It took me a minute to get here…
Someone once ask me did I know
What I want…
The turn around and told
Me I didn’t know what I want…
Funny thing is they were right…
I never in my life
Wanted to fight for anything but
My rights
As a black woman
I find myself lately…
Thinking about
Fighting for love…
I thought love didn’t need
No fighting
If it was meant to be…
It would be…
I hate that saying…
Big time…
Then I find myself thinking…
Could any man have me wanting
To fight for love…
I’m still a little confused on it…
And been doing a debate in my head
For awhile now…
I don’t want to fight..
I want to give up!
I want to walk away…
Deep down…
All I want
Is you
Next to me…
Holding me down
Staying true to
What’s right…
I fell for you a long time ago
I thought I could
Fall out of love
With you with so many
Miles between us…
I thought no man
Could get me to change my
Ways when it came to that…
Boy was I wrong…
I thought I was solid as a rock…
I’m working on finding my way back
There!
It’s been rough!
I never been one
To stay still for one person…
I can’t even wait…
But I know I should…
That person is everything…
I need right now…
I don’t know about
Tomorrow!
Or next year
Or later on…
But right now
I know!
I’m not trying to think about the future without
You…
I’m not trying to picture my life
Without you…
I’m trying to dream it
Imagine it…
And while I’m at it
Pray about it!
I’m trying to make this right…
It’s hard when that person won’t acknowledge
You when they still in their own ways…
Something got to give…
It’s got me going both ways…
I always wanted to have someone that’s
Irreplaceable….
In more ways then one…
Always wanted someone that
Could complete me in more ways then one
If I throw it at them…
They are going to throw it back…
Stubborn as a mule…
Mean as a snake…
But gentle to the touch
And love in his ways…
Seems like I ask for a lot…
When a lot of peeps can’t even attempt
To stay true to themselves
I’m finally…
Admitting it to myself…
Took long enough
Going on 4 yrs in May…
Well it’s been a long time and a long
Journey!
Like to say Thank God for you!
Poets Afterthought 