Posted in God, Inspiration, My Journey, poem, song, Thankful

Do YOU

DO YOU..
DO YOU..
DO YOU..
SENSE ME..

DO YOU..
FEEL ME..

AS I FLOAT THRU
UR VEINS?

DO YOU..
DO YOU..
DO YOU..
TAKE ME HIGHER?

IM GOING THRU YOU

I KNOW YOU FEEL ME..

SO..

REACH OUT AND GRAB
HOLD AND NEVER LET GO..

DO YOU..
DO YOU..
DO YOU..

FEAR MY MASTER

DOWN ON MY KNESS..
PRAYN..

MY HEART..
BEATN..

DO YOU..
FEEL IT..

DO YOU..
DO YOU..
DO YOU..

DO YOU…

NEED ME LIKE I NEED YOU

I NEED YOU LIKE ITS MY LAST
DAY ON EARTH..

SO..

DO YOU..
DO YOU..
DO YOU..
SEE WAT IM GOING THRU..

MY BATTLES ARE ALMOST DONE..

MY HEART CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE..

MY SOUL..
ON FIRE..
MY MIND..
IS GONE..

DO YOU..

FEEL MY PAIN…
DONT TORTUE ME..
ANYMORE..

YOU HAVE WON..
SO TAKE IT AND
WALK AWAY..

WHISPERS..

DO YOU..
DO YOU..
DO YOU..

GIVE A CARE THAT..
IM DYIN..

TAKE MY HAND
HEART..
AND LEAD THE WAY..
AND LET ME GO..
YOU CAN’T LIVE..

TAKE MY EYES AND SEE…

TAKE MY JOURNY

DO YOU..
DO YOU..
DO YOU..

UNDERSTAND?

Before you continue: let me apologize, it’s long, I got carry away sorry 🙂

At first it was a poem, but I decided to make it song. I have or had two guys making me beats for it. Let me first say how Thankful I am for Everyone that go out and donate blood. I’m so Thankful for Everyone that have it on their license to be donor. Ya’ll or a Blessing for so many people’s. I recently had a tranfusion and only could get one unit. I can’t even tell you the last time I really got one of them. Okay maybe I can it was a few months ago before I got into blogging. My hemoglobin wanted to be on the safe side, I guess he saw something that I was feeling but wasn’t feeling it was that necessary. Anyways its getting real hard for them to find my blood type. I have never being worry about going to the hospital and not coming back home. In my about me im working on getting a closer relationship with GOD, I’m not perfect, I’m not giving up either. One day I may go in and they may not find my blood, it going to take GOD his self to heal me. It actually happy back in May. I’m a GEMINI baby and little lady if you havent read ADDICTION Or MY EYE”S OPEN is TAURUS. Our birthday is a week a part. I was sick and when I say sick I mean sick. I made appointment to my doctor. My hemoglobin doctor. I have to say his the best. I love a man that loves GOD. don’t get me wrong, you don’t hear to many doctors talking about GOD. I went in because I had a fever, if you touch me I wasn’t normal, then what’s normal about GEMINI right? 🙂 but serious. I was burning up. I was hot and everything. So the doctor did what I hate, get his nurses to take my blood.. 😦 I’m a hard person to stick . So i left the doctor and went to meet my little lady great grandmother I was hosting her birthday party that was in a few days. We was doing last minute birthday shopping.  Thats when my mom get the call on her cell that I need to rush to hospital 😦 Umm if you wondering do I have one of them lovely talky things. Yep! I just write small and they couldnt read my handwritting, thats why I ask people’s can you read that so if they can’t and I’m not hurting to bad enough I will repeat it to them. Anyways  she hands me the phone and I listen to what the nurse tells me. Let me tellyou I wasn;’t happy and I wasn’t going to the hospital. Yes I’m Very Stubborn Person. I had plans for my little lady and I wasn’t going let nothing get in the way. So I walk into WALMART with my mother and I was telling her I can’t get sick, I got to do this for little lady and she was like if I hace to stand in to host I will. Yea she wasn’t helping the matter at hand to be honest. Later that evening I had to go to E.R.  My tempterature was 103.something and it wouldnt go down for a hour. I got there lucky me it still wasnt going down and it was 103. something. They ran test and let me tell you. I’m so getting tired of typing. lol.. The doctor on call came in and was like Ms. P everything looks okay your blood count looks fine. I was so happy. THE BEST NEWS EVER! GOD KNOW HOW TO MAKE A WAY FOR HIS PEOPLE’S!:) I got carry away once again, I’m really trying to work on that, but the point I’m truly making. Oh yea I almost forgot, I never thought about the fact I may never come back home leaving the hospital. I always went in believing in GOD will bring me out. Don’t get me wrong I know we all have to leave the EARTH one day, but we just don’t know when exactly. So lying in hospital bed I was thinking, and then look back over the poem/song I was ready to share with word press.  I have actually read/sing it to a few people and let’s just say it broke they heart because well no one wants to talk about living the world. My goal is to touch someone life while I’m alive and when I’m not here anymore to do the same.  The poem/song is not just from my perspective it’s from anyone perspective that go through the ordeal I go through or anyone else. It’s for the coma patients that can’t talk to us, but want to talk, scream, and yell. It’s for the little ones that don’t know what’s going on because they too young to tell us. It’s for someone that’s leaving us and wishes they had the chance to say it. Okay away from that.  I do have another post after this one.

