ignorant – Poets Afterthought

Before I begin, I hope I don’t be everywhere with this post! You have been warn 🙂 I’m so glad the month almost over, hopefully okay maybe I should be saying I’m praying I have a better month ahead of no pain, doctor visit, nasty uneducated doctors, and nurses with no freaking back bone. I believe I put all that in a nice way to be honest! As of last night, my lovely blood count has drop! I’m so not happy, I take it the uneducated doctor is waiting for it to drop lower before I should be put in the hospital. I have to say I’m totally losing my cool for hospitals all together. I know all doctors,nurses or not that ignorant. Lets just say I didn’t have a good day yesterday! I did have someone take care of the situation that had happen before. So thankful on that! I have come to conclusion, if I say I’m FINE, everything might just be that eventually! People or asking me how I’m feeling and I’m saying okay or I’m fine, because honestly I really just want to feel fine! I believe today has been one of my worse days. I forgot to bring some meds with me so I had to be in pain for a while today. You know how some say the calm before the storm. I believe I said that right, my head isn’t all here right now. I believe sleep is finally calling me home. Yesterday I was worry I would’ve wait longer before I could see the sickle-cell doctor, because of another reason, but got call and hoping to see him soon. I refuse to make a trip to E.R where I’m at! Plenty of hospitals, but when you in pain I don’t see the point going out the way, might be something I have to rethink to be honest! Something the nurse said to me who was discharging me, she just don’t know I had a lot of unkind words I would’ve said, but didn’t! I can’t lose my cool because there uneducated on my illness. Easy said then done, but something I truly need to work on. Honestly I’m starting to believe certain doctor love to see me in the E.R, but just not able to stick her head in the room when I’m there. Hmm you know a lot of words come to mind. I must say I better not have to visit the evil place no time soon. Sighs! I believe this post is long enough and you all can sense how I’m feeling about it all! Sorry to surprise some of you, but hey we all have our weak moments when we just fed up! I must say I think I need to go back to when I was younger and had to drag me to the evil place! I don’t think that good ideal, because I had to literally fall out before I actually went! Me in the evil place have many stories we could share!