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Transfusion

As of now, just about done receiving my blood and so ready to go home and rest while finishing my assignment. I have to be honest, I was starting to worry that they may not get my blood type in time. I shouldn’t have had such a doubt, because MY GOD IS IN CONTROL! 🙂  It went good, only took two tries to stick me when it came to the I.V part. I have realize that the nurses in the E.R are just downright rude, because when I’m on the floor I don’t get treated like I’m nothing. I actually had a nice nurse today. I have been up here since 10 this morning, didn’t really get started to about 11. I actually had a little nap during the procedure which I must say I needed it more than anything.  Time to go home and see the babies. I let you know how I feel about that later. lol  They always coming running to the door and hug both my legs. One on left side and the other on the right side, you can’t help but to love them right?

I’m so thankful for the one’s who go out and donate so I can have my transfusion, that truly a BLESSING, that so many people go out and donate blood to save someone life. If I could, I would, but I need all the blood that I can have in me. I Hope Everyone Is Having A Bless Friday! God Bless 🙂

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My Pain

My pain,

you can’t see

Do they not

understand,

I hurt in

the same way?

Why must I suffer

because of stupidity

I know they thinking

nothing wrong, she

here for the meds.

The pain

I have, they should

walk a mile

in my shoes

Are we not the

same?

Look pass my outer

Laying here

tossing & turning

Praying

The pain

I have is driving me

crazy

Do they not understand

I hate this place

Don’t I tense up

every time a needle

is mention.

I know they got

to be tired of seen me

trust it goes both ways.

My pain

they don’t understand

nor believes.

Oh your blood count is good

and everything else is fine

Lets send her home.

I swear they love seen

me coming back

to this EVIL PLACE

I wish they could

understand and treat me

with RESPECT..

GOD

I know you in Control

and you know my pain

Praise God

for a doctor

who understands,

a friend

who always there

a nurse

who never forsake me

Praise GOD

he knows My Pain

1/19/12

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I’m so thankful for everyone kind and encouraging words, and letting me know you still praying for me. Yesterday morning I woke up around 12 and my whole body was hurting, I couldn’t move. I got up and fell back down on my bed. Took me turning and tossing in my bed for like 4 hrs to get back right so I could sleep. I still wasnt feeling my best when I did my post yesterday. The poem is inspired about what happen and etc…

 

 

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Look into my Eyes

They tell a story of what

 I been through

shows my pain,frustration

They hide so many things,

but not the intensity of

my pain, that sends me away

from my love ones

Look Into My Eye’s

What do you see?

Do you see inside my soul?

Do you see my heart crying out?

Make sure you don’t stare,

just be honest and let me

know when they change.

Look Into My Eye’s

They betrays me at times

So many time’s

I had to cover up and push on

Look Into My Eye’s

Tell me what you see?

1/3-4/12

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The poem is inspired by my illness.  With Sickle Cell Anemia, my eye’s or normally yellow, but when I’m feeling bad there turns a little more yellow.  That is when I have to worry, and drink my liquid. Let me tell you feels like I’m drinking too much water. lol

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Learning to Forgive

I know I have written on Forgiving a few times, its part of my JOURNEY!  This post is sorta like update on how I have come long way and what I have learned through it all.

I never knew how much it could

destroy me, holding so much

angry in my heart!

Learning to Forgive

hasn’t been easy

Now

I can honestly look at

the person I was so hurt with

 without anger

in my heart.

You know I tried to understand his

pain, but the way he act destroyed

my compassion I once had for

my own flesh & blood

Maybe it was me been sick

and laying in the hospital

that truly got me thinking.

Or maybe it was me working

on a better relationship with

GOD

That showed me how

Learning to Forgive

could be healing process

for the soul

as well  as for the body

 It hasn’t been easy!

but so worth the JOURNEY

to overcome.

it truly does make you feel good

on the inside

Learning to Forgive

12/28/11

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After taking a break from the post and coming back to it. Before Christmas I saw something in me, I had started to forgive my brother, and saw how much I needed to learn to forgive the other person I was mad with. I shouldnt’ have so much animosity in me, when I’m struggling with trying to make it day by day with my illness.  having talk with my mother by somethings and I realize how my body felt when I talk about certain person. I let myself get the best of me and felt like I was choking. That was a sign to let it go and end the conversation. The post is about Learning to Forgive and how  I’m a working process.

