Is your heart

betraying

you right now?

Do you want him?

Are you just that confuse

because your heart is

playing with you.

What you scared of?

he could be the one

and you letting your heart

get the best of you

What you scared of?

These may be your only chance

Open your heart,move

your lips to the beating of your

heart.

Tell me..

What are you scared of?

Tell him just how you feel

Tell him now, not later.

What you scared of?

It’s now or later.

Make the right choice & and

let it be known.

Shoo…

Just make the first move

Tell him what you been feeling

so tell me

What you scared of?

7/18/11

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I know awhile back you read a poem I wrote that my friend http://colorfulperspectives.wordpress.com/(Risqué), inspired me to write about her situation, well I wrote this one first and since it was little too much to type up at the time. When me and her was in a chat I came up with the one I shared called https://poeticjourney251.wordpress.com/2011/11/17/one-chance/.

Posted in Faith, family, Jesus, Lord, Love, poem, Poetry

Jesus

I haven’t said

Thank You

enough this year

You been so good

to me

You heal me

so many times

when you didn’t have to

Thank You

LORD

You showed my Family

how to never give up

when things got

rough and

e everyone turning there

back on them when they needed

them the most.

Thank You

I’m Alive

because of you

I’m Breathing on me own

All because of your love

JESUS

I haven’t said

Thank You

enough or express

how grateful

 I am that you haven’t

gave up on me

Sometimes I take you

for granted and not realize

it!

You don’t have to do

the things you do

All I want to say is

Thank You

Lord

Without you, I’m nothing

My FAITH

may have been tested, but

it have been restored.

Thank You

for never letting go.

12/28/11

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Sometimes life get so busy and we tend to forget to say Thank You Lord for his mercy! I know I catch myself saying it more and more each and every day. for the good and the bad, because it could a been worser then what it is.God Bless

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Word to the Wise (Spiritual Word of the Day)

They hung HIM high they stretched HIM wide HE hung HIS head for ME HE died that’s LOVE…But that’s not how the story ends 3 days later HE rose again that’s LOVE…HE got up with ALL power in Heaven and in Earth….NO LIMITS!!!

GOOD MORNING AND HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE, I HOPE EVERYONE HAVE A BLESS AND SAFE ONE. REMEMEBER THE REASON FOR THE SEASON. GOD BLESS EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU:)

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Ole Love

You have return

to awaken something inside

of me!

Can my heart still beat

to yours after years of being

apart?

Ole Love

You tickle my inside when

you talk about I make you soft

You know me, I’m harder than the

next person.

Your kindness is breaking

my walls.

Ole Love

speaking to my soul

as I speak to my heart

Can this be happening?

Where have my hardness went?

maybe its the season that’s turning

me into forgiving and loving soul

Or

Maybe its his loving heart

touching me soul and breaking

my brick walls!

God I don’t know if I’m ready

to let another in

Ole Love

made mistake in the past

Can you honestly tell me

who hasn’t?

Ole Love

giving me time and time

is all I need!

Ole Love

12/23/11

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