P.S I’m thankful for anyone who go out donate blood for me and anyone else in my shoe. I told Wandering Mind he was Blessing when I came across a post he did about donating blood or Blood Drive. I have a friend who daughter needed some blood a month ago, so I know she is thankful and they still trying to figure out what’s wrong with her.

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I’m Praying

ALL I DO IS THINK OF YOU

I COULDA SWORN, I THOUGHT U WAS DOING BETTER

NOW THAT YOU GONE

YOU STAY ON MY MIND

I PRAY YOU MAKE IT BACK

I HOPE 1 DAY & HR, 1 MIN & SEC

YOU’LL COME BACK

RIGHT NOW IM THINKING BOUT

THE CRAZY THINGS YOU SAID THA tMADE ME HAPPY/MAD

I GUESS ITS TRU

YOU DONT KNOW

HOW MUCH YOU CARE FOR A PERSON

TO ITS TO LATE

SO IMA PRAYING, WHILE U AWAY

YOU’LL MAKE IT BACK

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Posted in My Journey, poem, Poetry

Headaches

You come and go

so intense

that you make me run and hide

into the dark

Some call them migraines

and some sinus headaches

I call them pain in my butt

As I lay  in the dark

The throbbing intensifies

bring tears to my eyes

headaches

pain

eruption

bomb

lava

explodes

The way you make me feel

11/12/11

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In case you wondering with the extra words at the end, umm thats how I feel when I have my headaches. I feel like my head is about to explode. NO JOKE!!!

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Posted in God, My Journey, poem, Poetry

Struggles

Im struggling to come to turns
On how to deal
With the issue
At hand
I have struggle
To fight
I have struggle
To forgive & forget
Im struggling
With the issue at hand
Im crying
Im screaming
Yelling
Im struggling
Please dont give up on me
I struggle
With his death, he was so young
I struggle
With trust,
Believing
All im asking
Is not to give up on me!
God
I need You
I want You
I love how you never gave up
On me
I struggle
With so much
But you never forsake me

11/10/11
Poeticjourney

I actually wrote this while in hospital. The medicine and pain had me thinking! I never though I would want to share so much of me through blogging. I deleted the poem so many times!

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Posted in poem, Poetry, Sickle Cell Anemia

Pain

In my body
Here & there
From head & toe
One minute its
Gone & Hello
Its back
Tears of pain
Needles, doctors
Nurses
So much pain
Someone dying in the
Room next door
A young lady giving birth
On the second floor
Tears of joy
So much pain
Around me

11/10/11
Poeticjourney

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Posted in AWARENESS, My Journey, poem, Poetry, Sickle Cell Anemia

I.V

IV has become
My friend
Right along with
Fluids, pain medication
While
Getting stuck every
So often!
The
Beeping from I.V
Wakes me from
Deep sleep!
Nurses coming and going
I.V
Stuck to me like Chuck
Where I go, it follows

11/10/11
Poeticjourney
Workn progress!

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Posted in God, Jesus, My Journey, poem, Poetry

Forgiving

I’m on a journey to learn to forgive and forget. It’s a battle within myself. I know if I forgive it would be so much better right now. Sometimes when someone takes you through so much, it makes you go cold all over. If I can’t forgive I’m not doing right by GOD.

Forgive

I’m trying to forgive you

I’m trying to let go and

Move on.

So much animosity

In my hear towards you

Is not settling right

How can I forgive?

And accept you in

My heart once again

Forgiving and letting

The past be the past

I guess you haven’t forgave

Yourself, since you still

Stuck in your selfish ways

Learning to Forgive

So I can be right

With myself and God

Forgiving and Forgetting

Is a journey in itself?

I have struggle a few times

And overcome it as well

I’m taking the anger out my

Heart and replacing it

With love of forgiveness

11/6/11

PoeticJourney

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In the book of Matthew 18:21-22

Then came Peter to him and said, Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times? Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee. Until seven times; but, Until seventy times seven.

No matter how many times they let you down we got to forgive them. reading this I see I have a lot to work on. I know with God help I will learn to forgive. God Bless 🙂

Inspired by Nightshade130: http://nightshade130.wordpress.com/2011/11/06/forgive-and-forget/

Posted in Love, poem, Poetry

Could It Be

Could this be love I’m

Feeling

Can love be knocking?

At my heart

Could this feeling be

Love

What my heart desire

Could this be love I’m

Feeling

Have love find me

I use to be broken

I close my heart to love

Turn my back away

As my heart went cold

Could this be love I’m feeling?

It’s a feeling

I haven’t felt in

A long time

Could you have woken something?

Inside of me up

Could this possible be love

My heart dancing to

A new tune

You have waking my heart

Where the ice use to be

It’s all lovely dove feelings

I’m smiling more

These most be love

Could it be I find my

Love

Poetic

7/19/2011

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