Month: February 2012

Posted in Faith, God, Health, My Journey, poem, Poetry, School, Sickle Cell Anemia, Update

My Story

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Has taking me places I never thought it would be going.

Only honesty can get me out of this right now

So to my kind followers

Lately I have been losing

courage to share my JOURNEY

with you all.

It seem like I’m ready to throw

in the towel and ready to give up

All I want to do is cry,scream,yell

and hide under the covers in

the dark!

This is My story

2/22/12

PoeticJourney

I was going to put it in a poem, but I decided to just make it in a post to put all my thoughts in it! I hope you all brought your cup o joe and something to snack on as I share a little or should I say a lot with you. As of lately I have been in pain every single day since las Thursday! I enjoyed the few days of no pain.  Seems my blood count is looking good so they wont keep me. Sighs! I done read stories of other sickle-cell patients that in pain every day of they lives, but honestly that have never been me. My heart always went out to them, and broke. Yesterday I had one of my weak moments and just broke down and cried out and just wanted to be out of my misery. I know GOD got a purpose for me, I know he’ll take me out this WORLD when his ready! I’m just glad my blood count is looking good, but not happy about the pain I’m having and wish and praying that it will all go away. My doctor appointment didn’t go well if you all is wondering. His worry and I’m worry, his really want to get me into seen a sickle-cell doctor ASAP! So we can see what’s really going on with me. I feel like his giving up, and I know I wanted to give up. I just don’t want to since no one giving up on me or I get that vibe of them doing that. But I do understand if he can’t do anything for me I should see a doctor that can see whats really going on with me. I have good and bad moments. I have to tell you, I’m actually taking my time with this post. My classes have started again today, I thought I had another week but I do need something to take my mind off my pain. I even started playing Farmville on Facebook again, to pass time. I should read one of my novels I recently bought. I have done a lot of catching up on different blogs. Okay back to the point of my blog. I don’t want you all thinking I want pity, because that not what I’m about.  I never imagine MY JOURNEY would be rollercoaster, but GOD knew, so I’m going along with it! Some days I might not have much to share and some days I might have a lot to share. I actually have a class I have to retake because of being so sick last semester. Sucks, but for some odd reason I rather take it over then just make up the stuff I haven’t done.  After this semester I’ll be off to the FALL. Hopefully I have my illness in check and you all wont hear about me been in the hospital so much. I seem to be everywhere in this post once again. Lastnight I got so upset with the nurse, but she explain herself to me afterwards. I just want people to understand I HATE HOSPITAL/DOCTOR OFFICE/. I had a few good nurses last night, that took real good care of me. The nurse explain to me that I have so much going for me and she wants to know whats going on with me because she is use to take care of sickle-cell patients and she know I never use to come in as much as I have been coming in. I don’t blame her for thinking like that, but its a way to show someone you care so they can see where you coming from. I hope that made sense. Now I see what many sickle-cell patients go through when people think that addicted because they come to the hospital so often, hell if that was the case I would just go drop off all my prescription I have in my room and get them fill. I’m allerged to pretty much everything, so only can take one thing. Hmmm, and they keep giving me darn prescription for stuff I don’t like. Yes, I’m serious. Anyways away from that nonsense.  I’m so thankful for the encouragement and prayers, truly mean so much to me. You all just don’t know how much it keeps me going at times. 🙂 I know I’m not alone on this JOURNEY! I will not give up the fight, I’m trying to be more of ADVOCATE, something I truly always wanted to be. I know I keep tell myself I’ll do post explain what my illness is, do bare with me. I haven’t forgotten.

I haven’t lost my FAITH, not letting the devil get the best of me either. I know we all go through different things in life. I see my illness has been one of them as of right now. No limits to what GOD can do for me and any of us! God Bless 🙂

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Posted in God, Wisdom

Word to the Wise(Spiritual Word Of The Day)

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Every sin is a weight but every weight is not sin. Don’t you want to be Gods Heavy Weight? Lets GO!!! NO LIMITS.

