Posted in Health, My Journey, Sickle Cell Anemia

Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

Before I begin, I hope I don’t be everywhere with this post! You have been warn 🙂 I’m so glad the month almost over, hopefully okay maybe I should be saying I’m praying I have a better month ahead of no pain, doctor visit, nasty uneducated doctors, and nurses with no freaking back bone.  I believe I put all that in a nice way to be honest! As of last night, my lovely blood count has drop! I’m so not happy, I take it the uneducated doctor is waiting for it to drop lower before I should be put in the hospital. I have to say I’m totally losing my cool for hospitals all together. I know all doctors,nurses or not that ignorant. Lets just say I didn’t have a good day yesterday! I did have someone take care of the situation that had happen before. So thankful on that! I have come to conclusion, if I say I’m FINE, everything might just be that eventually! People or asking me how I’m feeling and I’m saying okay or I’m fine, because honestly I really just want to feel fine! I believe today has been one of my worse days. I forgot to bring some meds with me so I had to be in pain for a while today. You know how some say the calm before the storm. I believe I said that right, my head isn’t all here right now. I believe sleep is finally calling me home. Yesterday I was worry I would’ve wait longer before I could see the sickle-cell doctor, because of another reason, but got call and hoping to see him soon. I refuse to make a trip to E.R where I’m at! Plenty of hospitals, but when you in pain I don’t see the point going out the way, might be something I have to rethink to be honest!  Something the nurse said to me who was discharging me, she just don’t know I had a lot of unkind words I would’ve said, but didn’t! I can’t lose my cool because there uneducated on my illness. Easy said then done, but something I truly need to work on. Honestly I’m starting to believe certain doctor love to see me in the E.R, but just not able to stick her head in the room when I’m there.  Hmm you know a lot of words come to mind. I must say I better not have to visit the evil place no time soon. Sighs! I believe this post is long enough and you all can sense how I’m feeling about it all! Sorry to surprise some of you, but hey we all have our weak moments when we just fed up! I must say I think I need to go back to when I was younger and had to drag me to the evil place! I don’t think that good ideal, because I had to literally fall out before I actually went! Me in the evil place have many stories we could share!

 

 

Thankful for all the prayers and encouraging words, truly means a lot to me! God Bless Each & Everyone of You 🙂

Posted in God, Poetry

Walking Away

Not looking back..

We have being down these road before..

Can you save me?

Losing my mind..

I fought for these and it wasn’t for me

God!

What have I done?

Everything that looks good, really isn’t good.

I’m so tired of picking up the pieces.

Can’t even let a ole love in my heart again,

because I’m Broken!

Call me Bitter..

Call me Whatever..

I’m still a child of God..

Walking Away..

Done…

Took your last call…

Read your last text..

Forgot how you use to make me feel..

Am I doing the right thing?

Can I let my guard down

 again?

You was broken when I walk in your life…

Shoulda being  a warning..

I heal you and you broke me in the worse way..

I’m done..

I have…

Thrown the keys in..

Dried the last tear from my eye’s

And…

Deleted your love and erase

my memories of you and me?

Oh so Bitter

Oh so tired of your lie’s.

Call me BITTER..

Call me Whatever.

I’m still a child of GOD…

I’m done..

Not looking back..

Shutting the door..

 PoeticJourney

Random Poem.. feelings needed to be off my chest.. Hope You Enjoy it..

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