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Recovering/Information On Disease

I seem to be stuck with cold ever since I got out the hospital and can’t get rid of it for some odd reason. I never had this problem before getting over cold. The New year is almost here and have two new doctors to see coming up in a few weeks. One is for my headaches I was getting all the time. I don’t get them as much right now, which is a good thing. But after doing more searching about my disease and learning about why I could be having headaches everyday. I learn something that  I didn’t know that it could be cause of a tumor. Since I’m the only one in my house hold with my illness, its good for me to study on it and learn as much as possible. You do know with seen the different doctors I do have, they never mention anything about me having tumors. I don’t know if that a good thing or bad thing, part of me make me think they don’t believe it could be that serious for me and then other is they probably know I can’t handle no more awful news. Also the other doctor appointment is about why I have so many antibodies in my body. Since its hard to find my blood type, I like to say thank you to each and every one of you whose been praying for me and still praying for me and who donates blood or know someone who does. Last time it didn’t take long to find my blood type. I was so happy! I was just in the hospital that long because of a slow ignorant doctor. Seem like he don’t know how to talk to a lot of people’s, and think people s have to take his lip and attitude. Thats a negative! Hey my mouth is working process.  I had a good  Christmas, wasn’t down in my body or stuck in hospital, did have a doctor appointment before Christmas. It went sorta good and sorta not. Yay for getting took off one medicine and boo for getting put on a new one that suppose to be better for my headaches. If you don’t take medication on every day basic, you or truly bless, and don’t ever take it for granted.  If some had read up on my disease because I havent made it back to do all that good stuff. That post should be up sometimes this week. Different ones with my disease can take the medicine to help them have less crisis, but to be honest I never really needed it before I got put on it when I was younger and it didn’t;t agree with me. I almost died in 06, so that’s when I got introduce hydroxyurea.  I usually take Folic Acid, that been working for me every sense well shoo forever. Seem like I’m everywhere with my post today. I’m pretty sure more to come this week, hate to bore all of yall in one post. 🙂

 

 

I do love all my followers, you have truly been a BLESSING to me on my JOURNEY, can’t wait to see how 2012 goes for us. Many Blessings to each and every one of you, like to welcome all my new followers, and say glad to have you on my JOURNEY, can’t wait to get to know each and every one of you as the year goes out and as the new year comes in. God truly knows what he doing when he seen certain peoples in your life that you never expect to make a mark on you.

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Let Go

Devil take your hand off of me

I want to be free

GOD

I know you see the different struggles

I been going through

I done seen my share of doctors and hospitals

And nurses

GOD

I feel like my body is losing the battle

I’m questioning my health

But I know you have the last say so

I done experience Depression for awhile

I done wanted to give up and walk away

Devil let go of me

I may be struggling but I’m not ready

To lose the fight

I have been fighting all my life

GOD

I know you have a plan for me

I’m a living testimony

Your son JESUS didn’t have it easy

So why would I?

I’m holding on but sometimes

It feels like I’m holding on

To my last string of HOPE

Devil takes your hand off of me

You can’t have me

12/24/11

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Still working process

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He doesn’t care what you going through, he know when you having a rough time and know when the right time to attack you when you at your lowest! 2011 is almost over and it hasn’t been easy for me or my family, but I;m speaking from my eyes right now. I been struggling with a lot and still have a long way to go to I accomplish what need to be done.  I Hope Everyone Have A Bless Christmas!

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Day 6, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

Good Mornin, today I got the news I can go home which Im happy about. I receive two unit of blood and brought my count upto 10.something! I wasnt feeling my best yesterday. Was in a lot of pain after receiving the blood, I have to say im feeling much better this mornin. Hope and pray it stay this way.Like to thank each and everyone of you for your prayers and kind words! God Bless You All:)

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Scars

My scars
Tell a story
Some may think
Im addict
Im not Feenin
For drugs
Im Feenin
For nomore pain
My scars
Tells a story
Of me fighting
Sickle Cell Disease
My life
Is not yours
God gave me
This life
To share it and hopefully
Educate the World
On my illness
My scars
Tells a story
12/13/11

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Working process!

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Day 5, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

Good Afternoon! I had such rough night, couldnt sleep! 😦 my iv thing kept beeping like crazy! I got my unit of blood early dis mornin! Yay! I was going home this mornin, but need another unit of blood. The doctor who is assign to lets just say his heartless. No patience. Im happy about going home today, so please keep me in your prayers. Im so thankful. God Bless Each And Everyone of You:) God Is So Good To Me!

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Day 4, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

Im still in hospital, waiting to get tranfusion. The doctor I needed to see so I can get it came early,but the main doctor came late and had my file. Let me tell you im not happy with him. Smh! I must say he came early today, now im waiting on the blood doctor to sho,his self. Still not feeling my best. Im enjoying sleeping, hate im missing school. Dont know when im going home! ;( im so thankful for ya’ll caring words and prayers! I havent bn in hospital so much before. Once or maybe twice a yr. Or no visit whatsoever. God Bless

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