Good Afternoon, Had rough night! I’m getting use to the port, actually started using it yesterday. So happy that I don’t have to get stuck anymore! YAY! Had accident with one of the nurses last night, I thought I had lost my pc. She knock my poor baby off the table and hit the hard floor. So happy she didn’t break because she not even two months ole yet. The nurse was like I’m not worry about buying you another one, I can do that. I just don’t want you losing your school work. So I receive a unit of blood last night, because they were worry about it dropping some more. I don’t know when I’m going home just yet. I’m still having some pain, which isn’t a good thing. 🙂 I did receive good news my count went up with the one unit. I was worry that it wouldn’t go up much since last time it didn’t move much. Sad to say little lady still not taking my calls. I don’t know how I feel about that. I don’t know if she think I turn my back on her and not coming back or she just holding a grudge on me. I can’t wait to get home so I can have a serious talking with her. I enjoyed hearing my little man try to talk while on the phone. More like whine because his uncle took his fork from him. I can’t believe I’m missing them this much. 😦 I know I say I’m thankful all the time for all the encouraging words and prayers from you all. It truly does mean a lot to me. I shall keep you all updated on when I go home and whatnot. I know I’m off to the end of the month with school. I must admit I’m excited about that. God Bless 🙂
Category: My Journey
Day 4, Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Good Morning,Finally decided to make it over to posting and reading comments. I’m so touch by every single one of you. I’m still here in the hospital 😦 I had a rough night last night, and my blood count drop. Sighs! It was 6.9 this morning, they want to make sure its one thing or another before they give me transfusion. I wasn’t happy to hear it drop again. I was hoping to have more good news to share with y’all today. I guess I will try to tempt some make up homework and get it in sometime today. I have been putting it off long enough. I’m ready to go home so I can have some real food. as you can see I don’t have much to talk about today. I do have some wonderful nurses today. 🙂 YAY! I hope each and every one of you have a Bless Friday! God Bless 🙂
Day 3, Quick Update
I’m back to share how it all went down today. OMG im so sore where I got my port at so its hurts to really move and to type, so this will be short post. I haven’t had the chance to make it to my comments so do bare with me. I’m not ignoring you. I have a nice nurse tonight, his name is Alex. His a funny guy 🙂 I was so glad to have something to drink, I can’t even tell you what all I had to drink. Of course I was excited about eating as well. I finish my subway sandwich it was good. I’m so thankful for all your prayers and comments. They truly mean a lot to me. Oh yea a little good news is I find out a few hours ago my blood count is going back up! YAY! still low but not low as it was the other day. Something tells me I’m forgetting something, if that the case I make sure to mention it tomorrow lord will. Many Blessings 2 each and every one of you! 🙂 Oh yea I must admit I have been getting much sleep since I been back from surgery. I got to meet the doctor earlier today before it came down to have the surgery, such a nice man. And plenty of nice nurses as well. 🙂
Day 3,Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Good Morning, Another Day here in the evil place. I might make two post today. I’m not happy to be honest. I can’t eat or drink to I get my port. YAY for the port, boo that I can’t have anything to eat or drink. We have subway here at the hospital so it’s not like I would eat the hospital food. I would love a cup of coffee right now. I had another lovely nurse last night she went and go my sub for me last night. 🙂 I’m still waiting to get my transfusion, I need two units instead of one. I believe they have one right now, but not the other one. Sighs! I’m a little nerves about the port, but I need it, because I don’t know how much more I can take getting stick. I saw my little lady yesterday, she didn’t want to leave me. I was so happy to see her. I told her I would call her and check on her, but I feel bad since I was in so much pain yesterday. I had forgotten to call my little lady. She didn’t want to talk to me today. I can’t blame her. I saw my doctor yesterday. I seem to have to start seen a sickle-cell doctor since I’m having more crisis then every before. Oh yea lucky me I have to add another pill to my collection. Sighs! If you all don’t know I hate taking medication. I can understand take them every now and then when you have pain, but to take them so you wont have pain is another story. Well that all for now, I do hope each and every one of you is having a lovely day.
P.s I’m so thankful for all the prayers and lovely comments, they truly help my day go by. God Bless:)
I’m Thankful
Your encouraging words truly
touch my heart
Reading your comments
made me all teary eye’s
I’m thankful
for each and everyone of
you
Ole & New!
Sometimes I smile when
I read what you all left me
Sometimes I want to cry
because it shows me
I’m not alone.
I’m thankful
for all the prayers
I can never have enough of them
I never though I would touch so
many lifes through
MY JOURNEY
All I can say is
I’m Thankful
in more way then one
2/8/12
PoeticJourney
Day 2,Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Good Morning, I had rough night last night dealing with my I.V, had to get a new one. I would get a rude nurse this morning to put it in. I told her to take it out and she ask a stupid question WHY? or you freaking kidding me. Obviously it hurt. I had to but my tongue and let me tell you I had some words to say to be honest. Today I have a lovely nurse I done had before. She is so nice. She heard about the rude nurse, and I don’t know how she heard about her because I didn’t say nothing to anyone. I was in too much pain, to let the nurse I had known last night. I didn’t get the nurse name who came and put my I.V in, my nurse says she don’t play that. See what I mean a good nurse I have. Okay to the bad news, my count drop to 7.3, so you all know what that mean right? I need transfusion. sighs. I know another one. I’m still hurting today, not feeling my best, but wanted to share some of my good and bad news with you today, since last night was sort of short because of the pain. I’m so thankful for all your prayers and encouraging words. Truly touch my heart and head me all teary eyes. I shall keep you all posted, so until next time. You all have a Bless & Glorious Day!
p.s Almost forgot about the doctor, I do have a nice one this time around as well. Someone I never had before! Actually saw him when I got on the floor lastnight and that was around 11 soemthing. I told him I’m use to seen the doctor in the morning, he said he had nothing better to do. I had to laugh at them, sounds like a man thats about his business! We shall see how it goes throughout my stay here.