 

 

 

 

Good Morning, I do hope everyone is having a good morning, I’m actually up and about getting ready for my doctor appointment!  YAY ME! NOT! Its beautiful day today I must admit! God Bless 🙂

Posted in Child Love, poem, Poetry

My Mr. Man

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His two and maybe young

but full of energy

so much love  to

give and share

don’t you dare

refuse his love

Mr. Man

doesn’t do well

to rejecting his love

2/19/12

PoeticJourney

A poem dedicated to my nephew! The picture above is actually of him when he first got his hair cut, his such handsome young man don’t you think? Since I’m feeling upto sharing post, I felt I should go head and get them up!

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Posted in My Love Journey, Relatonships

My Love Journey P.12

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Hello and Welcome to My Love Journey, if you new make sure to check the other post out with the same title just different number.

As I was laying in the hospital flipping through the channels for something to watch to pass time, I came across the show Love & HipHop, I believe I got the name correct. It made me think of many shows sorta like it such as the bachelor and bachelorette show and many more. I was going to do a post on this awhile back, but it totally slip my mind. I ask myself why do we have to come on television to find love or to show case our love for our partner? Is it that serious? As I was watching the show you get to see how the ladies act all out-of-pocket towards each other over the guys, all I can do is shake my head. Sad thing about this, I only watch it when I’m in the hospital and never at home. My other thing goes to we complain about money problems, but somehow we have enough money to do reality t.v, is something wrong with the picture or am I over thinking the situation. Do love truly come at a cost, that we not seen the whole picture right in front of our eye’s?  Now I’m not just saying only the ladies act all out-of-pocket, so guys don’t think you all or innocent because you’re not! Just wanted to throw that little information in there.  I know it probably seem like I’m all over the place with the post, but I truly wanted to get this post up and share my thoughts and to hear what you all had to say on the matter at hand. Maybe I’m the only person who feel like this about television shows base on love or people looking for love. Honestly I could say so much on this topic, but then it would be a book instead of a post.

I love to hear from my fellow followers, so do share your opinion/thoughts on this situation. I surely can’t wait to hear from ya’ll. If I have forgotten something, I make sure to comment to your question.

Posted in AWARENESS, God, Health, My Journey, Sickle Cell Anemia, Update

Living With Sickle Cell Anemia

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Hello and Welcome to my place, if you new to my JOURNEY, you may not know I just recently got out of the hospital for been in there for about a week! sighs! If you been on my JOURNEY, you all know the routine and thank you all for staying with me for the long ride. I never imagine it would be so bumpy. I have never seen the inside of hospital as much as I have this year. I suppose it’s the first time for everything. Well not just this year, since the year just came in. lol. I have never seen the inside of hospital every month. Usually just once or twice and sometimes none. I truly miss the times I didn’t see inside the hospital. I’m glad I finally got my port, on my last stay, so I don’t have to worry about  getting stuck so much when I do have to visit doctor office as well as the hospital. I’m hard person to stick. Every since I been out the hospital I haven’t been feeling my best. I have been in pain ever since. I find out yesterday I’m actually in the process of having a crisis, but were trying to do everything to prevent it before it get out of hand. I’m happy to let you all know, my blood count is looking good. YAY! I hope it still looks good,when it comes to check up or if I have to return to hospital because for some odd reason I can’t get my pain under control. I must admit did have nice looking doctor yesterday with the prettiest darkest blue eye’s. I’m a sucker for them. Okay you getting to know me a little bit more 🙂  On side note, my little lady has been sick as well with ear infection, she is starting to feel a little bit better. THANK GOD! If it was anything besides ear ache, I couldn’t be around her. She been saying, but I love you. 🙂 Okay back to the point of my post. I haven’t been feeling my best, right now I’m still not feeling the best that I should be feeling. I’m actually in the process of watching a movie with my little lady.  I just hope my blood count stay the same, since it was looking good, but long as I’m hurting that means it got plenty time to betray me. 😦 I’m praying it stay up and going strong. I’m so thankful for the one’s who or still praying for me and holding me in their thoughts. It means a lot to me! I must admit, the day I came home from hospital I did tell the doctor I wanted to come home even if I was in pain, but to be honest, I had started to feel better. The weather has been a little crazy here.