No news is good news so I have been told growing up
I’m waiting on phone call from my doctor nurses about my blood count. Trying to stay positive, I done already had my weak moment & broke down. I’m feeling okay, can’t say I’m at my best. I’m hoping for good news, normally I would have heard back in same day, but never went in on Friday or when it was so busy. And it’s holidays around the corner, not helping the stress. I’m praying for good news. Long as it’s not 6 or low 7 I’m good. Okay you probably thinking that’s not good, normally it’s not but if you new on my journey I have Sickle Cell Disease. I just want some good news. No news is good news Right? I was always told that growing up but its doesn’t help me feel better.
Dear God
I need you
I know I been coming to you
A lot lately & have so many
Wonderful peoples praying for me.
I’m coming to you for myself.
I’m struggling
I’m scared & and letting it all get
The best of me
GOD
I truly need you
I know we seem to have this talk
A lot lately.
I’m struggling
So many times I though
You abandon me (us)
I thought I was a mistake (illness)
Sometimes I still wish you left him & took
Me.
I know you did the right thing,
GOD
I’m asking for a lot
I really want good news about my
Health
I’m struggling on my JOURNEY
If I have to crawl I will
My pride may let me ask for help
Be the last thing I do
I’m working on changing completely
I’m struggling with Forgiving,
It’s holding me down
GOD
I’m so sorry!
Why is it so hard to let go all the angry
It’s eating me up so unhealthy for me.
DEAR GOD
It’s me PJ
I’m standing here, ready
To fall down at your feet
Sometimes feels like the weight of the
World is on my shoulders.
Master,
I need you
I’m walking holding my arms out
To be closer to you.
I know with you everything going
To be alright.
You’re Loving Child,
PJ
Fighting to make it to the rightful place.
11/21/11
PoeticJourney
I still haven’t heard anything and I had talk with GOD, brought me at ease. So many people’s praying for me I knew it was my time to go come to him with everything. I know he knows my heart, but It feel so much better to have it off my chest. As I said so many times before, I’m not perfect. I’m having a battle, but not giving up. I have been through too much to give up now. That’s with my health and getting where I need to be with GOD!
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