Living With Sickle Cell Anemia
Where should I begin, I haven’t been feeling good ever since last week. I had a little trip to E.R they didn’t keep me because well my count wasn’t low enough! Go figure right? Shrugs! I started feeling better, but you know the saying calm before the storm right? Early Sunday Morning, it hit me hard and like a ton of bricks. I felt it in my legs,arms,back,etc. I smile when I wanted to cry, took plenty hot showers and bath just to feel a little relief. I had forgotten about bengay, it came to me in dream last night. I’m trying to hold out going back to hospital because of school, semester ends tomorrow. I have to be honest, I haven’t done any homework, every time I tried the pain go bad, sounds bad or like I have excuse not to finish my homework. I’m so ashamed, but if you ever felt bad you know exactly what I’m talking about. I’m so thankful for all the prayers and encouraging words, truly have touch me. I have one of the worse headaches, i don’t know how long I done had it. I’m just glad my back isn’t hurting, because it was painful to move or get up once I did sit down. I could go on and on with this post, but I do have to tempt to get some more homework done, but I do know for a fact if I’m not feeling better in the morning, I’ll be at the hospital dreading it all! I must admit this is the worst I have felt since going into crisis and sharing with you all lovely people. I believe when I got introduce to the ideal of blogging about my illness,I was just starting out really to blogging here. It was bad then, and it’s not pretty now. So on that note, I hope everyone is having a lovely and bless night! God Bless 🙂
Judge Me Not
My story is not your story
so who are you to JUDGE
me!
You don’t have to like
or believe my
JOURNEY
I’m not doing it to
Please You
Walk a mile in my shoes
then come talk to me
You can not JUDGE
me.
You are not GOD
I don’t serve you
Who are you?
To question me?
Or
To tell me my story
doesn’t count
Do you know my Pain?
Do you?
My story is my story
JUDGE ME NOT
2/1/12
PoeticJourney
sometimes many or looking in at us, and think they know our story or believe they have the right to judge us. If only they could walk a mile in our shoes, what looks good or perfect is not the case. I’m so thankful to know only GOD can JUDGE me and no one else. God Bless 🙂
Doctor Appointment
Good Afternoon,
and welcome to my JOURNEY, I know I mention in my Word to the Wise, that had doctor appointment. I’m here to let you know how it went. It went sort of good! YAY! I mention to him, that I’m ready to go for port, because hey your girl is getting tired of getting stick when it comes to things like that. So they or checking into information before I go in for it. I’m little nervous but it’s good I won’t feel it when the time comes, and its a lot easy on my body. I have so many scars on my arms when it comes to sticking me. I actually have a poem call Scars,that talks about it. http://poeticjourney251.com/2011/12/14/scars/ Make sure you click the link to read it. The doctor ask me do I believe I need transfusion, since it was still low. Tell me how come my doctor thinks its low when its 8,but the fools at the E.R don’t. That be another story for another time. Well been home for a while actually waking up from a much needed nap. I got a call saying I need transfusion, its starting to drop once again. I must say I’m hoping that since I’m getting transfusion now, that I wont have to see inside hospital month coming up. I have to pray about it and wouldn’t mind if you all prayed as well. 🙂 So I have to go in later today so they can stick me once again. Sighs, I do pray and hope they have good luck finding a vein. Since I was in the hospital a few weeks ago, someone stuck me in not so good place and have knot to show for it. If you new to joining my JOURNEY, I have Sickle Cell Anemia. They want to me to get the transfusion tomorrow, but I know for a fact that I’m not going to enjoy this. I have to go through a lot before I can actually get the transfusion, that my only main problem right now. Sighs, moving on time to throw all my worries in my school work. I’ll shall keep you all posted on what happen when it happen. 🙂
I’m so thankful for all the prayers from each and every one of you! Truly means a lot to me. 🙂 I do hope each and every one of you having a Bless Day
Shoulda,Coulda,Woulda
You my shoulda, coulda, woulda
hell.. you have become my
joy that I saw you for the real
person you…
To late to say…
Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda..
When you had me you didn’t
appreciate me..
Now I done move on
I’m glad to be with someone….
to love and cherish me
You crying and saying she
wont love u like I did….
I pray she don’t love like you…
Your love poison my soul…
Your infidelity destroyed me
I’m glad I finally move on..
So to your Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda…
You shoulda
cherish me when you had me
I coulda bn the one to heal your
damage and sick soul..
I woulda bn your rock to the
day we died..
You made me..
Your hubby..
Your friend..
when you already gave that
to another man..
You told me it was over and
now you knock up with his baby…
Did you honestly think
I would be your man??
You lied…
broke me down..
I was a pimp and
half a man..
Now im a King and
have recovery the
rest of me..
Damn I see I really
didn’t know you…
The age of a woman…
A mind of a child…
Dats truly insult to the
ones who don’t act
the way you do…
Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda…
Your obsession is an illness…
Cant you see I don’t give a damn for you…
It’s A shame you playing the fool that you
try so hard to replace me with…
You saying and Doing everything..
in your power to win me back…
Damn shame.. I don’t want you…
When will you get the picture and move
on…
Your stupidity is an Illness…
7/17/19/09
PoeticJourney
Another poem dedicated to My Love Journey, its actually inspired by true events, but feel like I left something out, but could be wrong. You be judge and let me know.
Poets Afterthought 